Messages for you, Ms. Withrow, Part II

Messages for you, Ms. Withrow, Part II; by Victor Luis Villalon-Suarez

most recently updated on 7/19/2022 at 4:00

(Continued from Part I)

GODLY LOVE ANESTHESIA-LIKE INTO YOU AT ALL HOURS OF THE DAY AND NIGHT, THE PAIN YOU SHALL SUFFER WHEN—NOT IF—YOU FULLY GRASP THE INFINITE ENORMITY OF WHAT EVIL ALONE HAS DRIVEN YOU TO LEND YOURSELF TO, YOU WILL KILL YOURSELF! I am convinced Evil GOT you to do this by BRIBING you with the most irresistible bribe ever: a steady stream of the SPECTACULAR “BLOND BEASTS” YOUR “EDUCATION PROGRAM” set in motion, for you to SUCK OFF; SUPER BEAUTIFUL young men with ENORMOUS COCKS AND COPIOUS EJACULATE for you to SWALLOW. Your vagina is MUCH too shallow to accommodate these Riesenschwanzen, but NOT so your MOUTH, which IS large enough to take them ALL in, and although the average U.S. cock, all 5 inches of it when fully erect, CAN satisfy the AVERAGE woman through VAGINAL penetration, because the average vagina is also about 5 inches deep, NOT SO ORAL penetration, for it is a WELL DOCUMENTED FACT that for MAXIMAL ORAL PLEASURE, a COCKSUCKER, so whether FEMALE OR MALE, REQUIRES a MUCH LONGER AND THICKER erect penis. This is just a FACT of PHYSICS. So EVEN IF i and you were a “PERFECT FIT”, as i have more than once overheard uttered within earshot of me, i shall NEVER BEFORE God transfigures me into my HEAVENLY porportions, WHICH MAY NEVER HAPPEN, because it MAY ALREADY be TOO LATE for God, so then, i shall NEVER be able to satisfy you with my PATHETIC 5-inch cock in the ONLY modality of sex that drives you to the PAROXYSMS of ECSTASY that it is ALL i live for to KNOW ONLY I CAN give you, and this is IMPOSSIBLE THIS side of HEAVEN: NOT vaginal penetration, but SOLELY YOUR GIVING HEAD. THIS is my IMPENETRABLE ARMOR, which is STRICTLY MENTAL, FROM THE SOLE ARMORER: GOD. GOD hath filled me with SO MUCH LOVE for you, Kirti, my Heaven, that i CANNOT SETTLE FOR ANYTHING LESS THAN EVERLASTING ORGASM for you, with me transfigured into a blond, blue-eyed and lightest-skinned SUPERMAN FAR more EROTIC than ANY you have EVER sucked off, out of the BATTALIONS who have paraded through your GREEDY MAW on their way to perdition. But you didn’t care as long as you kept being “paid the big bucks”. “You only live once”. “Life is short”. “There’s no hell of punishment even for the worst sinner”. And THIS is PARTLY true, for the ONLY HELL THERE IS is RIGHT HERE, on EARTH; there IS no EVERLASTING HELLFIRE for the reprobate. But everlasting death is EVEN WORSE a prospect than everlasting hellfire FOR ANYONE WHO HAS IMAGINED EVERLASTING SEXUAL ECSTASY, as GOD, ALONE, HATH made it possible for ME to, and THIS ONLY by FLASHING before my eyes the VISION of your UNSURPASSEDLY EROTIC 25-YEAR OLD’S BODY, for what your body was when you were 25 was by FAR the MOST SEXUALLY AROUSING WOMAN’S BODY I HAVE EVER laid eyes on in my ENTIRE LIFE. When i fantasize about you the way i would want you to be in Heaven, all i have to do is call to my mind’s eye your body back when we lived together between March of 1985 and whenever it was you left NOC “just to go to a wedding”, as you murmured excitedly to Mary T. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME in the Plant Room, by the coffee pot. All COLDLY PREMEDITATED, TIMED AND EXECUTED to BURN this auditory memory in my mind, to KINDLE, then FAN, the FLAME of my desire to Marry you some distant, unimaginably and TERRIFYINGLY DISTANT day. And indeed, these were the VERY LAST WORDS i heard from your lips at NOC.“That girl can suck the chrome plating off a car fender”, joked F.C. once in an edu. Little did i suspect he was referring to YOU. Only that even back then you had LONG SINCE CEASED being a mere GIRL and become a FULL-FLEDGED, FEARSOME PREDATRIX. Little did HE suspect, in fact. It was a HEGELIAN, NOT a FREUDIAN, slip! An UNSUSPECTED DEEP WORLD-HISTORICAL TRUTH UTTERED COMPLETLEY NAÏVELY, UNBEWUSST, UNCONSCIOUSLY, but NO LESS TRUE for all this. And NO penile enlargement can POSSIBLY “ameliorate”, in that inimitable NOC-ism, my PENILE INSUFFICIENCY, because an ARTIFICIALLY ENLARGED PENIS, FEELS DISGUSTING, JUST like an artificially enlarged BREAST—i KNOW, because B.I. had two of these, and they were absolutely REPULSIVE to me when i kneaded them the night at B.E.’s i would have penetrated her vagina had she not blocked it with her right hand, utterly wordlessly. But somehow you knew of my infidelity, and your IRE was UNQUENCHABLE. The VERY NEXT DAY you BRUTALLY DUMPED me for Jim. That’s PERFFECTLY alright, my DARLING! I had it coming to me, it served me right, i RICHLY deserved EVERY TORTUROUS INSTANT of my comeuppance. I’m STILL SMARTING form it JUST as if it had happened just yesterday. It’s been the gift that’s just kept right on giving. And “Gift” is German for “poison”. The POISON that has just kept right on poisoning. Me. AND, i KNOW it, YOU TOO, which is PRECISELY what makes it SO TERRIBLY TRAGIC! We have BOTH ONLY LOST! EXCEPT ME through the “lesson learned”. GOD, the ONLY THING in the UNIVERSE that can FIND, EXTRACT AND PRESERVE the POSITIVE in the MIDST of the NEGATIVE; the GOOD in the MIDST of the EVIL, has STIFFENED ME to NOT JUST ENDURE ALL of this TERRIBLE PAIN, but to EMERGE MORE LOVING THAN EVER POSSIBLE BEFORE as a result SOLELY of how SOLELY GOD PROCESSED the trauma in this part of God’s mind that MY mind is. From this CATASTROPHE i learned the INDISPENSABLE LESSON of the TERRIBLE HARM that SEXUAL INFIDELITY does to the cuckolded, so whether female or male. AND IF, DESPITE WHATEVER GOD MAY DRIVE ME TO DO TO SAVE YOUR LIFE, YOU DO KILL YOURSELF, IT MAY BE THAT EVERYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD OTHER THAN ME WILL EXULT AT YOUR DEMISE, BECAUSE ONLY I, like the old Cuban fisherman who MIRACULOUSLY CATCHES THE GIGANTIC SWORDFISH in Hemingways’ The Old Man and the Sea, only to LOSE ALL the EVIDENCE of his EXTRAORDINARY FEAT of STRENGTH AND ENDURANCE as SHARKS DEVOUR the carcass of the fish where he has secured it, to the side of his boat, on his way back to port, so, to reiterate, ONLY I HAVE PERCEIVED, AND DOCUMENTED MOST OF, ALL THE SIGNS WITH WHICH GOD HAS PROGRAMMED ME TO SEE IN YOU THE SECOND MOST IMPORTANT PERSON WHO HAS EVER LIVED, AFTER ONLY ME. AND EVEN GOD’S MOST HEROIC MEASURES MAY FAIL TO PREVENT THIS POSSIBLY EVERLASTINGLY DEADLY—THUS TO GOD ITSELF!—OUTCOME, because, Kirti, i am CONVINCED down to the MARROW of my BONES that God shall NOT be able to Save Itself, Thus the World, with ONLY ME UNASSISTED by YOU! OK, now, for real, here comes the Message from yesterday: Kirti, this is your Victor, my Dearest after only God Itself, and only because God is the source of all that is good, and thus of my own Love and Lust for you, and thus of you yourself. So it is God that is my Dearest. And then ME, because it is I who wants TO THE EXCLUSION OF ALL ELSE, to feel the ECSTASY of YOUR ECSTASY in having ever-greater sex FOREVER, Which i am CONVINCED COULD be ONLY with ME IN my HEAVENLY body. But from now on, now that you have heard what i mean, i want to call you JUST my DEAREST, my ONLY HAPPINESS, the ONLY person i have EVER desired PERSISTENTLY AND for 33 YEARS! MY MOST beLovèd, the ONLY THING that GOD, the SOURCE of WHATEVER strength i have EVER had, has GIVEN me this strength THROUGH has been my SINGLEMINDED DESIRE to make you SO happy you’ll want to live FOREVER JUST to KEEP feeling FOREVER what i am CONVINCED God could make you feel ONLY through ME. My DARLING! My ONLY TREASURE! I am DISCONSOLATE; i keep leaving you messages, hoping against all experience that you’ll respond to just ONE of them. For all i know, you are still together with Mr. Lubin. Could you wait until you are alone to give me just a quick call so i can HEAR you SPEAKING to me? About WHATEVER YOU want! YOU choose the topics! I’LL frame ALL my answers within the framework of the Love God, the source of Love, has FILLED me with for ALL forms of matter, thus for ALL forms of LIVING matter, thus for ALL people, thus of ALL races AND SOCIOECONOMIC CLASSES, Thus that EVER shall have been. This Love is an INDESCRIBABLY BEAUTIFUL feeling, by FAR the GREATEST I have EVER felt, and it is just the desire ONLY to KNOW that ALL these things exist in everlasting happiness, in Heaven, Thus in our HEAVENLY forms; and Kirti, i Love you SO much i want YOU to FEEL this Love too! My SWEETNESS! My JOY! I TAKE BACK EVERY UN-Loving thing i have EVER exposed you to, and i am HORRIFIED at how MANY i have made you suffer, so EVER since God brought us together, in March of 1985, and I pray God ALONE the TERRIBLE HURT I, in my IGNORANCE, have inflicted on you has not done IRREPARABLE HARM to you, that it is not too late for you to find it within your GODLINESS, which is INNATE AND INALIENABLE to ALL people, EVEN if you do not believe in God, to FORGIVE me, so we can CONVERSE, my DARLING! I am SPIRITUALLY DYING of THIRST AND HUNGER for your VOICE! The bare MORSEL of it i get whenever i call you and get your voicemail message is not enough to sate my thirst and hunger! I’ll drop WHATEVER i’m doing to ANSWER you as SOON as i realize you’re calling me, and we’ll converse as LONG as YOU want AND FOR as LONG as YOU want! Till that HAPPY moment, my ONLY CONSOLATION!

(Vm’d 6/5/2022 at 15:47. But must read through to find the spot at which i say i am going to start to reread the Message. THIS is the Message i vm’d.)

6/7/2022, 22:20, with later improvements: Kirti, my Heaven! This is your Victor, Dearest! Kirti, the ONLY thing EVERY person DESERVES is EVERLASTING HAPPINESS. It SHOULD suffice for me to say this, but Evil hath severely impaired our deductive capabilities, so i feel i NEED to state the OBVIOUS: what i have just told you every person deserves is COMPLETELY REGARDLESS of WHATEVER EVIL ANYONE thinks ANYONE has done, because in fact, to quote Nazi Propaganda Minister Joseph Goebbels in his testament shortly before he shot his so-called wife Magda and then himself, in everlasting happiness we would all emerge “rein und unbefleckt”, “pure and immaculate”. But my Lust, we can start RIGHT NOW, with the realization that we are ALL, ALREADY, “pure and immaculate”, and that the SOLE culprit of ALL the crimes of history has all along been SOLELY EVIL ITSELF. And Evil is the drive solely to cause everlasting death. So NO ONE is AT FAULT for, GUILTY of, ANYTHING. Darling Treasure of my soul, this realization by itself is a revolution in revolution itself: a revolution “of a new type”, to quote that tragically brutally exploited ATHEIST SAINT Vladimir Ilyich Ulyanov, called “Lenin”. Because in EVERY SINGLE REVOLUTION IN ALL OF HISTORY UP TILL NOW, there had ALWAYS been SOME SUBDIVISION OF HUMANKIND that was identified as the enemy, and marked for punishment and destruction. In wars of liberation, which are revolutionary wars, the colonial power; in the Dutch Revolution, the Spanish; in the French, the nobility; in all Communist revolutions, the bourgeoisie; in the Nazi, the Reaction and the Jews, and so on. Not much else remains. The moral leader of the Cuban Revolution, the poet-guitarist-singer Silvio Rodriguez-Dominguez has a song entitled Vamos a andar. The music comes straight from God. And MOST of the lyrics. BUT, he sings, at one point: “Vamos a andar, hundiendo al poderoso, alzando al perezoso, sumando a los demás.” First, ALL orders are UNLAWFUL ON THEIR FACE PRECISELY BECAUSE THEY ARE ORDERS, because it is the MOST CRIMINAL VIOLATION to RUN ROUGHSHOD over a RATIONAL BEING’S will by jumping to a practical conclusion rather than throwing all one’s might into making the GROUNDS, the REASONS, for—yea! how “COMPASSIONATE”! The “SPRINGS” of—, action the BEST GOD DRIVES one to make them. So AT MOST what Mr. Rodriguez-Dominguez SHOULD have written SHOULD have BEGUN with SOMETHING like “¿Por qué no andar…”. He is a GENIUS versifier; I am FURTHEST from this, having ABSOLUTELY NO gift for it (a person’s GOT to know her or his limitations! And, the FLIPSIDE of this: also STRENGTHS!

