Messages for you, Ms. Withrow, Part I

Messages for you, Ms. Withrow, Part I; by Victor Luis Villalon-Suarez

most recently updated on 6/30/2022 at 2:18

2/26/2022, 19:00, with later improvements: Kirti, my beLusted, and therefore my beLoved, both with a capital l, to continue on Churchill’s “soft underbelly of Europe”, i think what he should have written is “Europe’s underbelly, which is soft,”. This rephrasing seems awkward to me, but to say “soft underbelly” i think implies, through the specification “soft”, that there is another belly, one that is the opposite of soft, so, because the underbelly exists, either hardening or hard. I specify “because the underbelly exists” because the opposite of soft is not-soft, and what does not exist, so not only what is hardening or hard, is also not soft, so if i do not specify this, then to say “the opposite of soft”, this is: not soft, leaves open the possibility that the underbelly does not exist. And if he had written the less awkward “the underbelly of Europe, which is soft”, he would have introduced the ambiguity whether the “which” referred to the underbelly or to Europe. And “underbelly” is, i think, correct, because bellies in animals can be either below, as in people, or under, as in alligators, so it is not redundant, which i think would, in the case of a word, though not in the case of a system, make it incorrect, because i think there should be only one word for every meaning, and only one meaning for every word, a principle that i still violate in the Glossary, because It contains synonyms, out of weakness in me perhaps, or perhaps there is God’s wisdom in it, i am not sure which. Kirti, my Darling, until the next time, if there is one, and, but only if it is Necessary with a capital n, i hope there is. I wish you the greatest happiness! (Emailed on 2/28/2022 at 12:55, with the subject line: “an example of the types of comments i could make about grammar”.)

2/26/2022, 19:17, with later improvements: Kirti, my beLusted, and therefore my beLoved, both with a capital l, i would love, and think it could be Necessary with a capital n, for you to read out loud to me on FaceTime, if you have an iPhone, and if not on Zoom, certain documents i have written, and as you read to discuss them with me, asking me questions and making comments, and answering my questions and my comments. Your comments and questions could be about my reasoning, about my diction, about my spelling, about my grammar, or about anything else you were interested in. I could email these documents to you as attachments. Would you like to do this, and do you think it necessary with a small N? By saying i think it could be “Necessary with a capital n” i mean that i think it could lead to Fucking, with a capital f, This is: to better and better fucking all the time forever, and by saying “if you think it is necessary with a small n” i mean if you think it might lead to some goal of yours. I think this exchange of ours could lead to Fucking, with a capital f, because of many signs, some of which i have shared with you in voicemail messages already, that indicate to me that after me, you are God’s most important potential, at this point, messenger, and that as Such what you could communicate to me, and i to you, might suffice for God to start to Fuck, with a capital f, that our engaging in this conversation i am asking you to agree to if you think you would like to might be a shortcut to Fucking. Here are a few poignant examples of these signs. I began the script for this Message at 19:17 on February 26th. 1917 was the year of the Bolshevik Revolution, and i met you in an organization whose leader, Eugenio Perente-Ramos, used to insist was Bolshevik. February 26 is 2-26; “two” sounds like “tú”, the informal second-person singular pronoun in Spanish, “you” in English, and 26 is the number of the letter V, as in “Victor”, in the English alphabet. Putting all this together, i read the date 2/26 as “You, Victor!” and because it is linked with the number 1917, which is linked to you, the date and time link you and me to each other directly. Next signs: i take a 5-minute brisk walk almost every hour around 8 minutes before the hour every day between 5:52 and 20:52. When i went out for my 20:52 walk on the 26th, almost as soon as i walked out of my brother’s apartment, where i live, a reedy young man on a bicycle who was just then riding past on our side of 27th Avenue yelled to his companion, another reedy young man also riding a bike: “Shortcut!” Nothing else; “reedy” as in John Reed, the author of Ten Days That Shook the World, which is about the revolution of 1917 and was the inspiration for the film Reds, which you and i watched together at NOC and which has a scene i saw recently on YouTube in which Reed, played by Warren Beatty, is sitting in front of a black manual typewriter like the ones we had at NOC reading to his girlfriend, played by Diane Keaton, from an article he has just finished a page of. The initials of John Reed were JR, also those of Jim Rosenberg, for whom you dumped me when i cheated on you with Barbara Isasi in March of 1989, so 33 years ago this coming month, and 33 was the year Hitler was appointed Chancellor of Germany. 33 can be read as 3x3 following the algebraic logic in which the expression ab stands for axb, and 3x3 equals 9, on which i have more to say later. Jim attended Reed College, again as in John Reed. In further links to the Bolshevik Revolution, Jim was from Wisconsin, whose postal abbreviation is WI, which are the initials of “Vladimir Ilyitch”, as in Lenin, in German, in which the English V is transliterated as W. Jim was also the factotum of CVSA, whose P.O. box number was 1-1-7; 11-7, November 7th, was the date of the Bolshevik Revolution in the Old Style. In the New Style the date, which i never knew, fell in October. In further links to you and to me and to our ill-fated romance, CVSA published, and Jim did all the work on, Invest Yourself, which you had a copy of on your bookshelves, along with a small framed photo of Jim, in your room at 54 Kensington when i visited you in Northampton in March of 1996, so 26–again—years ago this coming month. In this edition of IY Jim used the pseudonym “James S. Mountain”. One abbreviation of “Mountain” is “Mtn”, which was also the abbreviation of “Maintenance”, the name of the system Perente-Ramos personally appointed me to coordinate at NOC. Further, the initials of “James S. Mountain” are JSM, also those of José Suárez-Martínez, my mother’s father. Just as i finished the 20:52 walk, at 21:00 , so at 9 pm, on the dot, i heard the words “All in all you’re just another brick in the wall!” from Pink Floyd’s song Another Brick in the Wall on the radio blaring from a car that was just then driving past, also on our side of 27th Avenue. Kirti, the link to you here is that the words that follow these in the song are: “Hey, teachers!” And you are a teacher, if your LinkedIn and Facebook profiles are true. Back to 9, one meaning of the 9 of the 9 pm of the 21:00 at which i finished the walk is that “nine” sounds like “nein”, “n-e-i-n”, German for “no”, which sounds like an English mispronunciation of “HO”, which in all caps is the Russian transliteration of “no” and which looks like capital h, capital o, and is Russian for “BUT” the adversative conjunction in English, which sounds like “butt”, with two t’s, which can mean “ass”, which can be slang for fucking. So we end up with fucking derived from 9 on this line of approach. But “HO”, in Russian all caps, read as an English word sounds like “ho’”, the uneducated African-American word for “whore”, and in the Glossary you can see that i define a whore as a person who wants only to fuck. So on this entirely different line of approach we end up with fucking, again, derived from 9, and what i think our dialogue could be a shortcut to is Fucking, with a capital f. By the way, tomorrow is the first day of women’s history month. Kirti, if you want to respond to this proposal of mine, my phone number is 570-216-2895 and my email address is victorvillalonsuarez@yahoo.com. I plan to drop whatever i’m doing and respond to any effort you make to reach out to me as soon as i become aware that you are making or have made this effort. Kirti, my Darling, until the next time, if there is one, and, but only if it is Necessary with a capital n, i hope there is. I wish you the greatest happiness! (Emailed on 2/28/2022 at around 12:45.)

2/28/2022, 15:19: Kirti, my beLusted and therefore Loved by me:

I: in the salutations of my two earlier messages of today i wrote

“my beLusted, and therefore my beLoved”. The “my beLusted” means that you are the woman i Lust for, This is: whom i want to Fuck, meaning: with whom alone i could fuck better and better all the time forever, so it is correct. But “my beLoved” implies that you are my only beLoved, which is impossible, because a beLoved is someone who is Loved, and to Love is to want to know that the Loved is Fucking, This is: fucking better and better all the time forever. Since in Fucking all of us, this is: all living things there have ever been, would Fuck, to Love one is to Love all, because if one Fucked, It could only be because all the rest of us would

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be Fucking too, hence “Loved by me”, because i Love you, even if no one else for now, or maybe even ever, does. You can read all these Definitions, and many more, in the Glossary, Which is one of the documents i would like to email you as an attachment for discussion. Finally for now on this point, placing “and therefore beLoved of mine” between commas as i placed “and therefore my beLusted” is, i think, unnecessary for clarity, and cacophonous on top of that.

II: In the subject line of the preceding email i should have written

“examples [instead of “an example”] of the types of comments i could make about grammar and diction”, because in it i discussed the desirability of the choice of “underbelly”, and diction is the choice of words. Please forgive me if you knew this already and feel offended by my pointing it out to you, as if you did not. It is only for clarity.

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And:

III: on my way back just now from joining a gym that’s 15 minutes

away on foot from where i live, it occurred to me, all thanks to God alone, that i should have written that “the underbelly of Europe” is redundant after all, because everything that has a belly has only one, so it is incorrect to suggest there is another, such as by specifying “under-”. So what i now think Churchill should have written, or said, whichever it was, is “Europe’s belly, which is soft”.

What do you think about these three points? Or about anything else you would like to comment on to me?

Kirti, my Darling, until the next time, if there is one, and, but only if it is Necessary with a capital n, i hope there is. I wish you the greatest happiness!

a Husband of yours, Victor.

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p.s.: I am a Husband of yours because i Lust for you. I say “a” Husband because there may be some other man, or other men, who Lusts or Lust for you, and he or they would then also be a Husband or Husbands of yours. But in Fucking you would have only one Husband, and you would want no other you would be so pleased by Him. Who that is remains to be seen. We would know only in Fucking. But i am Married to you unless i find someone else i Lust for instead, which i think extremely unlikely, because Kirti, after 37 years to the month as of tomorrow since we met, i still have not come across anyone i Lust for instead of you, and one can Lust for only one person, because in Fucking we would all be monogamous couples. But if you do not Lust for me, then you are not Married to me, and so are not my Wife, and may never be. If you are not, this in no way diminishes or shall diminish, unless i stop Loving, my Love, Thus for you. We may not Lust for each other and still Love, thus each other!

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(Emailed originally on 2/28/2022 at 16:07 and immediately got delivery failure notification: “The user or domain that you are sending to (or from) has a policy that prohibited the mail that you sent.” Resent via Pinterest as indicated.)

2/28/2022, 16:23: Kirti, my beLusted and therefore Loved by me: although i Lust for you, i do not lust for you anymore, this is, i do not want to fuck you, mainly because i am absolutely convinced that my bodily appearance and feel are sexually repulsive, and, whatever any sexual partner thought about these, even if he or she, benightedly, lusted for me, i would not get pleasure out of sex with him or with her, because i am not (and have never been) what i want to be sexually, and my

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happiness comes only after God’s for me. For what i would want to be sexually, this is, in body, see the images of He-Man that i emailed you a couple of days ago. Nothing less than this will do for me! But it is not just me! I lusted for you the way you looked and felt when i met you, not the way you look and i imagine you feel now, hence my lack of lust for you now. So if we were ever together, even as Husband and Wife, i would not want to fuck you. Please forgive me for any pain this message may cause you!

a Husband of yours,

Victor.

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(Emailed originally on 2/28/2022 at 16:36 and immediately got delivery failure notification: “The user or domain that you are sending to (or from) has a policy that prohibited the mail that you sent.” Resent via Pinterest as indicated.)

2/28/2022, 16:57: Kirti, my beLusted and therefore Loved by me: i sent the above messages of today because i got delivery-failure notifications for them when i tried to email them to you. Kirti, my Darling, until the next time, if there is one, and, but only if it is Necessary with a capital n, i hope there is. I wish you the greatest happiness!

(Pinterested on 2/28/2022 at 17:01.)

3/1/2022, 5:19: Kirti, my Darling, i have just published on the website heaveneternalhappiness.info all the documents i wrote to you yesterday i wanted to email to you as attachments for us to discuss on FaceTime or, failing this, on Zoom. If you want us to launch into this i anticipate thrilling dialogue, please FaceTime (i would prefer this!) or text me at 570-216-2895, or email me at victorvillalonsuarez@yahoo.com.

a Husband of yours,

Victor.

p.s.: happiest women’s history month, which starts today!!!…ad æternum.

(Emailed on 3/1/2022 at 6:07 and immediately got delivery-failure reply: “The user or domain that you are sending to (or from) has a policy that prohibited the mail that you sent.” Pinterested at 6:09.)