And as God taught in al-Qur’aan, to “exceed one’s limits” is a POTENTIALLY EVERLASTINGLY DEADLY SIN). So with the SPIRIT of this Correction of mine in his mind, ASSUMING he sees the INSUPERABLE LOVE in It, i trust him COMPLETELY to come up with LYRICS of GODLINESS to MATCH That of the MUSIC, which the PRESENT lyrics fall FAR short of. To continue with the analysis, then, as to “hundiendo al poderoso” God suggests 2 responses: FIRST, the POWERFUL are the FIRST VICTIMS of the power Evil DELUDES them into thinking is THEIRS. Here are concrete examples of the compassion-awakening victimhood of those who think themselves powerful: they can never trust anyone to be a friend. And by the way, to say “friend” is NECESSARILY to IMPLY “TRUE friend”, for a so-called “friend” who is NOT true BY THIS VERY FACT PROVES she or he is no friend AT ALL. To save time and avoid insulting Your intelligence, i’ll leave it up to You to look up “friend” and “Friend” in the Glossary, on the Website. And the REASON they can never trust even those who give them the most convincing signs of genuine friendship lies in the ancient Roman maxim “omnes vulnerant, ultima necat”, this is: “they all wound, the last one kills”. This is true of EVERY SINGLE action a COURTIER (for this is ALL the SUPPOSEDLY powerful have about them) performs in the alleged service of the patron: the more these signs of friendship, and the deeper the apparent friendship, the more cause the patron has to be TERRIFIED that SUCH MUST be the MAGNITUDE of the BETRAYAL this COURTIER is PLOTTING, for SUCH is the DEPTH OF CONFIDENCE IN the COURTIER that the CON SCHEMED AT ABSOLUTELY HINGES ON. And the history of moles offers examples galore of the FANATICAL DEVOTION to the BETRAYAL that animates the embedded secret agents. They’ll toil in obscurity at the most barren drudgery for DECADES, if they are CONVINCED they MUST, JUST for the sake of the death-dealing plunge of the dagger in the heart of the patron at the critical instant. Only God can drive such industry and patience. Then, next, the powerful can give free rein to their taste for humiliating others. But every single sharp word, or even just hand gesture or glance, INCITES the PROFOUND HATRED of the humiliated, so that the SUICIDAL price of indulging in the addiction to oppressing others is the conjuring into being of a whole army of SWORN SECRET ENEMIES. My mother used to say to me: “No hay enemigo demasiado pequeño”, “there is no enemy too small”.

Nemesis may take the form of the most contemptible—to the haughty—object of the powerful’s abuse. After the wanton exercise of arbitrary power, the so-called powerful can also seek relief in things and therefore in the means with which to acquire them: money, chiefly. But they lack ALL they TRULY need, namely what ONLY GOD’S SYSTEM could provide THEM, AS the PARTS of the GENERAL POPULATION they would be, This being ALL EVERY person needs IN ORDER TO CONTRIBUTE what ONLY SHE OR HE CAN, and THIS by EXERCISING her or his GIFTS, what SHE or HE is BEST at. But i hypothesize that in the body of God conceived as the sum of all people who shall ever have been, every single individual is THE best out of ALL of humankind at SOMETHING, which may not even exist when she or he is born, and which maybe only she or he can discover and develop to operationalizability. Hegel wrote about this phenomenon that in EVERY individual SOME faculty stands out in SHARP relief, while the REST appear MERELY in “verwischten zügen”, “blurry strokes”. And what i SHOULD have begun with: ALL the powerful of history have lacked the greatest Love, SHOWN TO THEM FIRST, because GOD ITSELF, the VERY SOURCE of Love, had NEVER FELT this Love UNTIL GOD DISCOVERED IT IN THIS PART OF GOD’S MIND that MY mind is. After 13.7 billion years of UNREMITTING travail and agony. Mr. Rodriguez-Dominguez has a deeply moving phrase in his song Por quien merece amor that is God’s own lament through him: “Mi amor, el más enamorado, es del más olvidado en su antiguo dolor”, only that he SHOULD have written “EL más olvidado”, for NO love has EVER gone MORE forgotten—nay! INFINITELY MORE PAINFUL! UNKNOWN!—than that of the SOURCE of all love: God. In another stanza, he sings: “Mi amor no es amor de uno solo/Sino alma de todo/Lo que urge sanar”. But it is “urgent” to Heal EVERYTHING! ¡No hay NADA que NO urja sanar! Further, he sings: “Mi amor es un amor de abajo/Que el devenir me trajo/Para hacerlo empinar”. Two mistakes here, at least, that i see at this point. FIRST: “Mi amor es un amor de abajo Y DE ARRIBA”: Love for ALL, so for the HUMBLE JUST as much as for the ARROGANT,

who are JUST as deprived, only in a DIFFERENT way. This is all the more astonishing to me coming from Mr. Rodriguez-Dominguez, because in his song El Mayor he sings: “Mortales ingredientes armaron al Mayor: luz de TERRATENIENTES [“arriba”] y de revolución”, and the Revolution is not JUST FROM the OBVIOUSLY downtrodden, “los de abajo”, but ALSO, and JUST AS MUCH or EVEN MUCH MORE PASSIONATELY SO, from the “privileged” who, having negated the negation of the sterility of material possessions for their own sake through the dumb, mechanical, algorithm of just piling them up so high the acquisitors got sick of them all, have the God-alone-sparked epiphany that the rich, too, are “damnés de la Terre”, “damned of the Earth”, and “forçats de la faim”, “forced laborers of hunger”, in the original wording of the Internationale, only that THEIR damnation and hunger is FAR more subtle, elusive to coarse senses. And the automatic PRECIPITATE of THIS CHEMICAL REACTION is a FEROCIOUS Love for ALL, BORN of an EXQUISITE sense of SOLIDARITY WITH ALL people. In the next verse, he says, referring to his love: “Que el devenir me trajo”, literally “That becoming brought me”. Now, he sings elsewhere of God, of angels, of the specters of fallen heroes such as Sandino, Bolivar and el Che, so he is CLEARLY NOT an ATHEIST, and YET HERE he attributes the GENESIS of his love to a PURELY DIALECTICAL-MATERIALISTIC CONCEPT: RAW BECOMING. But WHAT is the FORCE that PROPELS BECOMING? WHERE does the TELEOLOGY of “werden” come from? How can “the Universe” be SO RATIONAL? SO ORDERLY unless Schiller came close in his An die Freude: “Überm sternenzelt muss ein lieber vater wohnen”, which God drives me to emend to “IN us ALL AND ALL AROUND us ALL UNTO the FARTHEST REACHES OF SPACE there MUST live a LOVING BEING.” Or, as Deutsche Wehrmacht Hauptmann Wilhelm Adalbert Hosenfeld tells Hebrew-Polish pianist Władisław Szpielman in the film The Pianist: “Wir MÜSSEN glauben, dass GOTT WILL, dass wir ÜBERLEBEN”: “We MUST believe that GOD WILLS for us to SURVIVE”. God LOVES us ALL THAT much, but ONLY because WE are for all practical purposes the BODY AND MIND of God. No US, no GOD.

And finally for now in this same song, the final stanza, the most HEART-RENDING: “Mi amor, este amor aguerrido/Es un sol encendido/Por quien merece amor”, but we ALL DESERVE LOVE! ALL! WITHOUT EXCEPTION! And therefore, EXACTLY as i BEGAN by EXPLAINING to You, ABSOLUTELY IRRESPECTIVE of WHATEVER EVIL EVIL ALONE may have driven us to commit. But let me right here caution You against a potentially everlastingly deadly error: this does NOT mean that we should suffer to CONTINUE to EXIST EVEN ONE INSTANT LONGER those whom Evil hath TWISTED GENETICALLY into ADDICTS to the PAIN of OTHERS, and ALL THE MORE SO the WORSE the PAIN AND the GREATER the BEAUTY of these others. The Earth’s resources are finite and dwindling at a frenetic pace. So the ONLY THING GOD can afford is to be DRACONIANLY SELECTIVE, SAVE ALL resources ONLY for the BEST of the BEST. THIS is the ONLY HOPE ALL people who EVER shall have been, and indeed in general ALL FORMS OF MATTER that ever shall have been, have EVER to live in everlasting happiness, in Heaven. You recall the war story F.C. used to tell in Edus about a charge in Indochina by the French Foreign Legion. The first wave broke. The capitaine regrouped the men, ruthlessly and swiftly shot with his sidearm one out of every ten, then ordered the survivors to charge again. This happened twice again before the charge, despite the thinned ranks, carried the defenders. THE charge is GOD’S, and the DEFENSE is ALL that BARS the WAY to EVERLASTING HAPPINESS. So if, as i still think is necessary, we allow to perish 7.65 billion people over the course of at most 6 days, so PRECISELY the amount of time Genesis claims it took God to create everything, which is ALL it’ll take EVEN THE HARDIEST to THIRST to death, then THIS shall be the SUPREME “AUTO DA FE”; or rather, would it not make you happier to make that “ACT OF LOVE”? Evil, alone, hath driven the Criminals to BUTCHER the LEGIONS of the NOBLEST VIKINGS They have SACRIFICED UNUTTERABLY UPON EVIL’S ALTAR, leaving behind LEGIONS of “KEENING WIDOWS” whom depression shall haunt into suicide or committable insanity, the ULTIMATE “self-cleaning oven”. I am CONVINCED it is NECESSARY to EXECUTE ALL NEGATIVES, so ALL those whose happiness comes from perceiving pain in others, and greater happiness BOTH the WORSE the pain AND the more EROTIC the sufferors, BUT, i believe we should do this ONLY in GOD’S system. As LONG as the PRESENT WORLD system, which the CRIMINALS ALONE operate, pull ALL the strings of,

ENDURES to AFFORD Them Its VERTIGINOUSLY DISINTEGRATING CAMOUFLAGE, NO ONE will so little as THINK about doing Them bodily harm of ANY kind. And we ABSOLUTELY NEED to PERSUADE the TOP LEADER of the Criminals to make A FULL, AUDIO- AND VIDEOTAPED CONFESSION, in EXCRUCIATING DETAIL, of ALL She OR He shall have wrought. SHE or HE is the REAL “one who knows where all the bodies are buried”. AND HOW they DIED, AND HOW they were SOWN, TENDED, HARVESTED AND, FINALLY, DELIVERED into the hands of Their end users, headed by Her or Him. It would be INVALUABLE as EDUCATIONAL MATERIAL for the World on JUST EXACTLY WHAT A HORRIFYING FATE GOD WOULD have by then MIRACULOUSLY MANAGED TO EXTRICATE ITSELF FROM. The Criminals MAY be wondering, in SHOCK and AWE: WHO’D ‘a’ THUNK it? HOW could THIS miserable, PUNY-DICKED NOBODY, this PIPSQUEAK, this GUIÑAPO, this CURRUTACO DE ALFEÑIQUE, this REVOLTINGLY DEFORMED DWARF, OUTMANEUVER the MOST DAUNTING GLOBAL JUGGERNAUT OF EVIL BY FAR IN ALL OF HISTORY? ALL BY HIS LONESOME? Ah, Dearest, but THIS is PRECISELY my point. I was NEVER alone. For, as al-Qur’aan says, in Sura 4, Aya 113: “Ever has the favor of God upon you been great.” God preserved and systematically, patiently, stubbornly, heroically, singlemindedly, brought me up, enduring the unspeakable agonies of all the tortures of Evil as God POURED Its Love INTO me, similarly to how, in von Schlieffen’s Plan 17, the German Imperial Army was to stoically and impavidly contemplate the DEVASTATION of East Prussia by the lead elements of the Russian Imperial Army in a bloodcurdling gambit for time to complete the VAST RECHTSSCHWENKUNG to defeat the French, into which the Great General Staff would have POURED EVERY LAST MAN it could SCRAPE UP OFF OF THE BOTTOM and SIDES of the BARREL that was the Second Reich to MAXIMIZE TROOP DENSITY, this is, the RATIO of NUMBER OF TROOPS to DEPLOYMENT AREA, PACKING the infantry shoulder to shoulder across the entire attack front so exhaustively that the last man on the right would “brush the English Channel with his right sleeve”, so the ENTIRE Western Front could then AT ONCE SHOOT EAST BY RAIL, “geschwind wie der blitz”, as the Panzerlied phrases it, JUST IN TIME to defeat the Russians as well, in a one-two punch. But where the Germans failed in the opening weeks of World War I because they lacked a motive powerful enough to sustain their will to stand by and impassively take in the HELLISH TORMENT of their countrywomen and -men in East Prussia before the unopposed devastating hordes of Slavic beasts as the Great General Staff operationalized

Plan 17, GOD has ALWAYS had THE MOST POWERFUL motive of ALL: the GRIM DETERMINATION to live in everlasting happiness. THIS ALONE is what explains the TOTAL DISCOMFITURE of the plans that occupied the consciousness of the Criminals, for they were NEVER THEIRS. They were EVIL’S ALONE, and therefore GOD’S in the FIRST place, since Evil is a PART of God. This concept, so ALIEN to Judæo-Christianity, is SECOND NATURE to ALL Muslims, as is attested by the fact that one of “99 beautiful names of God” in Islam is “adh-dharr”, “the creator of the harmful”. The Criminals were NEVER AWARE of ALL, and NEVER EVEN REMOTELY IMAGINED, FURTHEST less, then, INTENDED, ANY, of the PRICELESS lessons GOD ALONE, WHICH ALONE is the GENIUS that FINDS the POSITIVE EVEN in the most CRUSHING negativity, taught me after EVERY SINGLE NEGATION originating from Evil through the Criminals, Who have ALL ALONG SOUGHT TO TRANSFER in my MIND ALL THE BLAME from THEMSELVES to YOU, MY PRICELESS DESDEMONA! OF THE MARBLE-WHITE HANDS! ALL THEY saw was the NEGATIVE, ALL THEY felt was ORGASMIC PLEASURE at IMAGINING MY PAIN, AND in FURTHERANCE of the HIDEOUS DISTORTIONS of Their FRACTURED minds. But, my Lust, the war ain’t over till it’s over, and this IS war, Darlin’, or ask the unprecedented numbers of mass-shooting victims dropping all over the land, in a final, hysterically terroristic rebellious shudder of uncontrolled, paroxysmal violence, and God may still die as a result of all the crimes Evil is driving the Criminals to DRENCH the land in the BLOOD of. The Criminals may even, in the INSTANTS before we EXECUTE them, extract some TWISTED JOLT of excitement from the unprecedentedly unprecedented feat of being THE cells out of the ENTIRE body of God through ALL the ages that succeeded in murdering the Host. For although God indeed IS great, as Muslims are wont to cry out, God MAY NOT be GREAT ENOUGH, which, left thus, unqualified, NECESSARILY means great enough TO CREATE EVERLASTING HAPPINESS. The AWFUL TRAGEDY in this would be that They would NEVER have understood JUST HOW Evil cheated Them of everlasting happiness, because Evil also blinded and deafened Them to ANY belief in ANY possibility of Heaven, and SO filled Their lives with the most POTENT JOLTS of the most POTENT DRUG: the pain of others, to those whom Evil hath addicted to It, that They never missed It. And it may all have been for naught. This is realism. But, God, i implore Thee! Give me a MILLION BITTER TRUTHS rather than a SINGLE SWEET LIE, for THIS sweetness is but the SUGARCOATING on the POISON PILL that would DAMN ME, and thus THEE, to EVERLASTING DEATH! But i left dangling my analysis of Vamos a andar. In fact, i never supplied my alternative to “hundiendo al poderoso”, after i explained why i oppose this wording. I propose “SANANDO al poderoso”. I beg your forgiveness for the seeming disjointedness and delay.

To continue, instead of “en verso y vida tintos”, i wish Mr. Rodriguez-Dominguez had said something close to “saturados en Amor”, because without This, verses and life are sheer POISON; and not “tintos” because it reminds me of Mother’s frequent defiant expression of refusal “¡Tinta en sangre!” “First bathed in blood!” (she NEVER specified WHOSE, although i ALWAYS THOUGHT i understood she meant in that of whoever was presenting her with whatever it was that aroused her passion to resist. So something very nearly identical in sentiment to “Over my dead body!”). Also NOT “tintos”, and along the same line, because the most frequent use of “tinto” occurs in “vino tinto”, “red wine”, once again associating “tinto” with blood, and in both cases EXTRAVASATED, so that of a DEAD or WOUNDED person, NECROPHILIC expressions, fit only for the CULT OF DEATH of EVIL’S WORLDWIDE RELIGION. I also prefer “levantando TO’ el recinto”. And instead of “del pan y la verdad” something that’ll fit the meter, but express the idea that there is the bread that is chewed, and the bread that feeds the mind, and that this second is Love, to make clear that the absence of both is equally lethal, only that the absence of Love kills over DECADES, whereas that of the bread that is chewed can kill within two months. Then there is “matando el egoísmo, para que por lo mismo reviva la amistad.” First of all, EVEN IF egotism WERE evil, as opposed to VIRTUOUS, which is what in sooth it IS, the GODLY response to it would be to HEAL it, so FURTHEST from KILLING. But we are ALL EGOTISTS: ALL ANYONE EVER does, she or he does ONLY to FEEL the HAPPIEST she or he THINKS she or he CAN feel. Those who FALLACIOUSLY THINK (PERFECT in German: “die, die sich EINBILDEN…”) they “put others first” in FACT do so ONLY for THEMSELVES, because it makes THEM HAPPIEST to GIVE UP their OWN needs for the sake of satisfying those of these others.

This is TOTALLY PREPOSTEROUS, SUICIDAL, UNSUSTAINABLE, but its MOTIVATION is the GREATEST HAPPINESS of the AGENT’S OWN ego. After all, “ego” is simply Latin for “I”, the English-language first-person, singular, pronoun. So “lookin’ out for number 1”, AS IS GOD’S WILL, because “# 1” is NONE OTHER than GOD ITSELF IN whoever is being spoken of. And finally for now on this verse, killing, negation, by itself NEVER brings ANYTHING to life; there MUST be SOMETHING ALREADY ALIVE THERE to FILL the VOID LEFT by the DEATH, and the SOLE SOURCE of this UNDERLYING LIFEPULSE is NONE OTHER than GOD ITSELF ALONE. NEGATIVE expressions are ALWAYS AMBIGUOUS in EXACTLY the way i’ll illustrate with “matando el egoísmo”. Because ONE way to END an undesired emotion is to KILL the person feeling it, the SAME way that when Adolf Hitler TOTALLY UNWITTINGLY—UNBEWUSST—PROPHESIED with the NEGATIVE formula “Gebt mir 10 jahre, und ihr werdet Deutschland NICHT erkennen”, “Give me 10 years, and you shall not recognize Germany”, whose PURE NEGATIVITY is OBVIOUS when one realizes that what he predicted was something that would NOT happen he had no idea he himself would give himself the right when, overflying bombed out Berlin in his Storch shortly before he killed himself, he muttered, SHOCKED: “SO was hatte ich mich NICHT VORGESTELLT!” “I had NOT imagined ANYTHING LIKE THIS!” EXACTLY! HE HIMSELF could no longer recognize Germany, BUT FROM THE NEGATIVE. To PRECLUDE this CATASTROPHIC OUTCOME, he SHOULD have said something like: “IF you allow me 10 years of supreme leadership, you shall ALL be SO happy you’ll NEVER even WANT to look back, EVER again, for ANYTHING, because ALL you’ll want shall be to live in everlasting happiness!” In further illustration of the CARDINAL PRINCIPLE of the ABSOLUTE, EVERLASTING-HAPPINESS-OR EVERLASTING-DEATH NECESSITY of formulating ALL statements in the POSITIVE, so stating what IS, as opposed to what is NOT, and to complete my analysis of Vamos a andar, the FINAL stanza reads “Vamos a andar/con todas las banderas/trenzadas de manera/que no haya soledad”. Very beautifully poetic, this image of braiding all the flags; maybe this is the best thing there is to be done with them, for the sake of which so much blood, EVERY LAST DROP OF IT, of ALL nations, “HELDENBLUT”,

has been let. But again, “que no haya soledad” is a NEGATIVE expression, and so, FATALLY AMBIGUOUS, because ONE way to END SOLITUDE is to KILL EVERYONE. And “whatever CAN go wrong MAY” (to say “SHALL” is the HERESY, the PSYCHOSIS, of FATALISM, PESSIMISM), or, if you REALLY want the TERROR OF EVIL STRUCK into you: “Be careful what you wish for, because you may get it”, or, as my Uncle Efrain Leon Carbo used to caution before Alzheimer’s incinerated his Godly mind: “Una cosa es llamar al Diablo, y otra verLo venir”: “It is one thing to summon the Devil, but quite entirely another to see It coming”. Proverbs 9:10 begins with: “The beginning of wisdom is fear of the LORD”. ONLY EVIL is LORD, MASTER, for a LORD has SUBJECTS, which comes from a Latin word meaning literally “thrown under, below”; and ONLY EVIL is the MASTER, for a MASTER CAN be one ONLY by the FACT of OWNING SLAVES. I disagree that the BEGINNING of wisdom is fear of Evil; this is NOT HOW it happened in MY life. INSTEAD, FIRST God FILLED me with LOVE FOR IT, and this ONLY by OVERWHELMING me with BLESSINGS, with a NEVER-ENDING and MIGHTY TORRENT of signs of Its Love for ME. So for ME, and i think this shall be true of all others, “The beginning of wisdom is the Love of God.” But this was not enough, because the positive was not concrete enough, did not have enough ATTRACTIVE FORCE to PULL INTO LINE ALL my actions. No. I NEEDED AND STILL NEED CONSTANT correction, “rectification”, for sometimes i stray from the dirt path i am marching on, and i CANNOT DO WITHOUT the UNSPARING BLOW with THE FLAT OF THE SABER ACROSS MY CHEST from my fellow marcher, woman or man, lass or lad, girl or boy or baby, right next to me to remind me to get back on the straight path. And these BLOWS are PAINFUL AND ABSOLUTELY TERRIFYING.

So for ME the Proverb should read, synthesizing both halves: “The beginning of wisdom is to Love God, but the TERROR of Evil is its completion”. So i propose instead a POSITIVE expression that has the added virtue of fitting the meter perfectly: “que sólo haya amistad”, and friendship, a fortiori Friendship, ANALYTICALLY NECESSARILY PRESUPPOSES LOVE. Kirti, i’ve already made two approximations to the subject of war. So now i’ll unburden myself to You of all God fills me with to communicate to You now, Lust of my life, my Wife of 33 years of homeward vortrekking: i am not NOW, have NEVER been, AND NEVER WILL be a member of ANY military of ANY country or of ANY other organization ANYWHERE OTHER THAN GOD’S, OF WHICH I AM THE SOLE FOUNDER, ALL GLORY, HONOR, PRAISE AND THANKS TO GOD ALONE FOREVERMORE! So ALL the UNPRECEDENTEDLY UNPRECEDENTED MILITARY VIRTUES i am WORLD RENOWNED AND ADMIRED for i owe SOLELY TO GOD’S INIMITABLE TRAINING AND DISCIPLINE over ALL 57 YEARS OF MY EXISTENCE TO DATE, although the U.S. Marine Corps in specific has made it a POINT over i don’t even remember HOW long to CONFUSE, yea to PERVERT, me into thinking i BELONG to THEM, am THEIR PROPERTY! VILEST, GENOCIDAL IDOLATRY! I’ll DIE at the Criminals’ ur-sadist’s hands in Their most AWFUL sacrifice to Evil FIRST! For to SUCCUMB to this INFINITE MONSTROSITY would be DEATH to GOD! THEY WOULD-BE THE MURDERERS OF THE LOVING! AND THEY LAUGH ABOUT IT! I SEE AND HEAR THEM! IT IS ALL SPORT TO THEM! NUFF SAID! IT IS GENETIC! NOT THEIR FAULT! BUT GENETIC JUNK IS JUNK JUST THE SAME, AND THERE’S ONLY ONE THING TO DO WITH JUNK: THROW IT OUT FOR RECYCLING! Even the MEMORY of Them is SO UNBEARABLE that the PAIN of it may be ALL we need, from the NEGATIVE, to SHOOT UP into everlasting happiness, where They would, at last, never even ever HAVE been what Evil alone made Them: by FAR the WORST MONSTERS IN HISTORY! And yet, ALL i want FOR Them ALL is EVERLASTING HAPPINESS—do you remember poor, sweet Jesus agonizing on the cross and crying out to heaven, where he was deluded God was, “O, forgive them all, my Father, i implore Thee, for they know not what they do!”, kept by Evil alone too ignorant to realize, FIRST, that God COULD not forgive them, because God never even took note of the sins Evil—alone—drove them t, in the FIRST place; and SECOND, that God hath “NOTHING WHATSOEVER AT ALL” in common with ANY father.

ALL i want with You, meine Ehefrau, is to FUCK You, FOREVER, in the unimaginably EROTIC body of the MOST HEAVENLY EROTIC VIKING EVER, in a place where the Criminals would NEVER have been this MENTAL NAPALM Evil made Them. As to GOD’S army, there is but ONE Leader: ITS Imperial Majesty, GOD ITSELF ALONE, WHICH, AS the drive SOLELY to live in everlasting happiness, as well as as space, time, energy and, but ONLY BEFORE everlasting HAPPINESS, also Evil, the drive SOLELY to cause everlasting DEATH, and thus CAN be, thus in fact IS not, ANY human being OR GROUP of human beings, hence NO MATTER HOW NUMEROUS, so NOT EVEN ALL of HUMANKIND; and God ONLY LEADS, and this ONLY from WITHIN and from ALL AROUND EVERY SOLDATIN and SOLDAT; GRENADIERERIN and GRENADIER; thus NEVER COMMANDS, and so is NO COMMANDER. ONLY EVIL hath commanders and issues orders. And as to the TROOPS, we are ALL HUMBLEST ENLISTED WOMEN AND MEN: SOLDADAS y SOLDADOS RASOS. And the UNIFORM is SOLELY the UNFALSIFIABLE one that CAN be “WORN” ONLY on the INSIDE AND that CAN NEVER be TAKEN OFF: Love, Thus for ALL forms of MATTER, Thus for ALL forms of LIVING matter, Thus for ALL PEOPLE, Thus, finally and in turn, for ALL RACES AND SOCIOECONOMIC CLASSES, that EVER shall have been. Watee once told me a story about his time as a soldier fighting in the Vietnam War. He and the men he was with chanced upon another group of U.S. soldiers who were grouped around one of them and watched in silence as he brutally raped a tender Vietnamese girl. When the rapist saw the expression on Watee’s face as he drew near, he dismounted his victim, pulled up his pants and zipper, and approached Wattee, arms open supplicatingly to the sides, warm smile on his face, saying, “Hey, brother, we’re all American soldiers here! We’re all wearing the same uniform!” Watee simply SEIZED this degenerate and FROGMARCHED him to the Vietnamese villagers who had assembled nearby, impotent to arrest the outrage, and ABANDONED him there, all alone and VASTLY outnumbered, to suffer “what he must” because these poor peasants didn’t know the crime was not the degenerate’s fault, and that instead of the unthinkable tortures they subjected him to, all they should have done with him should have been to abruptly put paid to his consumption of natural resources by shooting him point blank between the eyes with a 9 mm bullet or the closest to it they had to hand. The Criminals, and sadists in general, shall NEVER reform, EVEN IF they repent: “A leopard will NEVER change its spots.”

They CANNOT help it, ANY MORE THAN I EVER could enjoy even an INSTANT of ANYONE ELSE’S suffering, STARTING with the WHOLE of the HOST OF EVIL. It is SO AWFUL that the ONLY consolation, EVEN AFTER we have EXECUTED THEM ALL, WORLDWIDE, shall be to work with UNIMAGINABLE FEROCITY AND FANATICISM for EVERLASTING HAPPINESS. And this concludes this broadcast of the Gotteswelle! I wish You, my Treasured Wife, my Salvation, the Happiest day! See You when i FUCK You, IF God DOESN’T FUCK IT ALL UP! WHICH I WOULDN’T PUT PAST GOD! [Sing the final fanfare from Liszt’s Les Préludes.]