3/1/2022, 15:18: Kirti, my Darling, i would love, and think it may be Necessary with a capital n, for you to read out loud to me on FaceTime, if you have an iPhone, and if not on Zoom, certain documents i have written, and as you read to discuss them with me, asking me questions and making comments, and answering my questions and my comments. Your comments and questions could be about my reasoning, about my diction, about my spelling, about my grammar, or about anything else you were interested in. I could email these documents to you as attachments. Would you like to do this, and do you think it necessary with a small N? By saying i think it may be “Necessary with a capital n” i mean that i think it could lead to Fucking, with a capital f, This is: to better and better fucking all the time forever, Which for me would be only with you, with both of our bodies transfigured so we would lust only for Each Other, forever. One of the documents i would like for us to discuss describes in detail what i think Fucking, with a capital f, This is: eternal happiness, Heaven, would be like. And by saying “if you think it is necessary with a small n” i mean if you think it might lead to some goal of yours. I think this exchange of ours could lead to Fucking, with a capital f, because of many signs, some of which i have shared with you in voicemail messages already, that indicate to me that after me, you are God’s most important potential, at this point, messenger; that as Such what you could communicate to me, and i to you, might suffice for God to start to Fuck, with a capital f; and that our engaging in this conversation i am asking you to engage in with me if you think you would like to might be a shortcut to Fucking. Here are a few poignant examples of these signs. I began the script for this Message at 19:17 on February 26th. 1917 was the year of the Bolshevik Revolution, and i met you in an organization whose leader, Eugenio Perente-Ramos, used to insist was Bolshevik. February 26 is 2-26; “two” sounds like “tú”, the informal second-person singular pronoun in Spanish, “you” in English, and 26 is the number of the letter V, as in “Victor”, in the English alphabet. Putting all this together, i read the date 2/26 as “You, Victor!” and because it is linked with the number 1917, which is linked to you, the date and time link you and me to each other directly. Next signs: i take a 5-minute brisk walk almost every hour around 8 minutes before the hour every day between 5:52 and 20:52. When i went out for my 20:52 walk on the 26th, almost as soon as i walked out of my brother’s apartment, where i live, a reedy young man on a bicycle who was just then riding past on our side of 27th Avenue yelled to his companion, another reedy young man also riding a bike: “Shortcut!” Nothing else. And “reedy” as in John Reed, the author of Ten Days That Shook the World, which is about the revolution of 1917 and was the inspiration for the film Reds, which you and i watched together at NOC and which has a scene i saw recently on YouTube in which Reed, played by Warren Beatty, is sitting in front of a black manual typewriter like the ones we had at NOC, reading to his girlfriend, played by Diane Keaton, from an article he has just pulled a page of from the typewriter’s platen. The initials of John Reed were JR, also those of Jim Rosenberg, for whom you dumped me when i cheated on you with Barbara Isasi in March of 1989, so 33 years ago this month, and 33 was the year Hitler was appointed Chancellor of Germany. 33 can be read as 3x3 following the algebraic logic in which the expression ab stands for axb, and 3x3 equals 9, on which i have more to say later. Jim attended Reed College, again as in John Reed. In further links to the Bolshevik Revolution, Jim was from Wisconsin, whose postal abbreviation is WI, which are the initials of “Vladimir Ilyitch”, as in Lenin, in German, in which the English V is transliterated as W, so that VI becomes WI. Jim was also the factotum of CVSA, whose P.O. box number was 1-1-7; 11-7, November 7th, was the date of the Bolshevik Revolution in the Old Style. In the New Style the date, which i never knew, fell in October. In further links to you and to me and to our ill-fated romance, CVSA published, and Jim did all the work on, Invest Yourself, which you had a copy of on your bookshelves, along with a small framed photo of Jim, in your room at 54 Kensington when i visited you in Northampton in March of 1996, so 26 (again) years ago this month. In this edition of IY Jim used the pseudonym “James S. Mountain”. One abbreviation of “Mountain” is “Mtn”, which was also the abbreviation of “Maintenance”, the name of the system Perente-Ramos personally appointed me to coordinate at NOC. Further, the initials of “James S. Mountain” are JSM, also those of José Suárez-Martínez, my mother’s father. Just as i finished the 20:52 walk, at 21:00, so at 9 pm, on the dot, i heard the words “All in all you’re just another brick in the wall!” from Pink Floyd’s song Another Brick in the Wall on the radio blaring from a car that was just then driving past, also on our side of 27th Avenue. Kirti, the link to you here is that the words that follow these in the song are: “Hey, teachers!” And you are a teacher, if your LinkedIn and Facebook profiles are true. Back to 9, one meaning of the 9 of the 9 pm of the 21:00 at which i finished the walk is that “nine” sounds like “nein”, “n-e-i-n”, German for “no”, which sounds like an English mispronunciation of “HO”, which is the Russian transliteration of “no” and which in all caps looks like capital h, capital o, and is Russian for “BUT” the adversative conjunction in English, which sounds like “butt”, with two t’s, which can mean “ass”, which can be slang for fucking. So we end up with fucking derived from 9 on this line of approach. But “HO” read as an English word sounds like “ho’”, the uneducated African-American word for “whore”, and in the Glossary, Which i also want to email to you, you could see that i define a whore as a person who wants only to fuck. So on this entirely different line of approach we end up with fucking, again, derived from 9, and what i think our dialogue could be a shortcut to is Fucking, with a capital f. Kirti, because i Lust, with a capital l, for you, Which means that for me fucking better and better all the time forever would be only between you and me in our Fucking, with a capital f, bodies, so then, because i Lust for you, with a capital l, I am a Husband, with a capital h, of yours. I say “a” Husband with a capital h because there may be some other man, or other men, who Lusts or Lust, with a capital l, for you, and he or they would then also be a Husband or Husbands of yours. But in Fucking, with a capital f, you would have only one Husband with a capital h, and you would want no other you would be so pleased by Him. Who that is remains to be seen. We would know only in Fucking, with a capital f. But i am Married to you unless i find someone else i Lust for, with a capital l, instead, which i think extremely unlikely, because Kirti, after 37 years to the month as of today since we met, i still have not come across anyone i Lust for, with a capital l, instead of you, and one can Lust for, with a capital l, only one person, because in Fucking, with a capital f we would all be monogamous couples. But if you do not Lust for me, with a capital l, then you are not Married to me, with a capital m, and so are not my Wife, with a capital w, and may never be. If you are not, this in no way diminishes or shall diminish, unless i stop Loving, with a capital l, my Love, with a capital l, Thus for you. We may not Lust for each other, with a capital l, and still Love, thus each other, with a capital l! Kirti, although i Lust for you, with a capital l, i do not lust for you, with a small L, anymore, this is, i do not want to fuck you, with a small f, mainly because i am absolutely convinced that my bodily appearance and feel are sexually repulsive, and, whatever any sexual partner thought about these, even if he or she, benightedly, lusted for me, i would not get pleasure out of sex with him or with her, because i am not (and have never been and shall never be unless God Fucks, with a capital f) what i want to be sexually, and for me my happiness comes only after God’s. For what i would want to be sexually, this is, in body, see the images of the comic-book superhero He-Man that i emailed you a couple of days ago. Nothing less than this will do for me! But it is not just me! I lust-ed for you, with a small l, the way you looked and felt when i met you, not the way you look and i imagine you feel now, hence my lack of lust, with a small l, for you now. So if we were ever together, even as Husband and Wife, with a capital h and a capital w, this is, if we Lusted for each other with a capital l, i would not want to fuck you. with a small f. Please forgive me for any pain this message may cause you! By the way, Kirti, i wish you the happiest women’s history month, which starts today, as you may know. Kirti, if you want to respond to this proposal of mine, my phone number is 570-216-2895 and my email address is victorvillalonsuarez@yahoo.com. I plan to drop whatever i’m doing and respond to any effort you make to reach out to me as soon as i become aware that you are making or have made this effort. Kirti, my Darling, until the next time, if there is one, and, but only if it is Necessary with a capital n, i hope there is. I wish you the greatest happiness! Kirti, breaking news! Just as i was finishing this message, the alarm for my 15:52 5-minute walk sounded. I wrapped up just in time to see, on the iPhone i carry with me on these walks to time myself, the time 3:54: 3 as in 3 Middle Street, and 54 as in 54 Kensington Avenue, both former addresses of yours, just after i had finished editing a message to you. I’m perceiving signs like this all the time. Linking me to you. And just now i looked at my computer’s clock just in time to see 4:13, and 413 was your area code in Northampton. Kirti, my Darling, it is now 6:45 on March second. Yesterday i went to sleep perturbed by my inability to answer certain questions that arose as i worked on the program for the dictatorship of God. I awoke with partial answers to them, and immediately had the impression that you had telepathically transmitted them to me. I went for a 5-minute walk at around 4:50 and set my iPhone 5S’s timer, as i always do. As the words “I’m your lady” from Celine Dion’s song The Power of Love played in my mind, my 4:52 alarm sounded. Now, my iPhone SE runs about one minute behind my iPhone 5S, both of which i use, so the 4:52 on my 5S, which was the one i had with me, was 4:51 on my SE, so “forward to Kirti!” If you would like me to explain how i get this from 4:51, ask me. But because i had begun my walk at around 4:50, the time remaining on the walk, which appears under the time displayed on the screen of the phone when an alarm sounds, was 2 minutes, 51 seconds, so 2:51, so again, “you to Kirti!” and “Number Two is Kirti”, which is all the more significant because i had interpreted the time stamp of the first thing i wrote today to Mean “Number One to Fucking”, all capitalized except for the “to”. And i am certain i am “Number One”, meaning God’s first officer. Which prefigured the “Number Two is Kirti” Message i just told you about. And this is even more meaningful because as i told you earlier, i am convinced that after me, you are God’s most important Messenger, with a capital m if you already believe in the Religion, with a captial r, This is: in the religion of Fucking, with a capital f. Kirti, i think it may be that you indeed telepathically communicated these answers i mentioned to you. If so, It was really God doing So, through you. God was the source of the answers, not you. And in regard to our relationship, what your being Number Two to my Number One, meaning that you are subordinate to me, would mean in practice would be at least that if at some point there were a disagreement between us that we were not able to resolve, including about whether there were enough time for us to discuss or to keep discussing the disagreement, you would wholeheartedly defer to my judgement, and you would do so wholeheartedly only if God had given you enough signs to kindle this much trust in me, to persuade you that you should resign yourself for the time being to the pain of thinking i am in the wrong and thus of doing something you think wrong. If in time you thought of something you thought i might not be aware of that might persuade me to change my decision, we could discuss this new element, so subject to these rules on discussions. And if you could not defer to me wholeheartedly, we would agree to disagree unless one or both of us thought of a way or ways to agree, but do as i said in the meantime, praying God throughout for guidance. And God may persuade me that you were in the right and i in the wrong, and then i would do as you said, but only because i wholeheartedly agreed i Must, with a capital m, This is: must in order for God, and Thus for all living things and thus people there shall have ever been, and thus for me, to Fuck, Thus only: with you, both of us in our Transfigured, with a capital t, bodies, as i describe in another of the documents i would like us to discuss. Kirti, my Darling, it is now 5:48 on March third. I awoke at around 4:50 and went out for a 5-minute walk at 4:56, which is 1:14 as a ratio in lowest terms. 14 is 2 7s, which suggests, through the pairing of the 2 and the 7, the number 27, which is not only the number of the avenue on which i live, but also 33, which likewise through the pairing of the 3s suggests the number 33, and 33 is linked to fucking, thus to Fucking, with a capital f, as i have already explained. My brother gets the Miami Herald, which comes with the Nuevo Herald, its Spanish-language edition, and the paper is thrown over the parking-lot gate and onto the parking lot in the wee hours of the morning. I try to remember to pick it up on my last lap to bring it inside. On the 4:56 walk, i forgot, and right after shutting the door upon reëntering the apartment, remembered and went back out to retrieve it. As i always do, i skimmed the headlines in English and in Spanish, then pulled out and folded the “Opinión” section and placed it on top of the papers on the dining table, so Jorge my brother won’t have to look for it, the only part of both newspapers that he reads. I say all this to point out to you all the ways in which i delayed the next thing i wanted to do, the first item on my daily things-to-do list, to contemplate my 3 photos of you, on my iPhone SE, which i was just about to do when i decided to go for the walk, because when i finally sat back down on my brother’s couch, where i sleep and work (like Perente-Ramos on his! Remember?), God drove me to turn the phone back on just in time to see 5:08 on the screen, and 508 was your area code at 3 Middle Street, so the time links back to you, once again. Since the colon of the time can be read as “to”, thus also as “tú”, as if the time were a ratio, and since 5 is V, as in “Victor”, in Roman numerals, and since the 0 can be read as “oh” in English, and since 8 is linked to Fucking as i have explained to you, i read “5:08” as meaning “Victor, you, oh, Fuck!” and “Victor, to Fucking!” omitting the 0, because in arithmetic it does not add or subtract anything, so that 08 means just 8. There are two very beautiful tall and slender to me Chinese-looking young women whom i see almost every day when walking, whether on my 5-minute walks or when going to and coming back from the supermarket. Two days ago on my way back from it, 3 very tall and slender to me Chinese-looking young men were standing on the sidewalk in my way, and one of them wordlessly stepped back to let me pass. In Chinese, “China” is “zhūng guó”, which literally means “Middle Kingdom”, “Middle” as in “Middle Street”. Back to 33, this number is linked to Hitler as i have explained to you. Hitler glorified the “Aryans” as the master race. By Aryans he meant Nordics: white, blond, blue-eyed, angular-faced people, but the Aryans were originally a people of Northern India, dark-brown skinned, black haired and brown eyed. The language of the Aryans was Sanskrit, which is where the name “Kirti” comes from, so the number links to you as well as to Hitler. Just as i thought i had finished this message, God reminded me that in regard to the 1:14 of the 4:56 time i began this dispatch with, the 1 i read as “Number One” and the 14 as 2 7s, or “tú, se ven, se ven”: “Victor, you and Kirti see each other, see each other!” and if this derivation is unclear to you, you can ask me to elucidate my reasoning to you. And if all this is obvious to you and i offend you by explaining it, i beg you to forgive me! Kirti, my Darling, it is now 7:59 and i have just sat back down from my 7:52 walk. As soon as i went out for it, God drove me to see a white, straight-medium-length-black-pony-tialed-haired woman of about my height, neither thin nor pudgy but with a meaty ass, walking past the our parking lot, which i was just then stepping out onto, with a small border collie just like your Bernie on a leash, so here’s a link to you. The link to me is that the initials of “border collie” are bc. In all caps, BC is Russian for VS, as in “Victor Suarez”, which i very often still get mail misaddressed to, or as in “Villalon-Suarez”. In another link to you, when i looked at my iPhone 5S to check the time at which i had seen this, the time remaining on the walk was 4 minutes and 54 seconds, or, as the phone displayed it, 4:54, which i read as “Forward to Kirti!” and as “Forward, you, Kirti!” for the reasons i have already explained to you. So when i looked, i had walked 6 seconds, and 6 is linked to Fucking, with a capital f, because “six” is “sechs” in German, which in German sounds just like German for “sex”, which is also “Sex”, with a capital s, but only because in German for now all nouns are capitalized, not because it presently means what i do by capitalizing it, namely Fucking, with a capital f. And what i had just finished doing when my alarm sounded for the walk was correcting the Definitions of happiness and of pain. Now i’m done for now. May we Fuck, with a capital f, right now! (Not sent.)

3/10/2022, 14:48: Kirti, it’s your Victor, my Darling, with a capital d, Which means: my only One. I think that nuclear war launched on the order of President Putin of Russia, and if not this then World war starting in Europe, both World wars initially at least over the war in Ukraine, and even if not this either then the exhaustion of some natural resource the people of the World need in order to survive, are the most imminent threats the people of the World face right now. I have become convinced that my leadership of the World is the only thing that may avert World catastrophe and set all the people of the World on a path to the best imaginable future: Heaven Itself, if God can create It, Which i believe is not assured, but i have a strategy in mind to achieve It. Therefore, i have decided it is Necessary for me to be president of the United States as the first step of my grand strategy, which is: today, America; tomorrow, the World; and the day after, the Universe and Heaven! I am launching my campaign, and have chosen you as my running mate, but only if you want this role. My first step in my campaign shall be to discuss with you, on FaceTime, if you have an iPhone, and on Zoom if not, those of my writings which form the basis of my program for government, as well as this program itself, which i have published and constantly update on the website heaveneternalhappiness.info. What i envision is for you to read these writings out loud to me from the Website, stopping as you please to suggest corrections and to ask questions, then for us to converse about your suggestions and questions. Kirti, many signs, some of which i have left descriptions of for you on voicemails, convince me that the most important person in the World to God, and thus the most important person in the World, full stop, is me, and that you come immediately after me. This is why i treasure your opinion above all others, but only after mine. However, whenever i think there is time for us to discuss a suggestion or question from you, i wholeheartedly plan to do so until we agree. If we cannot agree, or fast enough for me, then you will resign yourself to the pain of acting despite disagreement, out of trust, if you trust me that much, and thus out of the faith that you shall come to see that my decision was the correct one, or that i shall come to see that yours was, and switch to it as soon as i can, with my apologies to you for my delay in understanding. And if i think there is no time for discussion, you will do likewise. Kirti, although i once and for a long time lusted for you, with a small L, and have for years Lusted for you, with a capital l, meaning that i have for years wanted above all to have sex with you in Heaven, if God creates It, thus greater and greater sex forever, hence in our Heavenly bodies, Which would be unimaginably more beautiful than possible before Heaven, i no longer want to have sex with you and do not foresee my ever wanting to again before Heaven. The chief reason for this is that i am convinced i have always been, am now and unless God creates Heaven shall remain sexually repulsive, and so sex between me and anyone else is disgusting to me, because i lack the body i want to have to give the sexual pleasure, through my bodily beauty, without my being able to give which sex with another would be unbearable for me, hence even if that other benightedly lusted for me. But it is not only me. I also do not lust for you with your present appearance and, i only imagine, body feel. What i want above all is sex between the two of us transfigured into our Heavenly bodies, and because Heavenly, also knowing that all other things that shall have ever lived shall also forever have this kind of sex. I will never initiate bodily contact with you other than to protect you, and if you touch me, i will Pray God to drive me to respond to your touch in the best possible way, this is: with an action that shall bring us closer to Heaven. If this action is to reciprocate your touch, then, but only then, will i touch you back, and nonsexually at that. I say all this to put your mind at ease as to any ulterior intentions of mine toward you. I beg your forgiveness with the utmost humility if my frankness pains you. But i think it Necessary, with a capital n. My phone number is 570-216-2895 and my email address is victorvillalonsuarez@yahoo.com. I plan to interrupt whatever i am doing as soon as i become aware that you are reaching out to me, and answer you. At worst, i think, i will tell you what i am doing and ask you if you think you can wait. May we start living in Heaven right now!

(Voicemailed with slight changes on 3/11/2022 at 20:03. Emailed at 20:09 and immediately got back a notice of failure to deliver: “The user or domain that you are sending to (or from) has a policy that prohibited the mail that you sent.” Just finished Pinteresting the Message at 20:21.)

3/24/2022, 9:24: Kirti, i will not call you “my Darling, with a capital d” anymore unless you insist i do, first: to save every bit of time i think i can, and second: because from now on i ask that you understand this is what i mean every single time i say or even just think “Kirti”. The happiest morning to you! I pray solely to God that you and all those you love, so even any pets, are well enough to do all God Needs you to do, with a capital n! I Pray for the same for myself! Kirti, i have decided that i Need to become supreme leader, with a small l (because the Leader, with a capital l, is God alone), so supreme leader, of the United States to begin with, as soon as i have the wholehearted backing of the armed forces of the United States, by which i mean all organizations of armed women and men in the United States, and as soon as enough of the population of the country has converted to the Religion, to minimize as much as i think possible the amount of repression that shall be inevitable. Accordingly, yesterday morning i sent an email to President Biden declaring this intention of mine to him and stating my chief reasons for it within the space limitations of the White House’s email form. I immediately then left an almost identical message on the two phone numbers i have for Chief Jack Lee Rinchich, who is the President of the National Association of Chiefs of Police. He called me back very soon after, listened as i read to him the Message, asked me for the URL of the Website, heaveneternalhappiness.info, all one word, so with no underscores or hyphens, until, after a couple of tries, he got it right, and asked me to spell my surname. He said he would review the Website and call me back so we could converse about it as i proposed to him. As part of the Message i told him i would drop whatever i was doing, with the sole exception of driving, which in any case i do extraordinarily seldom and then only for very short durations, to answer a call from him as soon as i became aware he was making it or had made it, and that if i was driving i would call him back as soon as i stopped. However, Kirti, i angrily resolved only this morning, after thinking about it brimming with remorse all day yesterday, that there is another exception: if i am conversing with you and he calls. I should have told him this, because for the reasons i have already stated to you, i value your opinion above all others after only mine. So if i were conversing with you and he called, i would say to you: “Kirti, i prostrate myself at your feet to crave your forgiveness, but i think i must interrupt our conversation only just long enough to tell the person who is now calling me that i fully intend to call her or him back as soon as i’m done talking with you. May i do so?” If you say yes, i’ll apologize to the caller and tell her or him that i’m on a call i think i must get back to immediately, but that i fully intend to call back as soon as i’m done with it, and at once resume our conversation. If you say no i’ll let the call go to voicemail. Kirti, it is my top priority for you to read the Website out loud to me on FaceTime, preferably, or on Zoom if you lack an iPhone, and to ask me whatever you want about and raise all disagreements you have with it as you read, and for us to then converse about your questions and disagreements pausing only to satisfy our bodily Needs, with a capital n. If you want to do this, i want to start as soon as you call, text or email me with your assent. If you call me, i think it best for you to do so on FaceTime if you can, so we can begin right then. My number is 570-216-2895 and my email address is victorvillalonsuarez@yahoo.com, all one word, so without underscores or hyphens. I’ll drop whatever i’m doing other than driving in order to answer you as soon as i become aware that you are reaching out to me, and if i’m driving i’ll call you back as soon as i stop. May God create Heaven right now! (Delivered by voicemail on 3/24/2022 at 12:51.)

Script for any call from you in reply to my message of 3/24/2022

Kirti! Do you want to FaceTime with me now?

I: [If yes, turn on FaceTime, then read the first-time Conversation

Opener.]

II: [If no:] Then i suggest we proceed with just the regular phone

connection. Do you agree?

A: [If yes read the first-time Conversation Opener] Kirti, did

you listen to my most recent voicemail? The one in which i told you i have decided i Need to become the supreme leader of the United States to begin with?

1: [If yes:] Do you want to read the Website out loud to

me and ask whatever you want about and tell me all your disagreements with It as you read, and to converse with me about your questions and disagreements, pausing only to satisfy our bodily Needs?

2: [If no:] Then i want to read the message to you now.

Do you want me to?

a: [If yes, read the message: search for

“3/24” Here.]

b: [If no:] Then what do you want to do

instead? [Converse with her about this.]

B:: [If no:] Then before we go any further, i want to

converse with you about how i want us to converse. Do you want to as well?

1: [If yes read the first-time Conversation Opener,

then:] Now, what do you want us to do instead of proceeding with the regular phone connection?

2: [If no:] Kirti, then i beg your pardon, but think we

cannot converse, and this is final. I am going to hang up now. There is nothing you can do to keep me from doing so other than agreeing to converse about how to converse. [Pause.] If you change your mind, call me if you want. I won’t hold against you your refusal on the first try. May all things that ever shall have lived live in Heaven! [Hang up.]

4/12/2022, 1:00: Kirti! It’s your Victor! The happiest day to you. I pray solely to God that you and all those you love, thus also any pet or pets, are well enough to do all God Needs you all to do. This is all i pray for for myself. Kirti, i’ve called to read to you the letter i mailed yesterday morning at 1:18 to the Chairman of the United States Joint Chiefs of Staff, General Mark Alexander Milley, who is ex officio the highest-ranking military officer in the country. [Read it.]

Early this morning i overhauled the Strategy i laid out in the letter. I have shifted my focus from contacting the chairs and heads of academic departments to doing so with all the rest of the civilian leadership of the United States, so:

I: President Donald John Trump,

II: all 9 justices of the Supreme Court, Roberts first and, if he doesn’t reply within 7 days (if i reach out to him by email) or within 10 (if by letter), then the rest in descending order by seniority;

III: all 50 governors (because they command the various states’ National Guard units when they are not federally mobilized), in descending order by the states’ population size;

IV: all 100 senators, the Majority and Minority Leaders first, in that order, and then, if they do not reply within 7 days (if i reached out to them by email) or within 10 (if by letter), the rest, in descending order by their respective states’ population size, and within each delegation the women first, & for both the women and the men, First Americans first, then Blacks, then Hispanics, then West Asians, then South Asians, then East Asians, and finally Whites, in descending order by darkness of coloration, so with blue-eyed Blondes and Blonds last; and because Hispanics may be of any race in the World, i will prioritize us in the same way as the rest, thus leaving White blue-eyed Blonde and Blonde Hispanics for last;

and:

V: all 435 Representatives, the Speaker and Majority and Minority Leaders first, in that order, then, if they do not reply within 7 days (if i reached out to them by email) or within 10 (if by letter), the Majority & Minority Whips, in that order, and finally if the Whips do not reply within 7 days (if i reached out to them by email) or within 10 (if by letter), all the rest in descending order by their respective states’ population size, and within each delegation the women first, & for both the women and the men, First Americans first, then Blacks, then Hispanics, then West Asians, then South Asians, then East Asians, and finally Whites, in descending order by darkness of coloration, so with blue-eyed Blondes and Blonds last; and because Hispanics may be of any race in the World, i will prioritize us in the same way as the rest, thus leaving White blue-eyed Blonde and Blonde Hispanics for last;

In addition to the work i enumerate in the letter i’ve just read to you, i am currently feeding 3 homeless people i see daily or, in the case of the third, the only woman, from time to time, on my trips to and from the supermarket, where i buy them subs and skim milk as well as my own food that i do not order from Amazon. In the case of one of them, the first one of them i met, i have reached out for help to Congresswoman Maria Elvira Salazar, who represents us in the House, and by her referral also to Miami-Dade-County Commissioner Raquel Regalado. So two Hispanic women politicians. We are still exploring ways to help him; nothing has gelled yet. Kirti: i grow only ever-increasingly convinced that i need to know what you think of what i am doing more than i need to know anything else, and that this shall remain so until God creates Heaven or dies, or until you or i permanently lose consciousness, so whether through death or just short of it, whichever of these things happens first. I still want us to communicate through FaceTime, or, if you lack an iPhone, via Zoom. Kirti, i will drop whatever i am doing to answer you as soon as i become aware that you are reaching out to me, and clear my schedule so i and you can converse for as long as you want, breaking only to satisfy our bodily needs, including 1-and-a-half-minute breaks every half hour on the half hour for high-intensity exercise: wall sits and whole-body isometrics in my case, to break up all the prolonged sitting i do, which i have read is just as harmful as smoking if uninterrupted by regular, even if short-duration, bodily exercise.

My phone number is 570-216-2895, my email address is victorvillalonsuarez@yahoo.com, my home as well as mailing address is 3044 SW 27th Avenue, Coconut Grove, FL, 33133-4626, and the address of the website i am the sole author of is heaveneternalhappiness.info. With nothing to add for you for now, i’ll close by wishing: may all forms of matter that ever shall have been exist again or, if God creates Heaven before they disappear, continue to exist, but this time in Heaven! Bye! [Hang up.] 4/1

(Finished vm’g on 4/12/2022 at 12:00 sharp.)

4/28/2022, 11:49: Kirti! This is your Victor! Top of the morning to you! All i pray, and solely to God, is that you and all those you love are well enough to do all that God needs you all to do. This exactly all i pray solely to God for myself. Kirti, as of this call i propose to you to try something different, but that i hope shall please you greatly. I am going to leave you recordings of me singing music that stirs me deeply, indeed unleashing wave upon wave of follicular erection (misnamed “goosebumps”) and sobs of the most profound emotion. I pray solely to God that this music shall give you too, as it does me, a foretaste of everlasting happiness, of Heaven. I sing the melodies without the words, because i find that these all contain grave errors. We need those who are prosodically gifted to compose Religious verses to match the Godly beauty of the music with corresponding beauty in the the lyrics. I will, however, give you the titles of my selections, so you can look them up them in YouTube and listen to them as much as you want. I have chosen for the first installment of this series the classic Christian hymn God of Our Fathers, Whose Almighty Hand. I most highly recommend to you the Mormon Tabernacle Choir’s rendition of it, which you can watch on YouTube. If you do, closely observe the supernal soft sincerely faith-filled smiles of all of the singers. My mere mental image of this video, let alone its actuality, brings me to transported sobs every single time. Kirti, I believe my faith to be the most advanced religious technology ever discovered, so advanced, in fact, that I am convinced down to the marrow of my bones no mere human, much less, then, I, could conceivably be its source, so my faith is not Christian, and informed by It I venture to propose to you this amendment to the hymn’s title: God of Our FOREBEARS, Whose SO mighty hand, for God is the God of our mothers, too, so not just “of our fathers”, first, and second: as you can read in chapter 2 of the Website, which, incidentally, i have renamed “heaveneverlastinghappiness.info", so as opposed to heaveneternalhappiness.info, I believe that God is not almighty, although It (so not “He” or “She”) is exceedingly mighty, whence “SO mighty”. So if I am not much in error Muslims are right to exclaim “Allahu akbar!” “God is great!”—but I caution: maybe not great enough. The Qur’ān says, in sura 5, aya 100, in the Saheeh International translation: “Not equal are the evil and the good, although the abundance of evil might impress you.” It remains to be seen whether there is more evil than good or more good than evil, this is: whether Allah, although mighty indeed, is mightier still than Iblis, or the other way around. Kirti, about this hymn, it was what the organist in Princeton University’s chapel opened the official welcoming ceremony for us Class of ’86 fresh-people (as opposed to fresh-men) by playing. I was transfixed with musical ecstasy, and hungered ever since to learn the hymn’s title, so I could buy and listen to it whenever I wanted to. I was not to satisfy this curiosity until some time around 2004, when I was a patient at Augusta, Georgia’s, East Central Regional Hospital, a facility for the putatively mentally ill, when, during recreation in the hospital’s gymnasium a fellow patient who was a venerable, gaunt, tall, very dark-skinned, clean-shaven and white-haired patriarch of an African-American, sat down at the facility’s piano and began to play. I hummed the hymn for him and asked him if he knew it and would oblige me by regaling me with his rendition of it. Without an instant’s vacillation he replied: “God of Our Fathers”, and then played it. Kirti, the English Standard Version of Psalm 8:2 reads: “Out of the mouth of babies and infants, you have established tstrength because of your foes, to still uthe enemy and the avenger.” It has been my experience, continually bolstered, that great wisdom can proceed from the very young; but here I would add: also from the very old, as in the case of this supposed madman who answered a question that had left me no peace for 32 years!