(Fin’d vm’g entire Message on 6/8/2022 at 13:04.)

6/9/2022, 2:49: Dearest Kirti, Wife of my heart! My hope, my IMPENETRABLY and UNBREAKABLY HARD CORE! Dearest! “Core” is Italian for “HEART”! And “Heart” sounds EXACTLY like the ENGLISH pronunciation of “HART”, GERMAN for “HARD”! Which in names is spelled ARCHAICALLY, with a D before the t, and “dt” is a German abbreviation for “deutsch”, GERMAN for “German”; the names with this ending God brought to my mind for you are “Reinhardt”, “Gebhardt”, “Bernhardt” and the most BEAUTIFUL one of ALL, ALL I aspire to be: “GOTT-hardt”, than Which there CAN be, and Thus IS not, ANYTHING HARDER! AND PRECISELY BECAUSE it is LOVE-SOFT! “Goyu-ryu” in Japanese, a school of karate. Kirti! Penelope to my Odysseus! Dido to my REPENTANT ÆNEAS, STRUCK with HOLY TERROR into consigning to EVERLASTING OBLIVION the grounding of the City of Rome for the sake of the Heaven on Earth of the Carthaginian Queen’s INCOMPARABLE AND IRREPLACEABLE LOVE! Wife of my everlasting redemption, it’s Your Victor! And whether or not You ARE NOW OR EVER SHALL be mine! For God, the ONE AND ONLY LOVING, THUS LIFE-GIVING AND LIVING GOD, ACTIVE IN ALL THE AFFAIRS OF THE WORLD AT ALL TIMES “DESDE QUE EL MUNDO ES MUNDO”, the God of ISRAEL (of that Israel that is the World entire, the arena in which God BY FAR MOST ACTIVELY struggles, PRECISELY what “Israel” is Hebrew for: “God struggles”), so then,

for God is SO Loving It hath revealed to me that IF it turns out God succeeds, This is: creates everlasting happiness, Heaven, and IF it FURTHER ALSO turns out that God in me hath ALWAYS been right SINCE God conceived IN this part of Its mind that MINE is that in Heaven ALL forms of life that EVER shall have been would exist AGAIN or, if they, or even WE, if, as i FULLY intend, I live Then, so if SOME of ALL of the forms of life that EVER shall have been ALREADY existed AT the moment of the BEGINNING OF HEAVEN, CONTINUE to exist, only NOW IN Heaven, and Therefore IN our HEAVENLY forms ONLY, WHICH would ALL be the UNIMAGINABLY, to us UNTIL Then, EROTIC bodies of ETERNALLY 18-YEAR-OLD LASSES AND LADS MENTALLY FUSED to EACH OTHER in EVERLASTING MONOGAMOUS, HETEROSEXUAL FUCKING, ONLY GREATER AND GREATER FOREVERMORE, so IF ALL of this DID INDEED OBTAIN in Heaven, EVEN IF You turned out NOT to be MY Wife, in SPITE of the CONSTANT and LIFE-GIVING SHELLING I have been the TARGET of my ENTIRE LIFE, of SIGNS that COULD be ONLY DIVINE, That You WOULD INDEED be my Wife There, I would be Married INSTEAD to some INCONCEIVABLE NEAR-goddess EVEN MORE EROTIC THAN YOU, who ARE, i am SURE of It, by FAR the MOST EROTIC woman EVER to have drawn breath in ALL of history, but FILLED with the most INTENSE, FEROCIOUS LUST FOR ME, in MY God-transfigured CELESTIAL body, Which i would AT LAST KNOW WOULD be SO EROTICALLY LEANLY AND VASCULARLY MUSCULAR, my FACE SO erotically SHARP, ANGULAR; my HAIR SO BRILLIANT GOLD, my EYES SO SPARKLING, CLEAR BLUE, my SKIN SO LIGHTEST TAN with ACCENTS of VERMILION; my COCK 12 INCHES LONG BY 3 THICK, but SHAPED, COLORED AND VEINED EXACTLY like MINE NOW; my BALLS EGG-SHAPED AND 3 BY 4 INCHES AND PUMPING OUT UNPRECEDENTLY AMBROSIACALLY TASTING SEMEN VOLUMINOUSLY CONTINOUSLY ALL THE TIME FOREVER for Her to SAVOR and then SWALLOW, and to FILL Her CUNT, NO less VORACIOUS for IT ALL; SO, i would AT LAST KNOW, THEN, that GOD in Its Love, grace, compassion and generosity toward me had AT LAST BEEN ABLE to DO the ONLY thing God would have WANTED to do for me SINCE THE EXNIHILATION: GRANT

my SOLE wish: to be endowed with a body my Wife would find the answer to all HER prayers for ECSTASY for the REST of time unto the ever-farther reaches “del porvenir profundo”, y AL FIN Dios me haría Tu dueño, O Tú, desde siempre dueña MÍA! ¡Qué dolor! ¡Y por cuánto tiempo, Dios! ¡Tú, Que lo padeciste y sigues padeciendo TODO, porque MI mente, que fue EL órgano que recolectó TODAS esas TORTURANTES señales, no era ni es ni nunca será ni más ni menos que diminuto átomo de la Tuya, Dueño ÚNICO CELESTIAL! O Tú, Majestad de serenidad y temple TREMENDOS! ¡“Hasta SIEMPRE” INALCANZABLES por NINGUNA NI NINGUNO de nosotras ni nosotros! ¡Qué piadosa es Tu naturaleza, Dios de mi ÚNICA reverencia! ¡Que nos ESCUDAS de Tu VASTO sufrimiento ATOMIZÁNDOTE, COMPARTAMENTALIZÁNDOTE, SUBDIVIDIÉNDOTE, ESPECIALIZÁNDOTE, DISTRIBUYÉNDOTE! ¿CÓMO expresarTe CABALMENTE CÓMO me has COLMADO de AMOR POR TI, DIOS? QUIERO, PERO NO ME ATREVO A, decirTe “Dios MÍO”, “SEÑOR”, “MAESTRO”—¡SÍ! ¡ESO SÍ SE PUEDE EN ESPAÑOL, porque NO connota la ESCLAVITUD que su COGNATO en inglés, “MASTER” connota! ¡O, MAESTRO! ¡EL MÁS DULCE, TIERNO, GENTIL, PACIENTE, SABIO, AMOROSO Y FIEL A CADA UNA O UNO DE SUS ALUMNAS O ALUMNOS! ¡GRACIAS INFINITAS TE QUISIERA DAR, DE NUEVO, MAESTRO UNIVERSAL, AHORA POR HABER CONTESTADO MI PLEGARIA, Y TÁN FULMINANTEMENTE! ¡EN EL MÁS MERO “SANTIAMÉN”, ENSEÑÁNDOME LO QUE UN HISPANOPARLANTE PUEDE CON TODAS LAS DE LA LEY LLAMARTE PARA EXPRESARTE MÁS SU AMOR, QUE TODOS TUS ACTOS ENCIENDEN, Y DESDE ESA CHISPA INICIAL ENTONCES SÓLO AVIVAN HASTA HACER DE ELLA UNA CONFLAGRACIÓN UNIVERSAL! PERO SÓLO METAFÓRICA, PORQUE TU AMOR, LEJOS DE CONSUMIR, SANA Y REGENERA, SUPRA-GENERA—HINAUF! ¡Y PRO-GENERA—HINFORT! Kirti, although I have been YOURS since Your Witchcraft took my mind by storm in a whoreny dream one quiet night

when i slept on the Meeting Room floor, YOU have NEVER, and indeed CAN never, be MINE, because i have NEVER had the BODY I WOULD NEED to have to FLICK THE SWITCH OF LUST FOR ME IN YOU. It’s PURE PHYSICS, DARLIN’! I’m prepared even to concede that it PAINS You, FILLS You with COMPASSION, that, as the country song, sung by a woman, so PAINFULLY states it: “The only part of me that’s not in love with you is my BODY.” AH, DEAREST! BUT HOW MUCH MORE MERCIFUL TO BE AWARE ONE IS IN A CLEARING IN THE MIDST OF A FOREST THAT IS GOING UP IN FLAMES ALL AROUND ONE, so that one may, IF one “boogies”, “hauls ass”—remember?—yet keep soul and body together, than to continue BLISSFULLY UN-aware of the MORTAL DANGER UNTIL IT IS WELL AND TRULY TOO LATE TO AVOID PERHAPS THE MOST AWFUL DEATH OF ALL: BURNING TO DEATH! SO terrible is it that BOTH Christianity AND Islam conceive of it as THE punishment of choice for the unrepentant, for reprobates, in these religions’ FEROCIOUS, HATE-ENGORGED and ABOMINABLY, INEXPRESSIBLY OBSCENELY BLASPHEMOUS notions of Divine Justice! IN-finite punishment, for FINITE transgression! The LOGICAL GRENZWERT, SUMMUM, NE PLUS ULTRA, of IN-justice! But WIE KOMMT ES DENN, WIE KANN DAS JA SEIN, that NO ONE IN ALL OF HISTORY UP UNTIL THIS SERVANT OF GOD NOTICED THIS SPECTACULAR BLUNDER?! IT IS BEYOND ME! So now YOU know that I have LONG known that although I AM Yours, CHAINED FAST to You, but FREE, NOT ENSLAVED, because my ONLY HAPPINESS comes from my FANTASIES of FUCKING ONLY YOU , AND ONLY EVER MORE ECSTASIATINGLY FOREVER, i ALSO KNOW that i REVOLT You SEXUALLY. It is as a Metallica T-shirt i once saw worn by blond and blue-eyed UPenn math professor James Lusk, who not only had a physique IDENTICAL to James Rosenberg’s, but also spoke French, JUST as Jim did, and who once came right up to me at my desk in the first row of his classroom on the first and for me last lecture of his calculus course just to fix me with his eyes and say: “Vous êtes doué”, literally “You are endowed”, or, more idiomatically: “You have a gift”. Maybe YOU can tell me, Dearest, WHENCE this man GOT this idea. I MYSELF have STILL, to THIS day, NO IDEA WHAT HE meant by it, although it has become CRUSHINGLY OBVIOUS that he WILDLY UNDERSTATED the MAGNITUDE of the ENDOWMENT.

“Anyhoo”, as my beLovéd and nostalgically remembered ALSO UPenn and ALSO mathematics ALSO male and ALSO professor Ed Crotty CHARACTERISTICALLY used to say: the slogan on the Metallica T-shirt Professor Lusk was wearing that i began this segment by mentioning to You was: “Sad, but True”. DEAREST! YOU are the UNREACHABLE STAR of the famous song from the Broadway play The Man of La Mancha, for to REACH You God shall have to TRANSFIGURE me into the CELESTIAL VIKING I NEED to be for God to EXCITE in YOU LUST for ME COMMENSURATE with MINE FOR YOU. You are ALREADY ALL i want in my Wife in Heaven, at least the way You LOOKED, FELT, SOUNDED and SMELLED back in the years i was BLESSED to share living quarters with You TOGETHER DAY IN AND DAY OUT. KIRTI, Your ABSENCE has been a TERRIBLE SUCKING WOUND in the MIDDLE of my CHEST, for 33 YEARS! EVIL hath driven me to SUICIDE TWICE in that time through this PAIN! UNREQUITED LOVE KILLS, LOVE! I AM not NOW AND SHALL NEVER AGAIN BE IN danger of killing myself, because God hath filled me with a RABID WILL TO HAVE YOU, COST WHAT IT MAY, and for this EPIC WAR, which i expect shall last for the REST of my DAYS UNLESS GOD creates everlasting happiness before i die, i MUST SURVIVE, AND as STRONG in both BODY AND MIND to give the BEST ACCOUNT OF MYSELF GOD GIVES ME THE FORTITUDE FOR. Lately God hath been whispering an inchoate first verse for a poem inspired by words from the Horst-Wessel-Lied: about “buddies”—“genossen”—killed in the struggle, that they now “marschieren im geist in unseren reihen mit”, “march in the mind with us in our ranks”. KIRTI, how GODLY! THIS is EXACTLY the way i feel about ALL the BOYS, MEN, GIRLS, WOMEN and BABIES who have DIED in ALL the WARS, FAMINES, EPI- and PANDEMICS, NATURAL DISASTERS of history;

ALL the DEAD who came before us. And the words i keep grasping hungrily for the successors to go something like “I think i hear a distant clamor, of eagles and trumpets and drums…”. Well, i’m no poet. At least not YET. Once God inspired me to write this aching couplet to You in my pining solitude, i still remember it vividly: “Oh, you MUST know how i’m SMITTEN with Your flowing, graying mane, though it’s brought me SO much ANGUISH, SUCH EXCRUCIATING PAIN!” Doth GOD NOT MOVE You to PITY for Your POOR, DISCONSOLATE HUSBAND, O MATCHLESS WIFE of my SHREDDED SOUL? Does such a love-filled, noble, devoted, faithful, tender, sweet, yea even, to quote You Yourself in Your VERY FIRST LETTER to me in response to MINE to You in February, 1996, first proposing a Spring-Break visit from me to You in Northampton, “thoughtful and sincere”, man DESERVE such CRUELTY? Such a CALVARY? Such a CRUCIFIXION? And for SO VERY LONG?