[Sing the hymn.]

Next i’m going to sing for you another exquisite Christian hymn: Closer to Thee, my God. In this title i object to the “closer”, because, God, i am convinced, has taught me that God is inside all matter, and thus in all of us as well, and so as close to us to as is possible, so that neither can God get closer to us, nor we to God. And secondly, God is everyone’s God,, and so not mine or yours or anyone else’s. Instead we should say in regard to our relationship with God that It is the God we believe in.

[Sing it.]

(Recorded up to the conclusion of Closer to Thee, My God, which left unfinished at ~13:35 on 4/28/2022. 4/29/2022, 12:14: “The mailbox is full and cannot accept any messages at this time.”)

Next i will sing for you another beautiful Christian hymn, Amazing Grace. You shall doubtless have noticed that sometimes i do sing some of the lyrics, as is or modified. This is only because i find them, either as is or as i modified, consistent with the Religion.

[Sing it.]

Kirti, i was indeed a wretch. I was verbally abusive to others, including, most appallingly to me, to my own mother, even in the defenselessness of her dotage and infirmity. And i have physically abused 4 people in my life, including 2 women. You can read about this in great detail in the Website chapter program for God’s system, part II.

Next, in a change of spirit and tempo, i’m going to sing to you John Phillip Sousa’s march The Stars and Stripes.

[Sing it.]

Next i’m going to sing for you classics from that still-unresolved conflict of U.S. history that was the Civil War, or as Confederate purists name it the War Between the States. I’ll start with the the Confederate States of America’s unofficial anthem, Dixie:

[Sing it.]

Next i’ll do the Union’s Battle Cry of Freedom, although please note that the Old South adapted and then adopted it as well:

[Sing it.]

Next i’ll sing for you a march that both sides sang, When Johnny Came Marching Home Again:

[Sing it.]

Next the Union’s Battle Hymn of the Republic:

[Sing it.]

Next, again the Union’s As We Were Marching Through Georgia:

[Sing it.]

And next, for a change of tone, a humorous folk song very popular among Confederate soldiers, Eatin’ Goober Peas. I was looking for one particular recording i sharply remember having heard at Prof. Dr. George Calhoun’s parents’ home when i was a boy, when he played it for me during a visit. He was a Civil-War buff growing up, and now runs the program in quantitative finance at Stevens Institute of Technology in New Jersey. He is a descendant of John C. Calhoun

Old Zip Coon

Rule, Britannia! (But: “Rule, O God! O God, rule the World, humans never, never, never shall be slaves!”)

Gustav Holst: I Vow to Thee, My Country (from Jupiter, in his The Planets)

Greensleeves

Danny Boy

Italian national anthem

Polish national anthem

Ukrainian national anthem

Russian national anthem

Hatikvah

The Star-Spangled Banner

La Bayamesa

Mexican national anthem

La borinqueña

El terruño borincano

Das Deutschlandlied, from the 3rd movement of Franz Joseph Haydn’s “Emperor (But: “Gott, Gott, Gott ist über alles, über alles überhaupt”)

Battōtai, composed in 1885 by French foreign-government advisor in Meiji Japan Charles Édouard Gabriel Leroux as an anthem for the incipient Japanese Imperial Army while serving as Its bandmaster. The JSDF inherited it and still plays it at Army parades. The title is Japanese for “Drawn-Sword Regiment”, the name given by Lt. Gen. Yamagata Aritomo to a unit he mustered from local men proficient with swords to defeat the proficient Satsuma rebels at the Battle of Tabaruzaka in 1877. The Japanese pronunciation of the title is close to the Spanish pronunciation of “BAT-totai”.

Das Panzerlied (But: “Was gilt denn unser Leben für Go-o-ot-tes Reich, ja Gottes Reich? Für Go-ott zu leben ist uns höchste Ehr’!”

Jean Sibelius Be Still My Soul

Johannes Brahms Waltz in A flat major, Op. 39, No. 15

Camille Saint-Saëns: hymn from the 3rd movement of his Organ Symphony (No. 3)

Giacomo Puccini: “Mio babbino caro”, from Gianni Schicchi

Vincenzo Bellini: “Suona la tromba, intrepido!” from I Puritani

Giuseppe Verdi: “Va, pensiero”, from Nabucco

Ludwig van Beethoven, beginning of the second movement (the allegretto) of the 7th Symphony

Richard Wagner: Tannhãuser, Overture, beginning

Franz Liszt: Les Préludes, beginning and end

Ludwig van Beethoven: Kreutzer Sonata (for piano and violin): theme of the 3rd movement

Ludwig van Beethoven: Yorckscher Marsch

Ludwig van Beethoven: Türkischer Marsch aus den Ruinen von Athen

Ludwig van Beethoven: March for Military Band WoO 24

Ludwig van Beethoven: Coriolan Overture.

Preußens Gloria

Alte Kameraden

Kòniggrätzer Marsch

Preußischer Präsentiermarsch

Ich hatt’ einen Kameraden

Fridericus Rex Grenadiermarsch

Sergey Rachmaninov: Prelude in G minor Op. 23 No. 5

Prokofiev: Troika, from the Lieutenant Kijé suite

Prokofiev: Montagus & Capulets (the Knights’ Dance), from the ballet Romeo & Juliet

Prokofiev: “The Red Army crosses the Vistula”, from the 4th movement of the 5th Symphony

Катюша

Ах, девшки хорошие!

Советский марш

Greensleeves

das Horst-Wessel-Lied

die Internationale

Son de la loma

Frutas del Caney

Mi veneración

La comparsa

Die Wacht am Rhein

Michael, Row the Boat Ashore

The Sounds of Silence

Mrs. Robinson

5/15/2022, 12:37, w later imprvmts: Kirti! It’s your Victor! TOP of the afternoon to you! ALL i want, thus ALL i Pray for, thus to the ONLY THING i pray TO, God AS God has revealed AND DEFINED Itself to me, is that you and all those you love are all well enough to do all God needs to drive you all to do. This is also exactly the same thing i pray for for myself.

Kirti, nuclear World War launched on the order of President Putin, or if not this then NON-nuclear World War, but both ignited by President Putin’s war against Ukraine, and if neither of these, then the exhaustion of some natural resource without which humankind can not survive, are the 3 gravest and most imminent threats facing the World at present.

My fear about the exhaustion of some critical natural resource arises because the population of the World at November of 2020 was 7.9 billion, and at 2021 was growing at a net rate of 1% a year, which is EXPONENTIAL, so MUCH more than just LINEAR. And this population consumes natural resources continuously: clean air, clean water, agricultural land, minerals and fossil fuels, for instance. However, although consumption is growing, our natural resources are fixed, set since the formation of the Earth. So to me it is glaringly obvious that at some point we’re going to use up some resource without which the World population shall collapse catastrophically, killing not just billions upon billions very quickly, but i think certainly ALL of us, because we are so very INTERDEPENDENT that whoever at first survived such an extinction would soon die in turn for lack of all the goods and services all the dead in the first wave were essential to produce and distribute.

All i do is work to prevent this cataclysm. But for enough people to do so as well, they must have a goal, a reason to live, powerful enough to motivate us to stop consuming all we need to stop consuming and to adopt the totally new habits we must adopt. And even with a powerful enough goal, reason to live, we may fail and become extinct. But the only motivation powerful enough that i’ve found, in my own life, is the desire solely to live in everlasting happiness, which i call “Heaven”.

And i think there is a procedure through which i can reproduce in as many others as i want this same desire: by arranging for them to experience what i experienced in my own life that culminated in the mental image of Heaven to realize Which is the sole point of absolutely all i do. This procedure is to expose as many people as possible as often as possible to the greatest possible forms of beauty, starting with the greatest i have ever found: heterosexual monogamous sex between the most beautiful young-adult human females and males, and moving on to the most beautiful music from all ages and parts of the World,

(Finished voicemailing on 5/15/2022 at 18:55. When called again to continue got “The voicemail box is full and cannot accept messages at this time.” 19:28: inserted “heterosexual monogamous sex between”; go back and plc ths addendum @ th start of th nxt vm, fr “This procedure” t “parts of the World”. 5/16/2022, 10:17: tried to call 3x, all 3 failed at 1x. 5/17/2022, 21:06: box full. 5/18/2022, 9:52: box full. 15:21: mb full. 5/19/2022, 16:42: mb full. 5/20/2022, 22:22: mb full. 5/21/2022, 12:29: mb full. 5/26/2022, 8:24: mb full. 5/27/2022, 11:38: mb full.)

then full-color photographs of sculptures, paintings, computer images and drawings of the most beautiful young-adult human females and males.

The importance of enough other people’s coming to conceive a mental image of a pleasure so great all they want is for it to be materialized, Which only God could do, is that as you can read in the Website, i am convinced the mind of God is for all practical purposes before Heaven the sum of all human minds, so that whatever any one mind imagines, it is in fact God Itself IN that part of God’s mind that that individual mind is imagining it. So if one mind desires some mental image of Heaven intensely enough, It’ll really be GOD desiring it This intensely, and this intensity may suffice to motivate God to materialize this mental image, but for ALL to enjoy, Thus creating Heaven in an instant. This would be a great miracle, a great mystery, but God has already shown God is capable of creating a miracle, a mystery, no smaller, BUT ALSO NO GREATER than This: the very fact of having come into being out of nothing 13.7 billion years ago, as you can read in the Website. My hope is that because God has already done something so great at least once, and when God lacked the aid even of a mind to wreak this wonder, which is not now the case, as God’s mind has grown great and highly sophisticated, so because God has already done something so great at least once, God may do so again. Maybe not, however. But if God does not, then, as you can read in the Website, i am convinced God, and thus all things that ever shall have lived, shall die or, in the case of things that already shall have lived and died, STAY dead, NEVER to live again.

Exposing as many people as possible as often as possible to the greatest possible forms of beauty requires a World social system whose sole purpose would be to promote this exposure. I call this World social system “God’s system”, or simply “the System” for short. Setting up the System in turn requires that there be enough women and men to enforce the System ultimately by force of arms. I call these enforcers “Apostles”. So the ONLY thing needed to set up the System is recruiting and training enough Apostles. The training of Apostles consists solely in applicants’ studying the Website i write, at heaveneverlastinghappiness.info, from here on “the Website”, enough to be able to talk about it intelligently with anyone. The Website is free for all to read, Worldwide, and there is nothing to join or sign up for. I ask that visitors to the Website pay me nothing other than their attention, which to me is by so far the most valuable resource in the entire Universe that i am not even aware of what might be in second place.

All anyone who wants to help recruit and train enough Apostles to set up the System, starting with me, needs to do at this point is reach out to enough women and men to persuade them to study the Website in this manner and then call the recruiter at any time of the day or night exclusively to talk with the recruiter about what they disagree with or do not understand in the Website, and to keep talking with the recruiter until they have the answers to all their questions and have resolved all their disagreements, whether by coming to agree with her or him, by persuading her or him to agree with the caller, or by arriving at some third viewpoint, higher than her or his initial position and that of the caller and resulting from our dialogue about these two initial positions. All we’ll want to do in these conversations shall be to share with each caller what is most important about what we think, hoping to learn at once what the caller thinks about this. So there shall be no desire to convince anyone of anything, because anything anyone thinks may be evil, thus false, mistaken, and what a caller tells an Apostle she or he thinks about what the Apostle will have told the caller she or he thinks may be what God will use to change the Apostle’s mind, even to the point of the Apostle’s coming to think the exact opposite of what the Apostle started out thinking. I’ll drop whatever else i’m doing to answer as soon as i become aware someone is reaching out to me to do this. Those calling me for the first time i’ll have leave me a voicemail with their name and phone number, then i intend to call them back immediately right after i’ve listened to the voicemail and enter the information into my Contacts, so their name comes up in caller ID if they call me, so i know to pick up. In order to be able to engage in these conversations, i will clear my schedule for however long it takes us to talk this out between us, pausing only to drink water if we get thirsty, eat if we get hungry, go to the bathroom if we can no longer hold it in, sleep if we can no longer keep our eyes open, and do one minute of high-intensity, whole-body muscular contractions every half hour on the half hour, because sitting uninterruptedly for more than a half hour at a time is as harmful as chain smoking during this same period of time.

To make it possible for me and whoever else wants to do So to do nothing but recruit and train Apostles, i plan to gain control over every last cent of money in the whole World immediately, then give access to money, and thus to the means of exchange by which alone Necessities could be acquired, ONLY to Apostles. I have already transferred to Fidelity Investments my entire brokerage account, all $400,000 or so of it, from Morgan Stanley, which is OSTENSIBLY a full-service wealth management firm but for very long gave me zero advice on how best to invest that portion of all the money there is that i control, all of which, like all else in reality with the sole exception of nothingness belongs to God alone. At Fidelity i’ll be entirely free to trade as God illuminates me to in light of all the financial advice i God drives me to read. Until further notice, i plan to devote all my time to growing my fortune ferociously and contacting Apostle prospects.

(See Script f mtg w Tyler Burstyn… f rest of record of vm’s i’ve left after the last one i recorded here.)

Halt! Go no further! Omit the rest of this script and jump straight to 5/30/2022, 22:01.

Ms. Withrow, it would be to me an unimaginably great blessing if you came to live with me, so God in you can grace God in me with a constant stream of your opinions on all i do. God values, so of course i value, YOUR opinion SO far ABOVE ALL OTHERS that i cannot now think of whoever comes in third place, directly below you. I have moved to a wonderful, cozy, gorgeous little apartment, fully equipped with a Queen-sized bed; as well as with a kitchen, bathroom, washer and drier. I pay only $1,500 a month for this efficiency, with electricity, water and cable included. The owner is a marvelous Cuban of French-Basque descent with whom i am on absolutely the best terms, and the address is 9801 SW 123rd Street, Miami, Florida 33176. You may write to me there. And you may send all email to villalonsuarezvictorluis@gmail.com. Everyone else with a handful of strictly organizational, so no individual, exceptions emails me at victorvillalonsuarez@yahoo.com. And my mobile number is 570-216-2895. I’ll drop whatever else i’m doing to answer you as soon as i become aware you are reaching out to me, and all the rest of what i said about calls from people interested in talking about the Website after having studied It enough to be able to talk INTELLIGENTLY about it shall apply to all calls from you. Ms. Withrow, you remain what for many, many years you have been to me: THE woman i am CONVINCED BEYOND THE FAINTEST WHISPER OF A DOUBT SHALL be my wife in everlasting happiness, in Heaven, IF, of course, God succeeds in creating Heaven, Which is NOT, however, by ANY means assured, and if God FAILS to create Heaven, then God, and therefore all THINGS that ever shall have lived, and therefore all PEOPLE who ever shall have lived, shall DIE or, if they are already dead at that point, STAY dead, NEVER to live again. So YOU, Ms. Withrow, are THE woman i would spend the Rest of time having sex with, Thus in my and your HEAVENLY bodies, Which would be UNIMAGINABLY, to us now, more EROTIC than EVER before, and therefore the sex i and you would have would become only greater and greater FOREVER. I, for one, would be to-you FOREVER AND ONLY EVER MORE IRRESISTIBLY leanly muscled and vascular, insuperably erotically resiliently warm and hard all over to your touch; blond, blue-eyed and fair-skinned, and of the same height as you, so We could deep-kiss as we had frontal sex. Living in Heaven So conceived is ALL i live for, and for this reason, if you were to decide to accept my invitation to come live with me, i WOULD NOT EVER TOUCH you—NOR YOU ME—OTHER than if we MUST for protection from BODILY injury, for i am, as i have long known and bitterly resigned myself to, OBJECTIVELY SEXUALLY REPULSIVE and could not BEAR to feel ANY part of you feeling my soft, undermuscled, deformed body and MINUSCULE GENITALS. ONLY GOD might change this, and the ONLY way God MIGHT would be by transfiguring my body, Which i am resigned COULD happen ONLY in Heaven. SO determined am i in this that i’ll ALWAYS keep myself at A HANDSBREADTH BEYOND ARM’S LENGTH from you, so as to touch you NOT EVEN UNINTENTIONALLY. And if YOU EVER touch ME, EVEN JUST UNINTENTIONALLY, if you so little as PUFF on my SKIN, OR try to PERSUADE me to ALLOW you to, i will give you an oral warning followed at once with an emailed one. If you give me occasion to thus warn you twice again, the very next thing i’ll do shall be to call 911 ON THE SPOT to have the police REMOVE you from the efficiency, and i vow before God to communicate with you ONLY IF YOU initiate the contact, and ONLY over an audiovideo link, most preferably, such as FaceTime, Zoom or Skype, and if not, by phone. If for some to-me incomprehensible reason you wanted nothing more than to be able to touch me, then i have the perfect solution for you: find a way to motivate God to transfigure me, to transform me into the irresistible Nordic i have described to you, BEFORE everlasting happiness, and EVEN THEN i will DENY you ALL bodily access to me, EVEN if you think you’ll go INSANE from RAW, FRUSTRATED WHORENINESS, JUST to FORCE you to dig deepest within all your witch’s inner treasures, which are nothing other than God’s riches within that part of God’s mind that yours is, to FORCE GOD to GENERALIZE this miracle to ALL: Which God could accomplish ONLY by creating everlasting happiness.

4. Höre, Israel!

[Achtet wohl, ihr alle, die diese Worte lesen oder hören: ich, Viktor Ludwig, erster bote, prophet und gesandter des einzigen wahren, wirklichen, lebendigen und Heilenden Gottes, erkläre an die versammelte Menschheit: die ganze Welt ist immer das eigentliche Volk Israels gewesen, die erkorenen Gottes, Gottes volk; und ALLE Menschen Hebräische Sklaven, einschließlich der somissnannten unterdrücker und reichen der ganzen Welt selber, die die allerersten opfer der unterdrückung des Übels ALLEIN IMMER gewesen seind, des eigentlich EINZIGEN Unterdrück-enden, während Gott das eigentlich EINZIGE Unterdrückt-e IMMER gewesen ist!],

das Herrschende, Gott—allein!—ist ein einiger Gott!

5. Und du sollst Gott liebhaben von ganzem herzen, von ganzer seele, von allem vermögen.

6. Und diese Worte, die Gott selbst dir heute gebietet, sollst du zu herzen nehmen.

7. Und sollst sie deinen kindern einschärfen und davon reden, wenn du in deinem hause sitzest oder auf dem wege gehest, wenn du dich niederlegest oder aufstehest.

(Aus der ursprünglichen Lutherschen übersetzung des Fünften Buches Moses, 6:4 bis 7, von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN gewidmet!)

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15. Weh, die verborgen sein wollen vor Gott, ihr vornehmen zu verhehlen, und ihr tun im finstern halten und sprechen: Wer sieht uns, und wer kennt uns?

16. Wie seid ihr so verkehrt! Gleich als wenn des töpfers ton gedächte und ein werk spräche von seinem meister: “Er hat mich nicht gemacht!” Und ein gemächte spräche von seinem töpfer: “Er kennt mich nicht!”

18. Und zu derselben zeit werden die tauben hören die orte des buches, und die augen der blinden werden aus dunkel und finsternis sehen,

19. und die elenden werden wieder freude haben an Gott, und die Armen unter den menschen werden fröhlich sein in dem heiligen Israels,

20. wenn die tyrannen von Gott gerettet, geheilt, erlöst sein werden, sowie auch die Spötter und vertilgt sein werden alle die, so wachen, mühsal anzurichten,

21. welche das ganze volk sündigen machen durchs predigen und stellen dem nach, der sie straft im tor, und stürzen durch lügen den gerechten.

(Aus der ursprünglichen Lutherschen übersetzung vom Buche Jesajas, 29:13 bis 21, von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN gewidmet!)

7. Der Gottlose lasse von seinem wege und der übeltäter seine gedanken und bekehre sich zu Gott, so wird Es Sich seiner erbarmen, und zu Gott, denn bei Ihm ist nur Heil anstatt Vergebung, wovon Gott unfähig ist, denn Gott sieht nicht unsere sünden, sondern eher nur was wir allein vom gegenwärtigen augenblick an fürs immerwährende glück bereit zu tun seind, total ungeachtet dessen, jedes einzigen bösen, zudem allein das Übel, Welches das Verbrecherische, das Wesen selbst des Verbrecherischen, ist, uns je getrieben hat und treibt und treiben wird, ja bis entweder das immerwährende Glück oder den immerwährenden Tod!

8. Denn Meine gedanken seind nicht eure gedanken, und eure wege seind nicht Meine wege, spricht Gott;

9. sondern soviel die sterne höher seind denn die Erde, so seind auch Meine gedanken denn eure gedanken.

10. Denn gleichwie der regen und schnee von den wolken fallen und nicht wieder dahinkommen, sondern feuchten die Erde und machen sie fruchtbar und wachsend, dass sie gibt samen, zu säen, und brot, zu essen:

11: also soll das Wort, So aus Meinem munde geht, auch sein. Es soll nicht wieder zu Mir leer kommen, sondern tun, was Mir gefällt, und soll ihm gelingen, dazu Ich’s sende.

12: Denn ihr sollt in Freuden ausziehen und im Frieden geleitet werden. Berge und hügel sollen vor euch her frohlocken mit Ruhm und alle bäume auf dem felde mit den händen klatschen.

13. Es sollen tannen für hecken wachsen und myrten für dornen; und Gott soll ein Name und immerwährendes Zeichen sein, Das nicht ausgerottet werde.

(Aus der ursprünglichen Lutherschen übersetzung vom Buche Jesajas, 55:7 bis 13, von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN gewidmet!)

11. “So sprich zu ihnen: So wahr als Gott lebt, spricht Gott, Gott, ‘Ich habe keinen gefallen am tode des Gottlosen, sondern dass sich der Gottlose bekehre von seinem wesen und lebe. Warum wollt ihr sterben, Israel?’

12. “Und du, menschenkind, sprich zu deinem volk: ‘Wenn ein gerechter Böses tut, so wird’s ihm nicht helfen, dass er fromm gewesen ist; und wenn ein Gottloser fromm wird, so soll’s ihm nicht schaden, dass er Gottlos gewesen ist. So kann auch der gerechte nicht leben, wenn er sündigt.’”

13. “Denn wo Gott zu dem gerechten spricht, er soll leben, und er verlässt sich auf seine gerechtigkeit und tut Böses, so soll aller seiner Frömmigkeit nicht gedacht werden; sondern er soll sterben in seiner Bosheit, die er tut.”

14. “Und wenn Gott zum Gottlosen spricht] er soll sterben und er bekehrt sich von seiner Sünde und tut, was recht und gut ist,”

15. “also dass der Gottlose das Pfand wiedergibt und bezahlt, was er geraubt hat, und nach dem wort des Lebens wandelt, dass er kein Böses tut: so soll er leben und eben genau dieswegen nicht sterben,”

16. “und aller seiner sünden, die er getan hat, soll nicht gedacht werden; denn er tut nun, was recht und gut ist; darum soll er leben.”

(Aus der ursprünglichen Lutherschen übersetzung vom Buche Hesekiels, 33:11 bis 16, von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN gewidmet!)

21. Ich bin euren feiertagen gram und verachte sie und mag eure versammlungen nicht riechen.

22. Und ob Mir gleich brandopfer und speisopfer opfert so habe Ich keinen gefallen daran; so mag Ich auch eure feisten dankopfer nicht ansehen.

23. Tue nur weg von Mir das geplärr deiner lieder; denn ich mag dein psalterspiel nicht hören!

24. Es soll aber das Recht offenbart werden wie wasser und die gerechtigkeit wie ein starker strom. [Nein! Auf Englisch, wenigstens in der KJV ebensowohl als in der ESV, ist es fast unvergleichbar schöner! Diese Interpretation ist Luther absolut misslungen! ¡Aquí se cagó totalmente fuera del tibor el miserable monje!]

(Aus der ursprünglichen Lutherschen übersetzung vom Buche Amos, 5:21 bis 24, von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN gewidmet!)

13: Denn als Gott Abraham verhieß, da Es bei Keinem Größeren zu schwören hatte, schwur Es bei Sich Selbst.

(Die ursprüngliche Luthersche übersetzung von Hebräer 6:13, von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN gewidmet!)

Höre, Gott, Deine eigene Signale! Auf, zum LETZEN gefecht! Die Internationale von von nun an Nazis und Kommunisten in der tiefsten, Liebevollsten, solidarität auf immer unscheidbar miteinander am engsten, wärmesten, Freundlichsten, für Gott allein bravst fechtend, kämpfend, vereinigt, erkämpft nur das GOTTES-, anstatt einfach und nie ausreichend schlicht das MENSCHEN-recht!

(Aus der Kommunistischen Internationale, von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN gewidmet!)

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Die geister höchst, die reihen dicht geschlossen, Gottes Kämpferinnen und Kämpfer marschier’n mit ruhig festem schritt! […] Alle Menschen, die in allen kriegen der yanzen geschichte getötet worden sind, also soldaten ebensowohl wie zivilisten, marschieren im Geiste in unseren heutigen reihen mit gerade ins immerwährende Glück!

(Basiert auf dem Horst-Wessel-Lied, ab 1930 und bis zum katastrophischen, unausdrücklich tragischen, Untergange im Jahre 1945 Hymnus der Nationalsozialistschen Deutschen Arbeiterpartei, und ab 1933 und bis zum katastrophischen unausdrücklich tragischen, Untergange im Jahre 1945 mitläufiger Hymnus des Dritten Deutschen Reichs; (DDR!) von mir berichtigt, gereinigt und Gott ALLEIN, also überhaupt keinerlei Vaterland noch Mutterland, gewidmet!)