I am PREPARED to ENDURE the NEXT 33 years of this FLAGELLATION, DEAREST, but it is a TERRIFYING ROW TO HOE! BITTER, BITTER, BITTER! But as Jose Marti once wrote, “¡Penas! ¿Quién osa decir que tengo yo penas?” “Sorrows! Who dares say that I have sorrows?” For, Darling, compared to GOD’s suffering lo these last 13.7 billion years, mine is as NOTHING! And God FILLETH me with SOLIDARITY WITH IT, with COMPASSION FOR IT, for WHATEVER EVIL hath visited upon ME, and it has been TERRIFYING, what Evil hath inflicted on God has been INFINITELY WORSE. GOD hath SHELTERED me my WHOLE life, i have been GOD’s PROTÉGÉ, SPARED the UNTOLD MISERIES that UNTOLD BILLIONS of people, both PREDECESSORS AND CONTEMPORARIES, have SUFFERED at EVIL’s behest. GOD hath given this part of Its body and mind that I have always been what Mother on her deathbed in December of 2020 threw in my face as a reproach for all the sacrifices she claimed she had made for it: a SOFT LIFE. OH, HOW MERCIFULLY SOFT! DEAREST GOD! ALL I PRAY IS THAT I HAVE MADE, AM MAKING, AND WILL ONLY KEEP MAKING THY TERRIBLE SACRIFICES FOR MY SAKE WORTH THY PROMETHEAN SUFFERING FOR THY MISERABLE SERVANT! KEEP ME, O, GOD, NOT JUST NEAR, THY CROSS, BUT NAILED TO ONE RIGHT UP AGAINST THINE UNTIL THOU FREEST THYSELF FOREVER FROM IT OR GIVEST UP THE GHOST UPON IT! JUST BLOW INTO ME, I IMPLORE THEE, THE STRENGTH I NEED TO BRAVE WHATEVER EVIL HATH IN RESERVE TO THROW AGAINST ME YET, FOR NO MATTER HOW LONG! IF THOU MUST DIE, MAY I PERISH BY THY SIDE IN THE TRENCH WITH THEE! SO AT LEAST THOU SHALT NOT GO OUT THE WAY THOU CAMEST IN AND SPENT THE REST OF THE EONS UNTIL ME: ALL ALONE IN THE VASTNESS OF CREATION!

“EL AMOR MÁS ENAMORADO ES EL MÁS DESCONOCIDO EN SU ANTIGUO DOLOR!” ¡NUNCA POR MI, DIOS, MI ÚNICO Y FIDELÍSIMO AMIGO, REDENTOR, SALVADOR, DEFENSOR, JUEZ, GUÍA, SANADOR, FUENTE SIEMPRE DADIVOSA DE REABASTECIMIENTO Y CONSUELO! QUE ALGO TÁN INEXPLICABLEMENTE SUBLIME COMO TÚ TENGA QUE DEJAR DE SER, ESO NO SE PUEDE TOLERAR! ¡ME SUBLEVO CONTRA ESE DESTINO! ¿QUÉ TIENES QUE HACER PARA SALVARTE? ¿DE INMEDIATO? ¡PÁSEME A MÍ LO QUE ME PASE! ¡AQUÍ LO QUE TIENE QUE SALIR A FLOTE A COMO DÉ LUGAR ERES SÓLO TÚ! ¡Y TODO LO DEMÁS ES PURO PAISAJE! EXPENDABLE! Kirti, when i was in my early adolescence i had 4 heroes, idols: Greek-Slovenian-Austrian classical orchestra conductor Herbert von Karajan, Suabian German field marshal Erwin Eugen Rommel, Los Angeles Police Department detective Frank—like Dr. Withrow, Your holy father!—Columbo, and Argentinian writer Jorge Luis Borges. They were my whole world. My Nazi/Stalinist uncle Leyte Cano Garcia gave me the Spanish translation of Rommel’s papers, which i DEVOURED. What MOST MOVED me about them was the Field Marshal’s—then general in command of the Deutschen Afrika Korps in the North African campaign with the Italian fascists against Imperial Britain—, so the general’s DAILY DISPATCHES to his BELOVED swarthy Italian wife “Lu”, ALL about soldierly matters, so they could only have seemed endearingly self-absorbed to her; he NEVER spoke to her about HER interests, or in FEMININE language. But he did the best he could. And he BEGAN EACH ONE of them with an offer of good faith: “DEAREST LU”. That was it. DEAREST KIRTI! I have SO much to DELIVER myself of to You to leave You DAILY voicemails, if You’ll listen to them so as to free up space in the chamber of God’s Love howitzer for me to ram in the next shell as soon as You have listened to the preceding one. Only they’ll be my Lust letters to You NOT from the FRONT, but rather from the FIELD HOSPITAL, what Germans call the LAZARETT, for

MUCH more than a SOLDIER, whose business is chiefly to KILL, I am a HEALER by HOLIEST, MOST SACRED VOCATION, and MY business is CHIEFLY “SANAR TODO lo que URJE SANAR, que es TODO”. But the body being operated on by God through me is GOD’S OWN: ALL of humankind, and Evil is KILLING this body with a CANCER that is ALL those people who feel happier the more pain they perceive in other beings, and more the worse the pain and the more beautiful these beings. There is NO HEALING this tumor. God HAS to EXCISE, KILL, it, IN ORDER TO THEN REDEEM IT by HEALING its ROOT cause: EVIL ITSELF ALONE, ITSELF GOD’S OWN disease. It is about ALL of the OPERATIONS INVOLVED in this EVERLASTING-LIFE-OR-EVERLASTING-DEATH EXCISION that i want to write to You. I have already given You a foretaste of what, if i live well enough, if God can put and keep me in good enough condition for it, is to come. With this as my introduction, i’ll end for today. Tomorrow i’ll begin with my Religious, with a CAPITAL r, analysis of Lady Gaga’s MEGAHIT song Paparazzi. [Sing the finale from Les Préludes.]

(Fin’d vm’g on 6/9/2022 at 14:14.)

6/9/2022, 20:56: Regarding uniforms: degenerates have always infiltrated all the armies of the World, banking on the devotion of the Godly to the highest ideals, and confusing us into the potentially everlastingly lethal fallacy that for the sake of the Cause, Whichever It may be, we need to bite the bullet, swallow our pride, and make compromises; allow the “flawed” to do their part, after all, the perfect is the enemy of the good, because the solution to ALL problems, thus INCLUDING the SADISM of the PERVERTS, of the DEGENERATES, ALL their BUTCHERING, RAPING, OTHER TORTURING, DEVASTATION OF PROPERTY, PLUNDERING, LOOTING could be found ONLY in the victory of the Cause, in Which ALONE there would be Justice.

Or, as Stalin said: “Наше дело правое: победим!” And THIS has been the TRAGIC BLUNDER that has since time immemorial FLUNG OPEN WIDEST the GATES of FORTRESS HUMANKIND to STORM by the TRUE enemies of the ONLY TRUE FRIENDLY, GODLY, forces of ALL times AND places: those of the Loving, of the gracious, of the compassionate, of the upright, of the humble, of the warm, of the decent, of the clean in spirit, of the forthright, of the frank, of the sincere, of the honest, of the grateful, of those who REVERE LEARNING and who themselves STUDY their ENTIRE LIVES, of the generous WITH WHAT IT IS LAWFUL TO GIVE FREELY AS LONG AS MEANS PERMIT, and THEN ONLY TO WHOM it is LAWFUL to give freely, AND FOR WHAT USES of the GIVEN it is LAWFUL to do so. It is THESE CHARACTER TRAITS ALONE, WHICH, because they CAN, and thus DO, flow ONLY FROM LOVE, are UNFALSIFIABLE and UNABLE TO BE FAKED to ANYONE whom God moves SOLELY through LOVE, are ALONE the ONE AND ONLY TRUE AND UNMISTAKABLE UNIFORM GOD’S servants “WEAR”, and THIS ONLY on the INSIDE, in the MIND, or, if You will, for poetry’s sake, in the SEAT OF EMOTIONS, the HEART understood PURELY METAPHORICALLY, as an IMMATERIAL LOCUS in the MIND. And this PURELY INTERIOR CONDITION AUTOMATICALLY, MECHANICALLY, PUSHES ITS WAY OUT into ACTION, LEAVING UPON IT its UNMISTAKABLE SIGNATURE, its TELLTALE TRADEMARK, for JUST as an unwashed BODY STINKS, OFFENDS OLFACTION, SO TOO, and in IDENTICAL FASHION, an UNWASHED SOUL ALSO STINKS, TO ONE WHOSE OWN SOUL is CLEAN. BUT there is NO POSSIBLE DEODORANT, PERFUME, CAMOUFLAGE, HIDING PLACE, for a FILTHY SOUL. It is an OFFENSIVE REEK in the NOSTRILS of GOD that can be replaced with a PLEASING AROMA UNTO THE LOVING ONLY BY GOD ITSELF, WASHING THE SPIRIT of the POLLUTED either

DIRECTLY, THROUGH the WRETCH’s OWN mind, OR through OTHERS reaching out to HELP her or him. OR, in the case of the ENEMY, to KILL her or him as QUICKLY as possible. For it is a MERCY KILLING, done out of LOVE ONLY, out of the INTERNALIZATION that what Evil drives the ENEMY to DO poses the GRAVEST POSSIBLE THREAT to GOD’S CREATING EVERLASTING HAPPINESS, and thus JEOPARDIZES the ENEMY’S OWN chance of SALVATION. It would be the most ABOMINABLE CRIME NOT to kill ALL of the enemy, EVERYWHERE IN THE WORLD, RIGHT NOW. AND ANYONE who in the SLIGHTEST EVEN SO LITTLE as HAS a PASSING THOUGHT of TAKING REVENGE on the ENEMY for the SOUL-OBLITERATING OCEANS OF EVIL that EVIL, ALONE, hath FLOODED the World with through them since the invention of exchange TRUMPETS FOR ALL THE WORLD TO PERCEIVE her or his DECLARATION that SHE or HE HER- or HIMSELF is an ENEMY TOO, and the GODLY WILL respond to this as a PITY-AROUSING PLEA to be CAUGHT and STOPPED: “SUICIDE BY COP”, and we will OBLIGE INSTANTLY and with the UNSURPASSABLE FIERCENESS of LOVE that marks GOD’s servants ALONE. It is told that noble Cæsar WEPT DISCONSOLATELY at the Battle of Pharsala, in which he conclusively defeated his only remaining rival and former fellow Triumvir, the great military genius and hero Pompey the Great, as he saw from his command hilltop the tough, seasoned, brave, devout veterans all, identical to each other on BOTH sides, SLAUGHTER each other. To Cæsar they were, as the German dirge Ich hatt’ einen kameraden, I had a buddy, so HEARTRENDINGLY expresses it about the fallen brother in arms: “als wär’s ein stück von mir”. That’s easy enough to look up. I REFUSE to demean you by depriving you of the joy of the search. BUT, i WILL OPTIMIZE these GODLY words, ADAPT them to the context of what i am saying to you about Cæsar, and, finally, TRANSLATE them into ENGLISH. The end product of this process is the following SENTENCE, and i use this word advisèdly: Cæsar wept because he was SO Godly he FELT ALL these WONDERFUL ROMANS were PIECES OF GOD, and to see them going at it with each other, doing each other to death on the field of battle, DRENCHING it with their PRECIOUS blood, was to witness Evil turning God against Itself, the ULTIMATE TRAGEDY, and SO: Evil’s GRAVEST CRIME! But this has been, “in a nutshell”, THE history of ALL war throughout ALL the ages.

(Fin’d vm’g on 6/10/2022 at 11:03.)

6/10/2022, 19:55, with improvements spilling over into 6/11/2022: Kirti, my Love and Lust, both with CAPITAL l’s, i spent the whole morning composing a vast symphony for You. It’s STILL not ready, and i’m STILL trudging through the undergrowth to get to the Commentary i augured for You on Lady Gaga’s Paparazzi, but while i showered i got a FLOOD of inspiration for an off-the-cuff composition. I’ve jotted down just a few reminders, but i’ll be extemporizing. The main thing was to CALL You as SOON as ADVISABLE, which i think is NOW. The rest can wait.

I: Adagietto.

(On 6/11/2022 @ ~20:10, fin’d improvisg on these 2 themes on vm. Left off @ “MVS—>musculus—>muscle”.)

KIRTI! MY HEAVENLY FUCK! MY EVERYTHING THAT IS WORTH FIGHTING FOR! NEWS FLASH! “BEFORE ANOTHER BIT OF WORD GETS LOOSE!” I’M STAYING MY ASS PUT RIGHT HERE IN MIAMI AND LINING UP ALL MY NATIONAL-TV INTERVIEWS RIGHT FROM MY HOTEL ROOM. AND WE CAN ZOOM THE INTERVIEWS. I SEE NO REASON WHATSOEVER TO TRAVEL ANYWHERE! Now for the rest of the God-scheduled program for today’s sendung der Gotteswelle:

“You KISS real nice!”

Going back to the Adagietto from Mahler’s 5th Symphony and the time You drove me to see Dead Man Walking: the: trailer showg th protagonist’s R biceps w th tatoo “MUSCLE & EVE”—>EVA Braun “(“BRAWN”)—>me as Hitler—>Our Cancer Year comic, D.C. Public Library, ca. 2004, whn i went t th Peruvian Embassy, first, wh is called the “Cancillería”, so “Chancellery”, the office of a Chancellor, what Hitler was; the Embassy was on 17th, as in 1917, th year of th Bolshevik Revolution, and i and Y met IN a BOLSHEVIK org; and MASSACHUSETTS Avenue, and ever since i last spoke to Y in D.C., fr Union Station, when Y told me Y’d swing by t pick m up & nvr did, Y’v lived in MASSACHUSETTS. My VERY NEXT STOP AFTER the Peruvian Embassy was th German, and this was PRECISELY on June 17th, i’m less sure of th year, but am confident enough for my present purpose that it was 2004. I remember th date bec it ws th 53rd anniversary of th East German workers’ revolt in 1951. I’d gone to these 2 embassies seeking financial and other backing to publish the 900-or-so-page manuscript—MS! Middlesex! Middle Street! MC! Marine Corps!