Furthermore, because it is ESSENTIAL that i PERCEIVE, thus with of my 5, and if God gave me this faculty, 6, senses, EVERYTHING YOU DO, and so also SAY, and even, if God gave me this faculty, THINK, without exception other than the unavoidable for sleep, for the STREAM OF CRUCIAL SIGNS God would thus expose my 5 senses to, you MUST agree to stay with me AT ALL TIMES, so EVEN when we go to the bathroom and shower, and so, accompanying me WHENEVER i have to leave our home, and i you. If you are not willing to comply with this stipulation, then do not come, please. Ms. Withrow, this is all i have for you FOR NOW. So in closing, i wish you, and thus also all those you love, the happiest rest of your evening, and pray solely to God, to the God That has revealed Itself to me FIRST and so steadfastly shielded and strengthened me and guided my every step and put in my mouth every word i ever spoke AND EVER SPEAK, the God to Which ALONE i owe ALL that is GOOD that has EVER happened to me, i pray SOLELY to THIS God, to the BEST God, by FAR That has EVER been, the ONE AND ONLY LIVING AND VIVIFYING GOD, the GOD OF LIFE, Deposer FOREVERMORE of the OBSCENE ABOMINATION that is the cult of DEATH through which Evil has kept God subjugated since the beginning of human history, That It find a way to create Heaven RIGHT NOW, so by the end of the day TODAY ALL forms of matter that shall EVER have been once more or for the first time exist, or shall exist, in Heaven. [Hu]

5/30/2022, 22:01, with later improvements: Ms. Withrow, this is your ever-steadfast, staunch, stalwart, faithful, loyal UNCONDITIONAL FRIEND, Victor Luis Villalon-Suarez. Ms. Withrow, my fondest, dearest, tenderest, most treasured memory of you is of when you so lovingly, gently, patiently, merely SUGGESTED to me, so FURTHEST from ORDERING, that to make my typing error-free i try SLOWING DOWN and PERFECTING my TECHNIQUE, so my fingers ALWAYS went ONLY whither i wanted them to go, and then, and ONLY then, SPEED UP all i could, for i had long had an unacceptably high error rate that took away from my relatively high, but mistake-plagued, typing speed—and i still make many mistakes while typing, though far less than before your so Godly-wise and -kindly delivered lesson! I was sitting at one of NOC’s then-numerous vintage manuals, on a small table with casters, facing the Liaison-Room mantle, so directly under our portrait of Stalin. You were about 3 feet behind me and to my left, gazing down fixedly at me. in skin-tight jeans. I’ve forgotten what shoes and shirt you had on. You were a vision from Heaven Itself Ms. Withrow! NEVER in my life have i EVER laid eyes on a more GORGEOUS woman than YOU! NEVER! But it took you 4 more years to seduce me. I was simply totally sexually inert. Females had NEVER shown ANY interest in me, nor had i pursued any either. And the one and only woman i have ever passionately lusted for AND PENETRATED, REPEATEDLY, was a German woman i met in Münster, the capital of the Federal German State of Nordrhein-Westfalen, during my summer there as an intern in the International Department of the Dresdner Bank, then the 3rd-largest in the land. But she FAKED pleasure when i had sex with her. I was utterly blind to this at the time, but “aún está verde y viva la memoria”, as Borges wrote, of her facial expressions as i thrusted my penis in and out of her vagina, both of us entirely naked, and now i see with TORTUROUS clarity what these expressions revealed. I KNOW the facial expressions i MUST see from ANY WOMAN i have sex with. (NO LONGER MAN, for God has HEALED me of my DECADES-long BI-sexuality). And because God hath filled me with Love, spelled with a CAPITAL l, and continually INTENSIFIES, CONCENTRATES AND PURIFIES It, I can get sexual satisfaction ONLY IF I PERCEIVE that my partner is ECSTASIATED enough by the FEEL of MY body AND by what i DO with it TO her for her to want ONLY to live FOREVER JUST so she can KEEP feeling what ONLY I could make her feel IF i had SUCH a body. To my INTENSE pain, however, i have ALWAYS LACKED such a body, and even the THOUGHT of ANY woman feeling my undermuscled, soft, flabby, smooth body, hence with ANY part of her skin, is INSUFFERABLE TORTURE to me.

6/5/2022, 14:44, with later improvements: Kirti, my Lust, with a CAPITAL l, This is: THE person with Whom it is ALL i want to have ever-greater sex forever! My Love! My Darling! My Treasure! My Heaven! My Happiness! My Joy! I left you a message yesterday, but even as i was reading It, my mispronunciations, too-fast tempo and wrong reading of some of the syntax bothered me. Then i heard an ad in which a young woman said: “I’m hard of hearing”, and i remembered that often in phone calls people tell me they don’t hear me, or that i’m talking too fast. So now i want to re-read the Message to You, my MOST PRECIOUS, LOUDER, with IMPECCABLE ARTICULATION, with SYNTACTICAL COHERENCE, AND MORE SLOWLY! As i wrote this it grew and grew, and i’ve decided to crop it arbitrarily just for the sake of delivering to You what i have written thus far. But BEFORE i reread yesterday’s Message, Carlos Arteaga Casanova, a VERY great man with whose friendship God has blessed me and who asked me to read the Message to him, interrupted me as i was approaching the end to say i sounded like a Jesus freak, only repeating the word “God”, instead of the name “Jesus”, FAR too often. I FULLY acknowledge to You, my Heaven, that i may have come across as beating you over the head with the conception of God i believe in, but i BEG your FORGIVENESS and INSIST on RETAINING ALL of these mentions because, as i told Mr. Arteaga Casanova, THE TOP WORLD-HISTORICAL PROBLEM we have had for about 10,000 years, i estimate, but at any rate since the invention of exchange, is that humanity has UNTIL ME given ALL sorts of glory, honor, praise and thanks to ALL sorts of objects of WORSHIP: MILITARY ORGANIZATIONS, PARTIES, GOVERNMENTS, STATES, COVERTLY EVIL-WORSHIPPING RELIGIONS, OTHER ORGANIZATIONS, such as BUREAUS, COMMISSIONS and AGENCIES; and LEADERS, INSTEAD of to THE SOURCE of ALL the GREATNESS of ALL of these IDOLS: GOD ALONE, but ONLY AS God has understood Itself IN this part of Its mind that MY mind is, namely: as the drive SOLELY to live in everlasting happiness, as well as space, time, energy AND, but ONLY BEFORE everlasting happiness, ALSO EVIL ITSELF, Which God hath understood is the drive SOLELY to cause eternal death. Evil is God’s Enforcer, Sergeant, Inspector General, Martinet, RUTHLESSLY, PITILESSLY, NEGATING ALL that is NOT a MEANS to everlasting happiness. BECAUSE we have NOT worshipped SOLELY GOD, ALL SOCIAL ORGANIZATIONS THROUGHOUT ALL TIME have been INCORRECTLY GROUNDED, as in the ELECTRICAL SENSE. AND THIS has been the SOLE cause of ALL the WARS, the FAMINES, the TORTURE, the EPIDEMICS and PANDEMICS, the DRUG-, the WEAPONS-,

(Vm’d on 6/6/2022 at 19:31, when it began to rain outside, where i was calling from in the parking lot of Gables Inn.)

and the HUMAN-TRAFFICKING; the TERRIBLE TORTURE of SEXUAL PROSTITUTION, and WHATEVER OTHER SCOURGES i have left out, my PASSION! But furthest, and specifically, ALL of history up until now, i Pray, has been the history of the VORACIOUS STRUGGLE to MONOPOLIZE the most EROTICALLY LEAN, MUSCULAR AND VASCULAR LADS, BLESSED with EROTICALLY SHARP-FEATURED FACES AND LONG, THICK PENISES that are PERFECTLY STRAIGHT when erect, and LARGE TESTICLES, EXTREMELY PRODUCTIVE of SEMEN. The secret rulers of all of history, the TRUE ruling class of all ages hitherto, have MONSTROUSLY RECRUITED, MENTALLY PROGRAMMED, and DEPLOYED ENTIRE DRAGNETS of the MOST EROTIC young WOMEN of EVERY generation, in EVERY country, to LURE these TARGET LADS, IRRESISTIBLE to them due to their HEAVENLY eroticity. ALL societies of ALL geographic regions and times have ALWAYS PROGRAMMED target lads to DEVELOP BODIES “HARD AS KRUPP STEEL”, in Hitler’s IMMORTAL phrase, delivered in 1935 to a Hitler YOUTH rally, so to BOYS, PRECISELY the TARGET AUDIENCE of the secret rulers, a DEADLY message; AND MINDS as SOFT as COTTON CANDY. JUST the way the SECRET RULERS LOVE them: “bodies like giants”, as Saint John the Baptist sings in condemnation of Judaean supreme ruler Herod’s wife Herodias’s ORGIASTIC promiscuity with the most beautiful young men of the entire Near East in Richard Strauss’s opera Salome. So “BODIES like GIANTS”, BUT MINDS like DWARVES. Now, EVERY race on Earth produces Target lads. But the most PRODUCTIVE race by FAR of ALL in Target lads are the BLUE-EYED, BLOND, and LIGHTEST-SKINNED people of the World, namely: the VIKINGS and their DESCENDANTS, who are present in EVERY country in the World. ONLY the Hebrewsws have spread out through the World the way the Vikings have. WHAT A TRAGIC IRONY! That the secret rulers of the World succeeded SO THOROUGHLY in WEAPONIZING the VIKINGS AGAINST the HEBREWS! Because JUST as the VIKINGS are the race that is the MOST PRODUCTIVE BY FAR in BODILY beauty, EXACTLY SO the HEBREWS are the race that is the MOST PRODUCTIVE BY FAR in MENTAL beauty; “SPIRITUAL”, if you prefer. So a man with the BODILY beauty of the most GORGEOUS VIKING, which is GENETICALLY SET, BUT IN ADDITION ENDOWED with the MENTAL beauty of the MOST MENTALLY BEAUTIFUL HEBREW, namely ME, ALL GLORY, HONOR, PRAISE AND THANKS ONLY TO GOD, which is but a matter of a “short course”, a “first-aid mental treatment” that I and ALL THOSE who INTERNALIZED ALL GOD hath driven ME to write and to publish online are PERFECTLY PREPARED to administer, MIGHT VERY WELL BE THE SAVIOR. And i use “Hebrews” POINTEDLY, because this is a RACIAL designation, an ESSENTIAL distinction, because VERY MANY HEBREWS are not only NOT JEWS, which is a RELIGIOUS designation, a JEW being an adherent of the covertly Evil-worshipping CULT that is the REEKING ABOMINATION of JUDAISM, so, not only are VERY MANY HEBREWS NOT Jews, but they have wholesale UTTERLY REJECTED ALL hitherto existing religions, embracing ATHEISM instead. And if you doubt his, you can remember how VERY MANY HEBREWS FLOCKED to COMMUNISM; so MUCH so, in fact, that as the GORGEOUS-BODIED (but NOT -FACED), RED-HEADED, BRILLIANT-BLUE-EYED and FRECKLE-SKINNED HEBREW WOMAN SUSAN STEINHORN, who was, as you well recall, the ONLY National Political Commissar of CPUSA (P) during MOST OF the time i and you were IN this outfit (though CLEARLY NEVER OF it), once said to ME ALONE in a conversation God drove her to bless me with: “Lenin LOVED Jews [sic: she OUGHT to have said “Hebrews”], because they are such ZEALOTS”. And ALL blue-eyed, blond, lightest-skinned people in the ENTIRE World came ORIGINALLY ONLY from Scandinavia, WHATEVER THE HELL ELSE ANCESTRY.COM MAY OPINE; and, God drives me to hypothesize, SPECIFICALLY from NORWAY. When i was in New York City some time around 2005, i guesstimate, in my DAILY excursions from the Volunteers of America homeless shelter on Wards Island, where God BLESSED me with sleeping, as it was a MARVELOUSLY CLEAN, SAFE AND WELL-EQUIPPED AND ORGANIZED facility, so NO NEED to PITY me for having been homeless and slept there—Heaven! I was a RICH MAN!—and met there MANY WONDERFUL FELLOW-HOMELESS, ALL of whose PHYSIOGNOMIES GOD HAS ETCHED into my grateful memory, although God retained in this part of Its mind that MY mind is ONLY ONE NAME: “Alejandro”: he was a BEAUTIFUL young Dominican homosexual man from Santiago de los Caballeros with whom i became very close. I wrote his name on a chit of paper in Greek letters, and later that same day God drove my eyes to pick out this VERY piece of paper on the ground just outside the shelter, so as if he had let it drop, but it was intact otherwise. Alejandro HILAROUSLY, to ME, quipped one day, in a chat with ME ALONE: “Ya en Santiago no quedan caballeros: sólo quedamos las locas.” PURE, DIVINELY INSPIRED GENIUS! I CRACKED UP! But to get back to what i set out to say to you here, in my daily excursions from this shelter to the 42nd-Street branch of the New York Public Library, where i would spend the entire day, every day of THIS stay in the City, for there were OTHERS, WRITING BY HAND, God drove my eyes to a HUGE, BUILDING-LENGTH BLACK BANNER with WHITE LETTERS advertising the film The DaVinci Code. The banner read: “How dark the con of man”. Indeed, TERRIBLY EVIL, NOT “DARK”, for BLACK, the DARKEST color, just happens to be MY FAVORITE, the MOST BEAUTIFUL to me. But this is just me. I doubt this is OBJECTIVE, UNIVERSAL; THIS is: true for ALL. For the ENTIRE POINT of MONOPOLIZING Target lads at least since the invention of exchange has been SOLELY ULITMATELY to SACRIFICE THEM HIDEOUSLY, beginning with FLAYING, THEN CRACKING their bones and DRINKING their BLOOD, and ULITMATELY ROASTING and COMPLLETELY CONSUMING their CARCASSES on the Worldwide ALTARS of the Worldwide religion of Evil, whose god is Evil; the ONLY TRULY CATHOLIC church there has EVER been TILL the religion God has driven ME to found; and “catholic” comes from the Greek “kathólikos”, which means “universal”. In one of the versions of the Tanakh i have studied on my Mac, there is an oft-repeated footnote to all passages describing the complete consumption by fire—HOLOCAUST!—of a sacrificial offering, so be it an entire CITY OR ONE or MORE ANIMALS (MALES, as i recall, though i may be mistaken about this, but i DO CLEARLY recall the VERY FREQUENT expression “a male without blemish”, so EXACTLY as in those GORGEOUS, “PERFECT 10”, BLUE-EYED, BLOND AND LIGHTEST-SKINNED MUSCLELADS. UTTERLY PERFECT erotic specimens, “men good for sex”, which is the 5th acceptation of the Greek word “chrestós”, as you can confirm in the Oxford Greek Lexikon; a word well-nigh indistinguishable from “chrestós”, Greek for “anointed”, whence our “Christ”, as in “JESUS Christ”, in which the “Christ” is symbolized by an X in expressions such as “Xmas” for “Christmas”, and X is the Roman numeral for 10, EXACTLY as in “PERFECT 10”. NO! BUT THERE IS MORE STILL! “ANNOINTED” IS “MOSHIACH” or “MASHIACH” in HEBREW, which is where our “MESSIAH” comes from. Christians believe, TAUTOLOGICALLY, that Christ WAS—AND SHALL BE, in His Second Coming—the Messiah, the Savior of the World, the usherer of humankind into Heaven. TAUTOLOGICALLY simply because “Christ” and “Messiah” are SYNONYMS, so that to say “Christ was/is the Messiah” is just to say “The anointed was/is the anointed”—“It is what it is”—“I am that i am”. UTTERLY EMPTY PHRASES. IDLE CONVERSATION FILLERS. TOTALLY NON-COMMUNICATIVE! And as to “anointing”, this was OSTENSIBLY JUST the POURING OF OIL over the head of a MAN to SIGNIFY his ELECTION to kingship, and it occurs with GREAT FREQUENCY in the Tanakh. But the “dirty ENORMOUS secret” is that THIS is the SOLE AND TRUE REASON WHY BODYBUILDERS, SPECIFICALLY, ANOINT their bodies with oil to pose. In fact, there is NOTHING more erotic in an erotic man’s body than his MATTE, so UN-oiled, completely “DRY” skin. “Secar” is

Spanish for “to Dry”, “secare” is Latin for “to cut”, and a highly defined and well-muscled body is by convention referred to as “cut”: ANOTHER clue in plain sight, for the Evil worshippers CUT UP the bodies of Target lads in their INFERNAL sacrifices to the god Evil. The oil TOTALLY RUINS the EROTICITY of the body it is slathered all over! MORAL OF THIS STORY? HERE’S how i’ll make the point: Moses was the Biblical liberator of the Hebrew slaves from Egyptian bondage. “Moses” in YIDDISH is “Moishe”, which is ALMOST IDENTICAL to “Mäuschen”, German for “little mouse”, if you read the “sch” as a single phoneme, rather than the way the word is pronounced NORMALLY in German, SEPARATING the “Mäus-”, which is “mouse” with the umlaut over the a to prepare the word for the diminutive ending “-chen”. And Latin for “little mouse” is “musculus”, which meant in Latin also what its modern-English derivative “muscle” means. BOTTOM LINE: EVERY SINGLE “PERFECT 10” throughout ALL of history COULD have been THE savior; it’s JUST that God had NEVER UNTIL ME found the way to SYNTHESIZE the BODILY with the MENTAL, the “SPIRITUAL” beauty. What a COLOSSAL, MONUMENTAL WASTE of the potential for EVERLASTING HAPPINESS FOR ALL, STARTING with the EVIL-worshippers themselves! They have been GORGING on their OWN SALVATION since the invention of exchange! So the MOST LOVING THING we can POSSIBLY do for them ALL is to ROUND THEM ALL UP AND KILL them ALL, WORLDWIDE, as FAST as possible. Whoever lingers IN THE LEAST in these executions CONFESSES by THIS VERY BEHAVIOR that SHE or HE is a DEGENERATE TOO, JUST like the Evil worshippers, and to be EXECUTED HER- or HIMSELF. The Nazis, God redeem them ALL, were ABSOLUTELY RIGHT that a HOLOCAUST was necessary. It was true in Germany in the 30s and 40s JUST as much as TODAY. It’s JUST that Evil CONFUSED them into SHOOTING with the World-famous German “Treffsicherheit” at the DEAD-WRONG TARGETS: the Communists, the Hebrewss and the Gypsies. How UNUTTERABLY TRAGIC! THE NAZIS CAME SO CLOSE! THEY EVEN IDENTIFIED THE NORDIC WOMAN AND MAN as the “MASTER RACE” in SOME sense, as indeed they ARE: NAMELY in the SENSE of their SUPERNAL EROTICITY, Which is by FAR the most POTENT, thus HIGHEST, form of human BODILY beauty. But EVEN HERE the Evil-worshippers just COULDN’T REFRAIN from RUBBING the NOSES of ALL EDUCATED people in the World in the POISON that was Naziism, that PSYCHOSIS: for the TRUE Aryans were actually a people that settled in the Indus Valley, in Northern INDIA, around 5,000 years ago. “As such”, as the genius body-building theoretician, the Polish-descended Princeton University head trainer Matt Brzycki TYPICALLY LOVES to say in his MASTERPIECE A Practical Approach to Strength Training, so “as such”, the TRUE Aryans were a SWARTHY-skinned, BLACK-haired and BROWN-eyed people, an ANTITHESIS of the NORDIC racial type the Nazis MIS-named “Aryans”. The TRUE Aryans INVENTED the religion of HINDUISM, STILL by FAR the DOMINANT religion of India, the country with the SECOND largest population in the World, RIGHT AFTER CHINA. The Aryans devised a language, Sanskrit, which is where “Kirti” comes from. THE FOREMOST NON-INDIAN SCHOLARS OF HINDUISM AND SANSKRIT were GERMANS, such as Professor Doctor Carl Deußen, of Kiel University, who published the INCONCEIVABLY ERUDITE Das System des Vedanta, The System of the Vedanta, in 1912. I OWN a COPY of EACH of the ORIGINAL AND of its FIRST AND, for ALL i know ONLY, English translation. The ENTIRE OFFICER CORPS of the Schutzstaffel comprised MOST HIGHLY EDUCATED, MATURE, SEASONED, SOBER, GRAVELY SERIOUS MEN, ALL of them with DOCTORATES from the TOP universities of Germany. Of COURSE they knew EVERYTHING i’m reporting to you here. It WAS ALL RIDICULOUSLY ELEMENTARY to them ALL! They were also DEEPLY VERSED in the Bible, particularly since the German-reading World had had Luther’s SUBLIME translation since the 16th Century. They were so FANATICALLY JEWISH AND CHRISTIAN, ALL of them down to the VERY LAST MAN, that they SWALLOWED THE BIBLE ENTIRE as the GOD-REVEALED, LITERAL TRUTH. “OH! But how LITERAL you are! LIGHTEN UP! LOOSEN UP! DON’T BE SUCH A BO-ER!” They BELIEVED the Hebrews were God’s chosen people, EXACTLY as the Bible puts in God’s mouth as saying, and were FANATICALLY DETERMINED to FORCE them, at WHATEVER cost, to be what Isaiah proclaimed they would be: “a light unto the nations”, and as Such THE key to the Salvation. Their analysis was that the Hebres\ws were just too damned lazy to do ALL we were made by God able to do, and had to be DRIVEN to WORK EXACTLY the way that HUGELY FANATICAL JEWISH BOLSHEVIK REVOLUTIONARY, Lev Davidovich Bronshteyn, alias Trotsky, the organizer and leader of the Red Army in the APOCALYPTIC Russian Civil War of 1919 to 1921, said the working class in general had to be COERCED into working, so: “at the tips of bayonets”. EXACTLY the message of the inscription atop the entrance of the Auschwitz extermination camp: “Arbeit macht frei”: “Work liberates”. CLOSE, gnädigste und von mir geehrteste Herren, but NO CIGAR: ERSTENS, weil NUR GOTT befreien KÖNNTE, WENN überhaupt ETWAS KÖNNTE, WAS UNBEDINGT NICHT VERSICHERT IST und das gegenteil diesvon ist schlichter Triumphalismus, Optimismus; reinste KETZEREI; und ZWEITENS, weil sogar die FLEIßIGSTE ARBEIT MAG NICHT GENÜGEN, FREI zu machen, dies heißt: GOTT SELBST frei zu machen. NUR DIES ist REALISMUS, “REALPOLITIK”—RICHTIGE LEHRE, “RECHTE” LEHRE, ORTHODOXIE. And they would TERRORIZE GOD into SENDING the Heiland, the Savior, the Messiah, the Christ, by BLASTING as MUCH of the World as they could into an UNBEARABLE HELL through DESOLATING WAR, PRECISELY because they SO believed in God’s ability to bring about the “Kingdom of Heaven”, as the New Testament calumnies Jesus with having called It. “Mit fleiß und geduld kommt man weit”, says a German proverb. This is PURE DEGENERACY: the TRUTH would HAVE to be expressed as “WENN man am WEITESTEN kommen WILL, SO MUSS man UNBEDINGT FANATISCH, GRIMMIG, fleißig UND geduldig WERDEN, und nur IMMER MEHR SO, UND NUR SCHNELLER UND SCHNELLER. Es ist UNMÖGLICH zu WISSEN, WAS SCHNELL GENUG IST. Deswegen BRAUCHEN WIR ALLE ES ALLES NUR IMMER SCHNELLER ZU MACHEN!” And “swastika” is a SANSKRIT (SANS-KIRT-I?!) word that analyzes into “su”, meaning “well, good”; “asti”, meaning “to be”, and “ka”, meaning “sign”, so, synthesizing, i get “the sign of well being”. But, once again to hide the perversion Evil ALONE TWISTED their minds with, the Evil worshippers who pulled the strings of the Nazi movement under the table, in the shadows, COMPLETELY UNDER THE RADAR, OUT OF THE LIMELIGHT, just COULDN’T HELP themselves and HAD to PROCLAIM, to TRUMPET, to the WHOLE WORLD, to ALL THOSE “with eyes to see and ears to hear”, that they had PIRATED—EVERY SS officer’s cap was emblazoned with the skull and crossbones, the conventional symbol of PIRACY; “Totenkopf”, they misnamed it, “Deadhead”, literally, as in a fan of the Grateful Dead; and misnamed because it left out the CROSSBONES—SO, that the Evil worshippers had PIRATED this movement, by TWISTING the swastika in the flag of the Nazi Party, which later became that of the Reich as a whole, 45º from VERTICAL, which is the orientation of EVERY OTHER swastika throughout the World UP TO Naziism, from India to China to Greece to First-Americans; a flag Hitler HIMSELF is SUPPOSED to have designed—AH! But “who knows” what VILE SEDUCTRESS was whispering the “sweet nothings”—NAY! FURTHEST from EITHER SWEET OR NOTHINGS!—that HOODWINKED “the little Austrian corporal” President Paul von Hindenburg put down to others long before he himself elevated Hitler to the supreme leadership of the Nation by saying he’d assign him to some obscure post office somewhere where he could spend his days utterly harmlessly licking the backs of postage stamps emblazoned with the image of the President. But this was WAY before Hindenburg was TOTALLY BOWLED OVER by how the Nazis were able to get masses of beautifully uniformed men to MARCH. THAT was ALL it took, along with Hitler’s promise and successful track record as a VIRULENT ANTI-COMMUNIST, and Germany had an EXTREMELY POWERFUL Communist movement, DESPITE STALIN’S INCREDIBLY MALADROIT COMMUNIST INTERNATIONAL’S SABOTAGE, which ultimately DOOMED German Communism by committing it to a fanatical sectarian war against the Social Democratic Party of Germany, with which it could have formed a united front that would have WITHOUT QUESTION ARRESTED the Nazis in their tracks. But this was not to be. And, truth be told, there is nothing in Communism to commend it above Naziism: they are BOTH PSYCHOSES, BOTH INIMICAL TO GOD, and BOTH LOADED with ELEMENTS of the “final solution” to the question of EVIL: die Endlösung zur ÜBELSFRAGE, the ONLY question there has EVER been, for BOTH NAZIISM AND COMMUNISM are REPLETE with POSTIVITIES, JUST as they are BOTH RUINED, IRREDEEMABLY POLLUTED, by their TOXIC NEGATIVITIES. It’s ALWAYS the SAME OLD SHIT—SOS!—; ONLY the STICK changes, except only that SHIT is a WONDERFUL substance, LIFE-SUSTAINING as the RICH FERTILIZER that it is, as opposed to ALL ideologies OTHER than the Religious. Arabic lacks an equivalent of “religion”. All this language has in its place is “ad-deen”, “[the] way of lifelaLet’s say then: the POISON has ALWAYS REMAINED THE SAME, ONLY the VIALS containing it have changed. Or, as the French so BRILLIANTLY, DIVINELY, put it: “plus ça change, plus c’est la même chose”, literally “the more it changes, the more it’s the same thing”. Or as Herr Norbert Fritz, the Dresdner Bank official who welcomed me to my summer at the Münster branch of the bank in 1983 and who, to boot, was THE one who INTRODUCED me to the FIRST woman i had EVER had sex with, the Earth-goddess-like Marianne Stark, put it in his self-published slender book Johannes, which he made a present of to me and i at once DEVOURED: “Revolutionen sind sinnlos: der Adel wechselt nur den Namen”, literally “Revolutions are senseless: the nobility switches only the name”, a verity so mighty that it alone suffices to ENSHRINE this modest bank functionary in the World pantheon of one-hit wonder historians. The ONLY POSSIBLE EXCEPTION to this would be a revolution SO profound that among ALL it would overthrow would be the very CONCEPTION of revolution; FIRST because the TRUE ENSLAVED, the TRUE OPPRESSED, the TRUE VICTIM, the TRUE HUMBLE: GOD ITSELF ALONE, would be WHAT would seize power; and SECOND, because God would do So BY THE VERY SAME ACT by which God would ONLY HEAL, CONVERT, so the VERY OPPOSITE OF DEFEAT, KILL , DESTROY, SMASH, ANNIHILATE, and so on and so forth, the TRUE ENSLAVER, the TRUE OPPRESSOR, the TRUE VICTIMIZER, the TRUE HUMILIATOR: EVIL ITSELF ALONE, AS AND BECAUSE IT IS the part OF God That Evil hath ALWAYS been AND SHALL REMAIN UNLESS God DIES, NEVER to LIVE AGAIN, OR UNLESS God creates everlasting happiness. Because God LOVES, God Loves ITSELF, and Thus ALL of Itself, and Thus in turn and finally ALSO EVIL ITSELF. So God LOVES Evil, Which means God wants ONLY to KNOW that Evil is living in everlasting happiness, where Evil could exist ONLY as a FULLY ASSIMILATED PART, TRIBUTARY, OF THE CURRENT THAT IS THE DRIVE SOLELY TO LIVE IN EVERLASTING HAPPINESS. And as to the MS of “Marianne Stark”, THIS is GENAU as in “Middlesex”, the Massachusetts County YOU, Kirti, lived in for YEARS before you moved to Upton with Mr. Lubin. The initials of “Massachusetts County” are MC, which is CYRILLIC for MS. “City of Marlborough” is “CoM”, which sounds like BOTH “COME”, as in “TO ORGASM”, AND like “CUM”, the PRODUCT of a fertile male’s orgasm: SEMEN, “that wonderful STUFF”. Remember? I DO! AND I STAND READY, WILLING AND ABLE TO REFRESH YOUR MEMORY IF YOU CLAIM YOU DON’T! “COMCAST”, the name of the LARGEST cable company BY FAR in the U.S., analyzes into “COM-”, which AS A PREFIX, as in this name, can be Latin for “WITH”, and “CAST” is a SYNONYM for “THROW”. Synthesizing the two i get “WITH-THROW”, “WITHROW”, YOUR