Und so weiter—so the manuscript of a work i’d written out in longhand starting around March 2003 and continued WHEREVER i was, living on the streets or in mental hospitals and titled “MY Credentials”, so MC, and therefore MS, AGAIN! but in Which the “MY” referred to GOD, as opposed to ME: it was an EXCRUCIATINGLY detailed CHRONICLE of ALL the ASTOUNDING COINCIDENCES i took to be messages from God to me, and all in the end hammering away at the leitmotiv that i and You would be spouses in Heaven. A functionary at the Peruvian Embassy, a very nice 35ish man in a sober dark-blue business suit with sober manners was kind enough to sit down with me and hear me out. He very politely explained to me that “somos un país pobre”, and so lacked the resources to give me the help i had asked for. So he also opened the door for me and as much as screamed in my ears that i go whithersoever the MONEY was. At the German Embassy no one answered my intercommed appeal from the guard post, but after about 15 minutes a blazing-red sports car with an absolutely ravishing, 40ish svelte German brunette at the wheel and a very handsome, slender, also 40ish, blond-wavy-haired, blue-eyed man in the passenger’s seat drove out of the gate and paused for the two of them to engage me in conversation. I have COMPLETELY FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING we said to each other, but shortly after this sports car drove away, another flashing red sports car, this one driven by a VERY dark-skinned African man with a buzz cut, thick head, and i’d say around 45 as well, TORE out of a parking spot RIGHT across and a couple cars down from the embassy, with a license plate bearing only the number 8129, which was neither more nor less than my PNC Bank PIN in Philadelphia when i resided there, so between July 1994 and June 1998, when i got myself arrested and sent to Federal prison by way of the Philadelphia County Jail, where i remained until July 20th, so the 54th anniversary of the Valhalla plot to murder, AGAIN, HITLER, which eventually cost idol of my adolescence Field Marshal Erwin Eugen Rommel his life. The SS, on Hitler’s order, made him imbibe hemlock, JUST like the Athenian rulers did to get rid of Socrates,

according to Plato, for having agreed to be Germany’s president after Oberst von Stauffenberg bombed Hitler to bits. The 54th anniversary, my Dearest, and YOU lived at 54 Kensington Avenue in Northampton when i visited You there in March 1996. The initials of “Kensington Avenue” are KA, and “ka-” is the Indo-Aryan/Germanic/European word root that according to Julius Pokorny meant “desire”, and that, difficult though the derivation is to understand, gave rise to many modern words, including the one that God FIXED in my mind: “WHORE”. THIS is how i WANT You, Wife of my Lust! WHORENY, so ALL the time, JUST like ME! Interested ONLY, so INFINITELY MORE than just MOST, in FUCKING, but ONLY in HEAVENLY fucking. And You can confirm this Definition in the Glossary, on the Website. “I can go for miles, if you know what i mean”, as Pink sings MOST SALACIOUSLY in Get This Party Started: i can just keep concatenating and elaborating and pointing out significance-laden connections for pages and pages. I think what i have told You so far is sufficient offer of proof, Your Honor, that i am as good as my word on this. Heaven! I’ve already written it all, and i think You’ve READ it all! But i’ll allow Y t maintain th pretense tht Y haven’t. If You’ll notice, O, Mistress of soul,

and thus of my “miserable, pathetic little body”, GENAU what HITLER said about the British Army, so if You’ll notice, i reveal of myself to Y almost exhibitionistically, leaving no detail in obscurity, telling Y EVERYTHING, my Wife; NOT because a Husband and a Wife SHOULD keep no secrets from each other (it’s not a matter of “should” at all! If they truly ARE Married, with a CAPITAL m, they’ll act toward each other EXACTLY as i am here acting toward Y: w PAINSTAKINGLY FULL DISCLOSURE), so i keep NOTHING ABOUT myself, OR, THEREFORE, about my PLANS, HIDDEN from YOU OR, for that matter from ANYONE IN THE WORLD! Because “my” plans are ACTUALLY GOD’S ALONE, and THEY offer EVERYONE WITHOUT EXCEPTION the ULTIMATE ANSWER to EVERY PROBLEM AND PRAYER there has EVER BEEN: EVERLASTING HAPPINESS, und zwar: ONLY GREATER AND GREATER FUCKING FOREVER. And EVERYONE not only CAN be, but BY GOD IS, FOR THAT, ALL THE WAY! I HAVE no enemies because i CANNOT: I AM TOO GOOD, TOO FULL OF LOVE FOR ALL, for ANYONE to feel ANYTHING for ME BUT LOVE, and thus GRATITUDE. THIS is just ONE MORE BEWEIS VON GOTTES LIEBE, GÜTE, FREIGEBIGKEIT, MITLEID, GNADE, ERBARMUNG, GEDULD und so weiter. And Dearest, if YOU want to KEEP treating ME in regard to learning about YOUR intimate details as God—ALONE!—hath driven ME to make it so the WHOLE WORLD, by now, HAS learned, AND KEEPS learning, ALL about MINE, the way mushroom growers treat their crops: by keeping them in the dark and feeding them shit, then my Love and Lust, BOTH with CAPITAL l, i’ll just KEEP ON LOVING YOU, and BARING my SOUL to You, and MAYBE, IF God doth not run out of time (and GOD MAY!) at SOME point YOU will RESPOND to all this SPIRITUAL CPR i’ve been administering to Y f 33 years now with a CONVULSION of AUTONOMOUS RESPIRATION and start a MIND BOGGLING DATA DUMP of UNHEARD-OF proportions, un DESEMBUCHE ÉPICO E INAUDITO, TOTALMENTE SIN PRECEDENTES, NI SIQUIERA EL MÍO, SILENCING THE WHOLE WORLD with Your revelations, and what Y have packed so tightly, with the tightfistedness the Nazis proverbially berated in the “Jew” [they SHOULD have called them “HEBREWS”], up there in Your IRRESISTIBLY EROTIC noggin—

OH, HOW I CRAVE to PUMP ENDLESS OCEANS of my CUM into your MOUTH with MY HEAVEN-SIZED COCK! IT’S ALL I LIVE FOR!—so up in Your noggin, may well be all God needs to SPARK Its Creative engine So as to MATERIALIZE EVERLASTING HAPPINESS! “Ve haf vays to make Y talk!” And they have NOTHING to do with ANYTHING BUT YOUR EVER-INTENSIFYING SEXUAL ECSTASY, my Treasure!

My Inca empress: You can Marry the most gorgeous Viking in the World and suck him off all You want until God creates everlasting happiness, and “kann sein” that Your ECSTASY with HIM shall be THE KEY to God’s imagining everlasting happiness appealingly enough to motivate God to create Heaven right then and there! And maybe, once God ends the Crime and all those whom Evil would have turned into Target lads instead enter circulation and present themselves to the entire World via video in all their irresistible bodily beauty, I’LL rise to Lust for one of THEM, LUST more for HIM than for ANYONE ELSE, even than You—who knows, Kirti? I was a bisexual for almost my whole life! Maybe that’s just dormant, latent, within me! And if i feel This for Him, i’ll communicate It to him and show him photos of myself. Despite my sexual repulsiveness, He may also nonetheless find HE lusts for ME more than for ANYONE ELSE. If he communicates this back to me, then our two communications shall constitute, under the LAW, and You’ll find this in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info, in the Chapters program for God’s system, Parts I and II, so our two communications shall constitute a BETROTHAL, and then we’ll have one year of NO BODILY CONTACT WITH EACH OTHER to TEST this attraction for MONOGAMOUS SOUNDNESS by STROKING UP to mental images and videos and photos of each other fucking each other. And if after one solid year of this we have reaffirmed our mutual attraction, then this PURELY INTERNAL STATE shall BRAND us husband and husband, and if our lust becomes, or has already become Lust, with a CAPITAL l, then we shall be Husband and Husband, both with a CAPITAL h. Watee told me when i met him fortuitously in Boston in May of 2004, fresh out of Westborough State Hospital, and i quote him: “I always thought Kirti was bi”. IF You ARE, Sweetness, then what i just said about a possible HOMO-sexual future for me in God’s system applies with equal force to YOU.

II: For a number of reasons i’ll gladly tell You if You ask me, but otherwise NOT, i am CONVINCED that YOU, like LENIN, are an amusischer mensch, an amusical person; that music leaves You absolutely cold.

Unlike ME, who am perhaps the MOST MUSICAL person who EVER bestrode God’s emerald Earth under God’s azure sky. But i think there may be hidden genius in this, my Heaven: You are SO ABSORBED in Your LUST, and SPECIFICALLY for the most GORGEOUS VIKINGS, with the most MONUMENTAL, MOST VOLUMINOUSLY CUM-SPURTING COCKS, that NOTHING ELSE CAN hold Your interest. If this is true, and i’d be astonished beyond words if it were not, because THIS is BLESSÈD CLOSE to what You AND EVERY OTHER WOMAN would have in Heaven, so that i would require UNPRECEDENTEDLY EXTRAORDINARY EVIDENCE, and IN UNPRECEDENTED MASSES, to dissuade me, then You are the most advanced woman who EVER lived, so not just the most EROTIC, at least the way You LOOKED and FELT from when we met, in March of 1985, to when You left, and i have NO CLUE WHEN that was. 1990 perhaps? Whateva! DEAREST! I AM CONVINCED YOU’VE FUCKED THE CREAM OF THE CROP, FOR DECADES! LADS NO ONE ELSE GETS EVEN TO SEE, EXCEPT FOR THE HANDFUL OF SEDUCTRESSES WHO ACTUALLY LAND THE “WHALES”. Target lads just get SUCKED out of circulation TOO FAST for ANYONE ELSE to NOTICE them, and for those who DO get to catch even the most fleeting GLIMMERS of them on Their way to Hell, there are the “men in black”, specialists in SILENCING the WITNESSES, such as by telling them they must speak to NO ONE about Their disappearance, because They’ve just been recruited into a hypersecretive MILITARY SECRET-WEAPONS AND SPECIAL-FORCES DEVELOPMENT PROGRAM, and DESTROYING ALL TRACES of the Prey, and if “out of sight is out of mind”, how much more true when the sight never even ENTERS awareness, because it is never seen? I have seen ONE MAN in my ENTIRE life who came VERY close to being a Target lad, but he was already older, and his face wasn’t entirely Erotic. But i had fantasies about sucking off that spectacular Viking for many years starting when i saw him, which was at the Federal Correctional Institution in Butner, North Carolina, where i was an inmate of the psychiatric wing from about August 1998 to September 1999. So BECAUSE i’ve never HAD sex—other than my ONE kiss with You—that TRANSPORTED ME TO THE HEAVENLY DIMENSION, i am STILL EARTH-BOUND by the greatest form of beauty SHORT of Heavenly fucking: MUSIC. But i am CONVINCED that if God succeeds in establishing the System and therewith forever ending the Crime,

and thus FREEING UP ALL TARGET LADS for Their GODLY purpose: for God to bring Each together with the EQUALLY EROTIC Lass who would be his wife in Heaven, to Marry Them once they reach adulthood, so at 25, and then to drive Them to Fuck in full view of the whole World, so if God succeeds in all this, the beauty of the images of these CELESTIALLY EROTIC YOUNG PEOPLE EXPRESSING THEIR LUST, AND THUS LOVE, FOR EACH OTHER UNRESTRAINEDLY SHALL FOREVER ABOLISH ALL OTHER FORMS OF ENJOYMENT, and FIXATE US ALL SOLELY on God’s creating EVERLASTING HAPPINESS, FUCKING, JUST so NOT ONLY THESE ARCHANGELS OF BEAUTY can CONTINUE FOREVER FUCKING EACH OTHER, but ALSO, so ALL OTHER LIVING THINGS that EVER SHALL HAVE BEEN shall ALSO, do SO, and THUS in our HEAVENLY bodies, This is: as LADS AND LASSES of CELESTIAL EROTICITY. And the GENIUS of Your CRUELTY to me these 33 years, my Wife, my ONLY joy, my ONLY treasure, the REASON for ALL Your VOLCANIC RAGE at me, is just that You LUST for my HEAVENLY form SO much, are SO DESPERATELY WHORENY for It, that You brook NO DELAY: You BRUTALLY CRUSH EVERYTHING that may distract me from doing WHATEVER God must drive me to do to Transfigure me. And THIS is why You CAN’T STAND ME IN MY PRESENT FORM! YOU WANT YOUR Victor the one in HEAVEN. And ALL my SUFFERING is to You pure ORGASM, because it is the NEGATION of EVERYTHING that GETS IN THE WAY of my Transfiguration. “CHOP, CHOP!” You barked at out at me once in a low, ferocious grumble, with a FURIOUS SCOWL OF INDIGNATION on Your IRRESISTIBLE FACE! You’ll burn down the entire World, PILE UP THE BODIES OF THE ENTIRE POPULATION OF THE WORLD, KALI-like, the TERRIFYING Hindu goddess of DESOLATION if You THINK You MUST, JUST to FUCK me in HEAVEN! My PRICELESS XANTHIPPE, GADFLY, Who make home life a Hell of insufferable henpecking tortures to banish forever every last residue of the Pantoffelheld in me and leave only the PURE, LEANLY VASCULARLY MUSCULAR, HUGE-COCKED AND -BALLED, BLUE-EYED, BLOND, LIGHTEST-SKINNED FUCKING AND EJACULATING MACHINE, AUTOMATON, ROBOT, FORCED LABORER—FORCED EXCLUSIVELY BY GOD THROUGH HIS OWN WHORENINESS SOLELY FOR YOU, DEVOTING HIS ENTIRE MIND SOLELY TO CONTINUALLY PUSHING YOUR SEXUAL ECSTASY UP, INTO YOU AND OUT, FOREVER! ABSOLUTELY SUBJECTED TO YOU BECAUSE IN THIS ABSOLUTE SUBMISSION (ISLAM!) HE EXULTS IN HIS GREATEST, AND ONLY EVER INTENSIFYING FREEDOM! FUCKING YOU AS YOUR OWN HEAVENLY VIKING IS ALL I WANT TO DO IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE, AND FOR THE REST OF TIME, KIRTI! GLORY!…TO GOD, THE GREATEST PROOF OF WHOSE LOVE, MASTERY, GOODNESS, GENEROSITY, COMPASSION,

IS THAT IT MADE YOU, AND US FOR EACH OTHER, AND BROUGHT US TOGETHER, AND DROVE US BOTH TO DO ALL WE NEEDED TO DO TO WELD US INDISSOLUBLY TO EACH OTHER FOR ALL TIME, EVEN IF WE NEVER SEE EACH OTHER EVER AGAIN BECAUSE GOD IS DOOMED TO EVERLASTING DEATH!