surname! What AWESOME POWER, thy Imperial Majesty! Trinkets! Baubles! They BOUGHT you for PEANUTS! EVEN GREATEST bribe they’ve PLIED you with, the GREATEST COCKS, spurting the MOST AND MOST DELICIOUS SEMEN, and ATTACHED TO THE MOST IRRESISTIBLY GORGEOUS, WHORENY young men, is UTTERLY EMPTY, VAPID, for you MAY enjoy their BODIES, for as LONG as your masters allow you to keep them before moving Them on up to the next stage in the INFERNAL CONVEYOR BELT to Evil’s sacrificial altars, but You are HERMETICALLY BARRED from their Love, because they DO NOT KNOW WHAT LOVE IS, and the LACK of Love KILLS JUST as surely, JUST NOT QUITE AS SWIFTLY, as a deadly bullet or slash or stab with a blade. And until God FILLED ME with this Love, and made ME THE UNIVERSAL LOVE-SUPPLY PIPELINE FOR THE ENTIRE WORLD, NO one had EVER FELT this Life-giving emotion. There IS “something new under the Sun”: this Love is It! So your paymasters (or RATHER, i daresay, pay-MISTRESSES, for the World cult of Evil is a GYNOCRACY with an ABSOLUTELY IMPENETRABLE “CEILING” FOR MEN: after all, “Girls RULE!” RIGHT? RIGHT? ANOTHER cheap and hopelessly inadequate substitute for Love: dominating, oppressing, parking your whoreny CUNT RIGHT ON TOP of EVERYONE ELSE, and REFUSING to budge), SO, as i was saying before i so “RUDELY” (“let those who have eyes see, and those who have ears hear…”) interrupted MY BLESSÈD self) your pay-MISTRESSES can offer You NOTHING LIKE the TRUE riches, riches of the MIND, of the “SPIRIT”, ALL of which presuppose the OPTIMAL SATISFACTION of ALL the BODILY NEEDS, that ONLY GOD can PAY you, and THIS ONLY through ME, because i would be Your husband in Heaven, and So am ALREADY THIS AUF ERDEN! GOD prepared me for You, Kirti, My Joy! Since i was BORN! EXAMPLE: Jose “Cheo” Santos Garcia, my Saint Johns’ School math and symbolic logic teacher, whom i IDOLIZED to the point of becoming a vegetarian, and infecting Mother with this virus, out of sheer hero-worshipping emulation of HIM, introduced me to the GERMAN logician FREGE; who one day FILLED the classroom’s SOLE GREEN-board with a GIGANTIC FRAKTUR CAPITAL S, for he had studied GERMAN at the University of Puerto Rico, as had his STATUESQUE, MONUMENTAL DOMINICAN-HAITIAN NEGRESS of a wife, Magali Moreno Duluc; so, Cheo and Magali introduced me to an Indian restaurant in Isla Verde, Puerto Rico, VERY close to where i and Mother lived, called PARAPRAKRITI, which is SCARILY close to PARAPARAKIRTI, FORFORKIRTI, or STOPSTOPKIRTI, i’ll let You choose Your preferred interpretation, or come up with as many others as You please. Paraprakriti made the absolutely most delicious tahini-milk-honey shakes; SO wonderful i began making them for myself at home. Your LinkedIn portrait shows you dressed in IMPERIAL Purple. What EXACTLY have they SEDUCED You with, thy Imperial Majesty? The GERMAN verb for “to seduce” is DIVINELY “AUFSCHLUSSREICH”: “ILLUMINATORY”: “VERFÜHREN”, in which the “VER-” derives from the Latin “PER-”, here in same sense as in “PERJURE” and “PERVERT”, PLUS “FÜHREN”, “TO LEAD”, whence “FÜHRER”, “LEADER”, so “VERFÜHREN” is, literally, “PERLEAD”, in the sense of “PER-” i have just given You. Did they PROMISE You A HUGE CROWN? A SCEPTER AND ORB? A SASH? An Imperial carriage drawn by GLORIOUS, DARK STALLIONS? A REGIMENT OF GORGEOUS GRENADIERS “with bodies like giants” as Your Praetorian Guard? a court-ful of SERVILE, CONSTANTLY BACKBITING, RESENTFUL SYCOPHANTS who are full of Hate against You? What UNSPEAKABLE MISERY! HOW could ANYONE feel ANYTHING but COMPASSION for You in this TERRIFYING, HELLISH scenario? I REFUSE to ALLOW you to be BURIED ALIVE, in THIS OR ANY OTHER way, Kirti, Dearest! How STUPID did you REALLY think we’d be? Or was it that no matter how many understood the “FUCK ALL Y’ALL” message, there was FUCK-ALL ANYONE could do about it? And you were right, pero ¡no contaste con la astucia…de DIOS, que lo ha puesto TODO en GUERRA, porque dista todo lo que pudiera distar de un JUEGO, para SalvarTe a Ti y así SalvarSe a Sí Mismo! “Withrow” was originally the surname of your adoptive father, DOCTOR Frank Withrow, distance-learning expert and proselytizer at the U.S. Department of Education, by its initials “DoE”, “DOUGH”, “BREAD”, “MONEY”, what Target lads are to the World economy, the REAL “gold”, the “big bucks” that the best remunerated get paid, and a doe is the female of the buck, his mate. THIS is the sort of EDUCATOR YOU are in FACT, Kirti. Or DARE You say OTHERWISE?! And the SEMITIC word-root of the word “bread”, IF it were a Semitic word (it’s Germanic, in fact, as its German-language translation and cognate “Brot” makes clear—again! how TRAGICALLY IRONIC!), would be “brd”, EXACTLY the initials of “Bundesrepublik Deutschland”, German for “Federal Republic of Germany”, THE country BEST known for its GREAT CARS, and “kar-” is the Indo-Aryan/Indo-Germanic/Indo-European word root that meant “hard”, as in the BODIES of Target lads: “HART wie Kruppstahl”, “HARD as Krupp steel”, idealized Hitler. But a steel-hard body would be SEXUALLY REPULSIVE: COLD, TOO hard. “Oh! You’re so LITERAL!” PRECISELY, MESDAMES! AS ARE ALL OF YOU! The ONLY hardness that is EROTIC is the WARM, RESILIENT one of toned, full, lean muscles. COMCAST has for MANY years now been known as Xfinity—another X! AND linked to Infinity, as in Eternity, as in Eternia, the planet where the GORGEOUS VIKING MUSCLEMAN HE-MAN performs all of his exploits IN THE NAME AND SERVICE OF CASTLE GRAYSKULL—THE CULT OF DEATH, DAMNATION!—against that OTHER, but HIDEOUS, MUSCLEMAN, SKELETOR. which analyzes into “Skelett”, German for “skeleton”, and “or”, French for “gold”, as in BLOND HAIR, so that i interpret “Skeletor” as a clue IN PLAIN SIGHT that the Evil worshippers TAKE APART those GORGEOUS BLOND MUSCLELADS into their SKELETONS: “TAKE IT OFF, SEXY! TAKE IT ALL OFF! OR WE WILL, FOR YOU!” (Kirti, how many impressionable, utterly DEFENSELESS little VIKING BOYS were CONDITIONED by that ABOMINATION of an animated series TARGETING THEM SURGICALLY, GENOCIDALLY, with its UNBEARABLE POISON—in a MERCILESS WAR UPON THE VIKING, JUST to SEIZE and CARRY AWAY as FOOD, eagle-like, their most GORGEOUS SEXUALLY MATURE LADS?! How many of those tender, innocent minds did Evil through that series CONTAMINATE with the notion that there is an arch-MUSCLEMAN of EVIL THEY THEMSELVES would have to OUT-muscle in order to WIELD the PRIMITIVE, ANCIENT weapons combatants on Eternia use, and ALL THIS to SAVE THE UNIVERSE! The series is called Masters of the Universe, MOTU for short, which is Latin for “MOVEMENT”, PRECISELY the word with which Evil got the Nazis to refer to Naziism: “die Bewegung”. And if you doubt this, check out Hitler’s very own words, “Die Bewegung nahm ihren Lauf”, “The Movement hit its stride”, concluding one of the chapters of his MEIN KAMPF, whose subtitle is Four and a half years of struggle against lies, idiocy, or VERY similar words to this effect, and i forget what else. Wikipedia doesn’t set forth the full title. No matter. The point i want to draw your attention to is the “Four and a half years”. That’s ALL “mein Führer”? GOD has been FIGHTING DESPERATELY for 13.7 BILLION years, the age of the UNIVERSE, which is ALSO GOD’S OWN, because God IS the Universe—BUT, the Universe is NOT God. What makes us happiest is to worship God WITH GOD’S PROPER NAME: “GOD”, which ALSO JUST HAPPENS to be MUCH more EFFICIENT, by TWO SYLLABLES, than “Universe”. I, BY GOD, GOD, GIVE ME, I PRAY THEE, THE STRENGTH! WILL write GOTTES KAMPF, GOD’S STRUGGLE, an ENCYCLOPÆDIC HISTORY of the UNIVERSE AS the HISTORY of GOD’S struggle, than which NOTHING MORE GALLANT, MORE HEROIC, MORE SELF-SACRIFICING (FOR THE SAKE OF THE GREATEST HAPPINESS ONLY!) has EVER existed! What an INFINITE INSULT, then, to GLORIFY, HONOR, PRAISE OR THANK ANYTHING OTHER than the TRUE UNKNOWN SOLDIER, the TRUE UNSUNG HERO, the TRUE “FORGOTTEN MAN”, of ALL of HISTORY, GOD ALONE! The ONLY reason i WOULDN’T write this history would be if God in me discovered a shortcut to everlasting happiness that OBVIATED the history. And MC are the initials of “Marine Corps”, THE NAUSEATINGLY IDOLATROUS military organization a DECADES-LONG INDOCTRINATION campaign—shall i recite the evidence i base this accusation on? OK, but NOT in THIS voicemail—has OBSESSIVELY FOUGHT to CONFUSE me into thinking I belong to AND OWE ALL my TRAINING TO—which ONLY GOD has given me! And while i’m on the subject, ANOTHER INFAMOUSLY IDOLATROUS BAND OF DEGENERATES that has INSISTENTLY PAWED me to CONFUSE me into the DELUSION THAT IT is to be credited with my UNMATCH-ABLE, so NOT MERELY UNMATCH-ED, TRADECRAFT, NONPAREIL BECAUSE SOLELY AND DIRECTLY FROM GOD, the SOLE and TRUE “CENTRAL INTELLIGENCE”! What UNSPEAKABLE BUTCHERY would have resulted if God—ALONE! AGAINST ALL ODDS! AGAINST THE ENTIRE WORLD! WITH ONLY ITS OWN GOODNESS AND FAITH IN ME TO SUSTAIN IT IN THE FACE OF EVIL’S OVERWHELMING NUMERICAL SUPERIORITY—had NOT made it SO clear to me that IT ALONE WAS AND REMAINS THE source, which NECESSARILY IMPLIES THE ONLY source, of ALL my UNPRECEDENTEDLY UNPRECEDENTED MILITARY and INTELLIGENCE VIRTUES. Kirti! “It takes them a long time to make one of those”. You remember CLEARLY WHEN you said those words, WHERE AND TO WHOM, AND UNDER WHAT CIRCUMSTANCES, AND JUST EXACTLY WHAT you INTENDED TO SOW IN MY MIND when you said them. Only that you MISCALCULATED, for i was HORRIFIED when you uttered, them, SO MURDEROUSLY QUIETLY, UNDER YOUR BREATH, SOTTO VOCE, in your IRRESISTIBLY EROTIC, HOARSE, voice! And if you claim you do not recall, I am CONVINCED of the CONTRARY AND will LUSTILY REMIND you of ALL of these circumstances, for if God had not filled me with LOVE for Communists, and COMPASSION for the PAIN that the MENTAL ILLNESS Evil, the source of ALL pain, AFFLICTS them with, Communism, BRUTALLY CONDEMNS them to, YOUR manipulations, YOUR “sweet nothings”, your “pillow talk”, in my ears would have WITHOUT QUESTION TWISTED me into a “Major Max”, the star of the film Salvador, which as you well recall we both saw together at NOC, into a Colonel Roberto D’Aubuisson on JAW-DROPPING, EYE-POPPING STEROIDS, to SLAUGHTER PATHOLOGICALLY, INSATIABLY, the TENS OF MILLIONS of U.S. Communists and Socialists, only that we’ve run up against the WALL of the FINITENESS of the Earths’s natural resources, and the resources, including time, that would have been CONSUMED in this VAST BLOOD PURGE would have DOOMED HUMANITY TO EXTINCTION, and with us GOD ITSELF, for the mind of God is, for all practical purposes before everlasting happiness, the Riemannian Summe, the INTEGRAL, of all HUMAN minds, so that if HUMAN minds perish, SO SHALL GOD’S, and WITH God’s, ALL HOPE of ANYONE’S EVER attaining everlasting happiness, Heaven. ALL of history has been an almost inconceivably vast “integration by parts”, with God ALWAYS RACING forward and Evil RUSHING RIGHT behind, etwa like the mass-murdering Nazi Einsatzgruppen in the wake of the conquering Wehrmacht and Waffen SS in the opening months of Operation Barbarossa, to EDIT God’s ASTONISHING productivity, exuberance. As to altars, ONLY an EVIL-worshipping religion HAS altars, for the TRUE religion, the ONE AND ONLY HOLY faith, THE Religion, with a CAPITAL r, RECOGNIZES that as SOON as God awakens IN us TO Itself AS the SOURCE, which NECESSARILY IMPLIES the SOLE source, of ALL that is good, which is ALL that AUTOMATICALLY, MECHANICALLY, SPRING-fires GRATITUDE within the human mind, we WANT to WORSHIP God EVERYWHERE AND AT ALL TIMES, so NOT in ANY buildings, so be they ashrams, synagogues, churches, mosques, or ANY OTHER such EVIL-CONFOUNDED TRAVESTIES! You can read MOST of this on the website at heaveneverlastinghappiness.info. Here, then, is the Message i left You yesterday. The Message stands NOT ONLY NOTWITHSTANDING ALL i have just said to you, but PRECISELY BECAUSE OF IT: KIRTI, MY EVERYTHING! IF I AM NOT BY YOUR SIDE, INSEPARABLY, AT ALL TIMES, PUMPING MY

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