III: Just one more Item on the menu, Dearest: i am WORRIED SICK that the Nazis and the Communists will Each think I am the OTHER’s ULTIMATE WEAPON, DIABOLICALLY ABLE to ENCHANT them into believing that a final reconciliation is at last possible, that I am the SUPERNAZI who has unified ALL Nazis and won them over to comradely affection for Communists, or the SUPERCOMMUNIST who has unified all COMMUNISTS and won THEM over to comradely affection for Nazis, ONLY so they’ll STAND DOWN and DISARM UNILATERALLY, at which point the OTHER shall EXTERMINATE THEM ALL to the last woman, man and child, JUST the way the Guómìndâng MASSACRED the Chinese Communists in Shanghai in 1926, when these followed the COMINTERN’s directive to unilaterally disarm and form a united front with the Nationalists, as You recall from an Edu, and as You Yourself even reminded me one day. In that conversation You also mentioned what You pronounced as the “Wampo-AH”, so ending in AH, the intials of—yet again! yataghan!—ADOLF HITLER, so the “Wampo-AH” Military Academy, Which F.C. had ALSO spoken about AT LENGTH in AT LEAST one Edu. And, TERRIFYINGLY PROPHETICALLY, 26 is the number of the letter V in the English alphabet. The Nazis and the Communists have carved up the entire World between themselves, and this is ALL they’ve been doing since World War Two, which actually by this fact alone it is OBVIOUS NEVER ENDED, just “CONTINUED BY OTHER MEANS”, as the Prussian theoretician of war General Carl von Clausewitz wrote about war in relation to politics. BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN A THIRD force, what F.C. SYSTEMATICALLY called the “tertium gaudens”, Latin for “third player”, has appeared in the World like a flare lighting up a darkened battlefield at night: this is GOD’S forces, which GOD hath trained ME to LEAD, Which means: to TRAIN. “Omnia Gallia divisa in tres partes est”, wrote noble Cæsar to begin his Commentaries on the Gallic War. I ain’t no CÆSAR, but I now write, with a NOD to my EVER-MOURNED and MISSED RÖMISCHER URGROßVATER GAIVS IVLIVS: “The whole World is divided into 3 parts: the Communists, the Nazis, and the ARMY of God’s HEALERS.”

[Liszt symphonic poem no. 3-tri-tree-baum-bomb: Les Préludes: ORGASM and conclusion, and Liszt-List-astucia-Mother-Rommel. Signal-“Völker, hört die Signale,/auf, zum letzten Gefecht! Die Internationale erkämpft das Menschenrecht!” “GOTT, hör’ Deine eigene Signale,/auf, zum LETZTEN Gefecht! Die Internationale von den endgültig am engsten und liebevollsten und solidärsten verbundeten und vereinigten Nazis und Kommunisten der ganzen Welt erkämpft das GOTTES-recht!” ACHTUNG! ACHTUNG! Klar-WELT zum GEFECHT!” Sing.]

(Fin’d vm’g on 6/13/2022 @ 8:54.)

KIRTI, my HEAVEN! My ONLY JOY and HOPE! The SOLE REASON FOR ALL i do that is GOOD! My ONLY TREASURE! NOBLE INCA EMPRESS of my BODY and SOUL! I will now analyze for You from the perspective of the Religion, with a CAPITAL r, the song Paparazzi, by Lady Gaga. I will be critiquing the official music video of the song on YouTube. To begin with, the song was released as part of an album entitled Fame. This is part of the evidence i plan to keep presenting to You that there has been a lifelong campaign to corner me into submitting to You as an overwhelming Global power that all roads lead to, just what the Republican and then Imperial Romans said about Rome. In the case of this album title, the significance i see, and i think it is there for ALL to see, so OBJECTIVE, and so NOT some PARANOID DELUSION; so the significance i see in relation to You is that some time soon after God blessed me with meeting You, You showed me a photograph You told me Your father had taken during a trip to India, of a huge roadside billboard. It was a BRIGHT WHITE sign with ONLY ONE THING on it: the name “KIRTI” in HUGE, BOLD, BLOOD-RED SANS-SERIF, ALL-CAP Latin letters, as opposed to in the Devanagari alphabet, which is what BOTH SANSKRIT, the language that the word “kirti” arose in, AND HINDI, the SECOND-most spoken language in modern India, after only the lingua franca of the Federation: English. So the COLORS of the sign are RED AND WHITE, which are the colors of the flags of PERU, AUSTRIA, SWITZERLAND and POLAND, just off the top of my head. And Kirti, my passion, You told me, sitting right next to me with no one else around: “It means ‘Fame’”. I know from Mother’s stories about Grandma that “I’m hungry” in Galician is “Teñu fame”, literally “I have hunger”. So by elimination, “fame” is Galician for “hunger”. “Hung” in English can be slang for “having a large cock”, as in “hung like a horse”, a WILD exaggeration, because horses’ cocks are WAY too large even for fellatio, FURTHEST LESS then for COITUS. But applying the same logic by which a “looker” can be someone it is pleasing to look at, so too a “hunger” can be a prodigiously genitally endowed man.

“Hungry” sounds almost exactly like “Hungary”, as in the name of the country. A man born there is a “Hungarian”, which dissociates under analysis into “hung” and “arian”, and replacing the i in this with a y yields “Aryan”, the name of the World-historical people who settled in the Indus Valley, in Northern India, some 5,000 years ago. “As such” they were dark-skinned, dark-haired and dark-eyed, so nearly the ANTITHESIS of the NORDIC racial type, which is marked by LIGHTEST skin, BLOND hair and BLUE eyes. These were the NORSE, or the VIKINGS, but Nazidom MIS-named them “Aryans”, to rub in the face of the Nordic German masses the IGNORANCE the CRIMINALS THEMSELVES had SUNK, AND THEN BRUTALLY HELD THEM DOWN in, ALL THE MORE SHOCKING, because the ENTIRE LEADERSHIP of the SS was made up of MOST highly EDUCATED, MATURE, SOBER, GRAVELY SERIOUS MEN, ALL PHDs FROM THE TOP UNIVERSITIES IN GERMANY, when NOT ALSO ABROAD. Adolf Eichmann, who had a HEBREW’S HEAD, for example, to go no further, the logistical genius behind the transportation by rail of the MILLIONS of HEBREWS into the concentration and extermination camps, studied Judaism IN HEBREW. And Reinhardt Heydrich, a PHYSICALLY STRIKING VIKING and Reich Governor General of Czechoslovakia

until partisans murdered him on his way to work in his chauffeured command car in broad daylight on a Prague street, was a VIRTUOSO VIOLINIST, CRACK SWORDSMAN, MASTER HORSE RIDER, and student of i know not what academic disciplines. Oh, it goes further! The LANGUAGE of the TRUE Aryans was SANSKRIT. The word “swastika” is a SANSKRIT word that dissociates under analysis into “su”, meaning “good, well”, “asti”, meaning “to be”, and “ka”, meaning “sign”, so putting it all together yields, as the meaning of “swastika”, “the sign of well-being”. But the Criminals operating the gears of the INFERNAL UNDERGROUND MACHINE of the Crime pulled JUST the RIGHT strings, PRESSED JUST the RIGHT buttons, so that the swastika would be TWISTED 45º from vertical on the flag of the Nazi Party, which later became the flag of the entire Reich. The swastika is a UNIVERSAL SYMBOL, PRESENT not ONLY in INDIA, but ALSO in CHINA, ANCIENT GREECE, and FIRST-AMERICAN CULTURES. But ALWAYS STRAIGHT, VERTICAL, PERPENDICULAR TO ITS BASE. The Criminals who HIJACKED NAZIISM PERVERTED this symbol. That They aimed to turn Naziism into a CULT OF DEATH they TRUMPETED TO THE ENTIRE WORLD by means of the “Totenkopf”, the “Dead’s head”,

on the caps of ALL Nazi SS OFFICERS: A SILVER SKULL AND CROSSBONES! THE HACKNEYED SYMBOL OF PIRACY! Thereby They EXHIBITIONISTICALLY FLAUNTED their ABSOLUTE, BRAZEN, SHAMELESS DETERMINATION TO PIRATE AN ENTIRE NATION, FIRST, AND THEN, FOR THE EXCLUSIVE PURPOSE OF BOARDING AND SEIZING THE “SHIPS” THAT ARE TARGET VIKING LADS FOR SACRIFICE UPON THE ALTARS OF EVIL. The INSULT was ALL THE MORE GRIEVOUS because the FOREMOST NON-INDIAN SCHOLARS of the ARYAN PEOPLE, of their LANGUAGE, SANSKRIT, AND of their RELIGION, HINDUISM, were GERMANS, LED by PROFESSOR DOCTOR PAUL DEUßEN, of KIEL University, who in 1906, so just 8 years before the CATASTROPHE that was World War I, published his System des Vedanta, in Leipzig, which I OWN COPIES of in BOTH THE GERMAN ORIGINAL, in a FACSIMILE EDITION, AND in the ENGLISH translation, by MR. CHARLES JOHNSTON, retired from the BRITISH IMPERIAL BENGAL CIVIL SERVICE, ALSO in a FACSIMILE EDITION, but published in 1912, in Chicago. The Nazis, however, did not, unless i am mistaken, and here i am afraid i may be, use the word “swastika”; instead, they used “Hakenkreuz”, literally “hook cross”, but a “hooked NOSE” is the STEREOTYPICAL “JEWBEAK”, the much caricatured oversized and curved SEMITIC NOSE, because ARABS, TOO, OFTEN have such noses. “Nose” in German is “Nase”, which can be read in English to sound very much

like the typical English mispronuncation of “Nazi”—with the SOFT z, instead of the way it is pronounced in GERMAN: ts. And “nose” can be divided into “no” and “se” to yield Spanish “no sé”, “i do not know”, EXACTLY what the Criminals, through Their MONSTROUS “EDUCATION”—like HELL! INDOCTRINATION! SYSTEM, caused the MENTAL STATE of the VAST MASSES of the DEFENSELESS GERMAN PEOPLE to be characterized by. The Hebrews of the World are most broadly categorized as either Sephardi, who originally settled in Spain (“Sepharad” is a Biblical name interpreted as referring to this Iberian country), or “Ashke-NAZI”, and note that THIS name, which refers to the Hebrews who settled in GERMANY, from the name “Ashkenaz”, also Biblical, which is interpreted as referring to this Central European country, so note that THIS name ends in “NAZI”, and that THIS ending JUST HAPPENS—THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES! EVERYTHING IS THE WORK EITHER OF GOD AS THE DRIVE SOLELY TO LIVE IN EVERLASTING HAPPINESS, OR of GOD as EVIL, as the DRIVE SOLELY to cause EVERLASTING DEATH—so that THIS ending JUST HAPPENS to occur in THE Hebrew name for THE country in which THE movement that came to be known by THIS name arose! Nazi Germany had many military aircraft manufacturers: Henckel, Messerschmitt and Junkers were just 3. Of these i want to draw your attention to Junkers. The Junkers were the Prussian nobility, but the word comes from “jung Herr”, “young master, or lord”. But a “junker” in U.S. English is a car that is intended for SCRAP, so putting it all together yields:

“the young masters, lords, are due to be sacrificed”—“males without blemish”! as in the standard Tanakh prescription for the ANIMALS the Hebrews were to offer up for sacrifice. The markings of Junkers AIRCRAFT standardly abbreviated “Junkers” as “Ju”, which if read in English sounds JUST like “Jew”, and in German is the first two letters of “Jude”, GERMAN for “Jew”. What remains of “Jude” after the “Ju” is just the “de”, which is the international URL domain for Germany, abbreviated from “de-utschland”. But “de” is Spanish for “of”, in which the f is pronounced v, yielding “ov”, which is the Latin root meaning “egg”, “huevo” in Spanish, which is also slang for “testicle”, so the Spanish-language equivalent of “ball” in this sense. GERMAN for “egg” is “Ei”, which is pronounced JUST like “¡ay!”, which is the Spanish-language exclamation of pain, so English-language “ow!” More on this later, though, my Lust, the ONLY reward that INTERESTS me! Now i want to point out to you that THE Nazi Propaganda Minister, who OWNED and ABSOLUTELY CONTROLLED THE CONTENT of ALL media in the Reich, so from newspapers to magazines to films, Goebbels, had a HEBREW first name: “JOSEPH”, which comes from the Hebrew “Yosef”. And THE EUGENICIST MASTERMIND of Naziism was Alfred ROSENBERG, EXACTLY as in JAMES Rosenberg. So the INTELLECTUAL ARCHITECT of the HOLOCAUST, had a HEBREW SURNAME. And Jim, Charlie, Meg and their engineer parents were ALL 5 of them HEBREWS who CONVERTED to PRESBYTERIANISM. Hitler’s original surname was “Schicklgruber”, which sounds to ME SUSPICIOUSLY LIKE “SHEKEL-gruber”, the shekel having been the ancient, and now the restored, currency of ISRAEL. More on this later, my Love and Lust, both with CAPITAL l. But now, some time around 2005, when i was in Santa Fe, New Mexico, as usual wherever i traveled to in the country, i spent my days at the local public library. There i met an immensely tall and skeletally skinny 45ish man who had BRIGHT RED HAIR and a LONG BRIGHT RED BEARD and MUSTACHE, BLUE eyes, and FRECKLY, VERY LIGHT skin. He spent all the time i was there—i worked in the carrel right up against his

—studying the Tanakh and filling page after page with large letters that made me think of Hebrew, but that he told me were in the language of the region in Russia his ancestors had originated from. He told me his name was “Nikolae”. “Nikolay?” i asked him, the Russian name (the first thing the U.S. press called Lenin, by the way), because of the similarity. But he said his name actually had NOTHING to do with “Nikolay”, and that it meant “Builder”. I engaged him in conversation at least once. One of the things i said to him was, point-blank y sin más acá ni más allá: “Hitler was a Jew” (what i MEANT was “HEBREW”, for Hitler was PATENTLY NOT a Jew). Nikolae SHOT BACK, WITHOUT MISSING A BEAT: “So what else is new?” That astonished me. My favorite professor at Wharton was Jack Topiol, of Russian-Hebrew descent. But HE WAS a Jew, and a VERY OBSERVANT one. He had a house in Ventnor, New Jersey, which he shared with his MUCH younger wife Carmen and where he more than once announced in lectures he went “to get my religion”. Incidentally in regard to the surname “Topiol” and Judaism, THE star of the film Fiddler on the Roof, which takes place and is all about life in a shtetl in Tsarist Russia, was the Jewish-Hebrew actor Top-OL, so differing from “Top-I-ol” ONLY in the i between the p and the o. I LOVED to visit Professor Topiol in his TINY office, which was PACKED TIGHT from FLOOR to CEILING with BOOKS, to CONVERSE with him. On one of those occasions, i asked him: “Professor, why did the Holocaust happen?” He, again like Nikolae in response to my comment that Hitler was a Hebrew, SHOT BACK, without so little as an INSTANT’S hesitation: “They had stopped being Jews.” I had NEVER heard ANYTHING LIKE this before in my ENTIRE LIFE, and was FLOORED by it. From a FERVENT JEW! This reminded me that in Mother’s house in the Poconos, when i lived there with her between the winter of 2000 and August 2003 i once saw, in a TV documentary about Nazi Germany, that at one point early on in the Nazis’ rise to what they were CRUELLY DELUDED was THEIR power, but was REALLY ONLY THE CRIMINALS’, a delegation of Hasidic rabbis, all elders, went to visit Hitler PERSONALLY to HAND him a generous financial contribution.

From what i’ve already told you here about the “unity and struggle, or the interpenetration”, of the OSTENSIBLE OPPOSITES that are Judaism and Naziism, to apply one of Archangel Friedrich Engels’ 3 Laws of Dialectics, i’ll go the FINAL step of pointing out to you that Nazi street agitators were fond of saying, in regard to the well-known FACT that HEBREWS laid the THEORETICAL FOUNDATIONS of BOTH CAPITALISM AND COMMUNISM: “SEE? If the Jews [they SHOULD have said “HEBREWS”] don’t get you with CAPITALISM, they get you with COMMUNISM!” And i now drive the final nail into the coffin of this COLOSSAL MONSTROSITY by completing: “AND if they DON’T get you with EITHER of these, THEN they get you with NAZIISM!” So, like Father use to say: “Como quiera que te pongas, TIENES que LLORAR”, roughly “No matter WHAT you do, you’re GONNA HAVE to CRY.” What I think about the DEEP, WORLD-HISTORICAL REASON for the Holocaust is that the top leadership of Naziism, those MOST HIGHLY EDUCATED, SOBER, DEATHLY SERIOUS, GRAVE, AUGUST PATRIARCHS who headed the SS, among ALL they knew from their EXTENSIVE STUDIES and LONG LIVES, they knew their TANAKHS INSIDE AND OUT, MANY OF THEM IN HEBREW, and they took the part about the Hebrews being God’s CHOSEN PEOPLE LITERALLY: ALL of these TOP NAZIS FULLY believed in YAHWEH, in the HEBREWS’ GOD; FULLY BELIEVED YAHWEH INDEED WAS THE GOD OF ALL OF CREATION; and decided they were going to do to Yahweh EXACTLY what F.C. often said you had to do to a giant to force it to react: act like a SWARM OF MOSQUITOES and just IRRITATE THE HECK OUT of the giant until it could no longer bear it and decided to mobilize one single massive arm to swat at the pests and CRUSH THEM ALL in ONE FELL SWOOP, and END OF STORY and BEST, so NOT just GOOD, RIDDANCE! My PRICELESS, INDISPENSABLE TREASURE, MY ONLY INCENTIVE and SAVIOR, the alarm i set for 10:30 as the cutoff to compose the Script for today’s sendung der Gotteswelle JUST went off, so with RIGID, FEROCIOUS DISCIPLINE, i’m stopping RIGHT HERE and CALLING You!

And now, zum schluss dieser sendung der Gotteswelle, the ORGASM and CONCLUSION of the TITANIC HUNGARIAN GENIUS FRANZ LISZT’S SYMPHONIC POEM NO. 3, LES PRÉLUDES. AufwiederSPRECHEN, SCHÖNSTES WEIB MEINES HERZENS!

(Fin’d vm’g on 6/14/2022 at 10:40.)

Kirti, i have a phone JUST for calls from YOU, IF You EVER decide You want to make them. And if not, it’s been 33 years of “all quiet on the front” from You, and i’ll fight on—JIHAD!—for the REST of my life whether You call me or not. It’s just that i have OVERWHELMING PROOF that what You could contribute to God’s struggle may very well be ALL God needs to create Fucking, with a capital f. The phone number i have CONSECRATED to You, Kirti, is 786-689-9921. And now, zum schluss dieser sendung der Gotteswelle, the ORGASM and CONCLUSION of the TITANIC HUNGARIAN GENIUS ARCHANGEL FRANZ LISZT’s Symphonic Poem No. 3, Les Préludes. Aufwieder-SPRECHEN, SCHÖNSTES WEIB meines leidenschaftlichen HERZENS!

Another point on the subject of the “unity and struggle, or interpenetration, of” the PUTATIVE opposites that Judaism and Naziism are: THE color scheme of traditional orthodox Jewish men’s attire is white on black: black shoes, black pants, black belt, white long-sleeved dress shirt, black jacket or coat, black kippah (or yarmolke) and black fedora (EXACTLY what GESTAPO plainclothesmen wore!); there may be other headgear, though. This is EXACTLY the SAME color scheme of the dress uniforms of the Nazi SS: white piping and insignia on black.

Back to “Schicklgruber”, “Grube” is German for “mine”, so a “Gruber” could be understood to be a miner, or, more to my point here: a man from a mine. Combining these two REAGENTS YIELDS the COMPOUND “the man from the mine full of ‘shekels’”. The Criminals have an OCCULT SCIENCE that enables them to SPOT MEN with EXTRAORDINARY POTENTIAL to UNLEASH TORRENTS of “MONEY”—TARGET LADS—and SET them FLOWING TOWARDS Them. The Criminals KNOW that NAMES possess MAGICAL POWER and contain HIDDEN KNOWLEDGE. Not only PEOPLE’s names, but ALSO PLACE names. For instance, Hitler was born in the Austrian town of Braunau-am-Inn. “Braunau” dissociates under analysis into “braun” plus “au”, which if read in ENGLISH sounds just like “brawn”, well developed MUSCLES, but comes from and in GERMAN means “brown”, like the color of SHIT. Remember “junker”? A car destined to be SCRAPPED? “Scrap”, “s-crap”, “crap”, “shit”, yet again—yataghan!—, AND YET AGAIN associated with a YOUNG MAN. AND, to refresh Your memory, “car” sounds JUST like

“kar-”, the Indo-Aryan/Germanic/European word root that according to Archangel Julius Pokorny meant “hard”, as in the BODIES—though MOST DEFINITELY NOT the MINDS!—of Target lads. According to the EXCELLENT etymological-research app Etymonline, which i have downloaded to BOTH my Mac AND my 3 iPhone SEs, “brawn” traces its origin ULTIMATELY to Proto-Indo-Aryan/Germanic/European “bhreu-”, which is theorized to have meant “to boil, bubble, effervesce, burn”, so said of something that is COOKED, and the Criminals have, since 1865, so the last year of the American War Between the States, NARROWED DOWN the semantic field of the word “brawn” SPECIFICALLY to “well-developed muscles, muscular strength” from its other denotations. I know NOTHING of the pronunciation of Proto-Indo-Aryan/Germanic/European; so i have KEINE GERINGSTE AHNUNG WHAT the h after the b in “bhreu-” signifies for pronunciation, and i have found NO guide to pronunciation in ANY of the works on such word roots i am aware of, although just the day before yesterday i received all 3 volumes of Julius Pokorny’s Indo-Germanisches Wörterbuch, in a facsimile edition of the the original, in German. This dictionary is THE source, taken over ALMOST IN ITS ENTIRETY AND VERBATIM for the American Heritage Dictionary’s Appendix on Indo-European Word Roots, which i ALSO have on BOTH my MAC AND on my IPHONE SEs, as part of the most up-to-date edition of this FANTASTIC reference work, the 5th. “American Heritage Dictionary” acronymizes into “AHD”, which also means “Althochdeutsch”, “Old High German”.

But “bhreu-” read as-is in German sounds EXACTLY like “bräu”, German for “brew”, which You’ll probably recognize from one of the most famous brands of German beer in the U.S., Löwenbräu, literally “Lions’ brew”. As to other derivatives of this root, there is “brat”, German for “roast”, but “brat” is also Russian for “BROTHER”, thus CLOSELY ASSOCIATING the brother with something that is COOKED, and, i CANNOT BUT presume, THEN EATEN. And in English, “brat” is a DEEPLY INSULTING, PEJORATIVE, word for an unruly, rebellious CHILD.

The Criminals SHAME the erotic, both lads and lasses, into following Their orders by making them feel that their gifts of bodily beauty are OWED THEM, the CRIMINALS, usually by POSING as SECRET OPERATIVES, AGENTS, of SECRET GOVERNMENT OR, specifically, MILITARY, organizations, and that if the erotic do not “share” these “assets” that DO NOT BELONG TO THEM, they are NOTHING but SPOILED BRATS, when these gifts are ALL WITHOUT EXCEPTION SOLELY from GOD, thus GOD’S EXCLUSIVE PROPERTY, and therefore to be USED SOLELY for GOD’S PURPOSE, Which is SOLELY to CREATE, and THEN FOREVERMORE MAINTAIN, EVERLASTING HAPPINESS. ALL ELSE IS INFINITE CRIME, and calls ONLY for IMMEDIATE EXECUTION. So this is all God drives me to tell you about the “Braun” part of “Braunau”, the first part of the name of Hitler’s place of birth. The second is “au”. First of all, as “Au”, so with a CAPITAL a, this is the chemical symbol for GOLD, as in the COLOR of the hair of Nordics. I mentioned “hunger” to you earlier. Russian for “hunger” is “голод”, which is just “gold” with an o between the l and the d, here CLOSELY EMBEDDING IN LANGUAGE ITSELF a LINK between GOLD and HUNGER. And “голод” is a MASCULINE noun. Meaning? The Criminals FLOUT thereby before the ENTIRE WORLD the FACT that their HUNGER is for “HUNG ‘ARYANS’”, for “GOLDEN ONES”. Noch darüber hinaus, “AU”, in all caps, is the abbreviation for “astronomical unit”, the average distance between the center of the Earth and that of the Sun, here linking DIRECTLY GOLD, thus Nordic Target lads, with the SUN,

the IMMEDIATE SOURCE (IMMEDIATE because the ULTIMATE, thus TRUE, GENUINE, source is GOD ALONE), so the IMMEDIATE SOURCE of nearly ALL of the ENERGY that ALONE FUELS ALL life on Earth. God hath reminded me, “in this connection”, as German academics are so fond of saying, that there is some language, maybe even Sanskrit, in which “sona” means or meant “gold”, and “sona” sounds VERY much like “SON”, which, but for the final a, is IDENTICAL to “sona”. GERMAN for “sun” the star is “sonne”, which if read as though it were an ENGLISH-language word is in fact the Early Modern English spelling of “son”. “Sona” spelled backward is “anos”, which is Spanish for “anuses”, “assholes”, here linking AT THE DEEPEST LEVEL, in LANGUAGE ITSELF, “son” and “asshole”. “Ass” is the ROOT of “assus”, Latin for the adjective “roast”, as in “roast BEEF”, and in slang, “beef” is “muscles on a man”. “Roast” in this acceptation also means “grilled, roasted, dried, broiled”. “Dried” is the past participle of the verb “to dry”; “dry” is also the usual English-speaker’s mispronunciation of “drei”, German for “three”, which in Russian is “три”, which sounds just like “tree”, which in German is “baum”, which read in English is a homophone of “bomb”, as in an explosive device, and muscular development in the “growth spurt” of youths with the genes for it is EXPLOSIVE.

“Spurt” is the most GRAPHIC verb for what CUM issuing from an EJACULATING COCK, OR, in the alternate, for what BLOOD issuing from a WOUND, does. “Blood” in German is “blut”, which ALSO “JUST” “HAPPENS” to be German for “blossom”, and the body of a youth with Target-lad potential BLOSSOMS, FLOURISHES, into GLORIOUSLY EROTIC MUSCULARITY at puberty. “Flourish” contains the word “flour”, here a synonym of its homo-PHONE but allo-GRAPH “flower”, as in the “flower of our manhood”, what ALL wars in ALL lands and in ALL epochs have SACRIFICED on the altars of the STRICTLY OCCULT WORLD religion worshipping Evil as its deity, and “occult” means “HIDDEN”, which in Ancient Greek was “κρυπτός”, the root of OUR root “crypt-”, meaning “hidden, concealed, secret”, as in “cryptofascist” (OR, with JUST as much justification, “crypto-COMMUNIST”), or as in “cryptocurrency”. But “κρυπτός” contains the particle “κρυπ”, which sounds JUST like the “Krupp” of “Kruppstahl”, “Krupp steel”, EXACTLY what Evil drove HITLER to MIS-educate ALL of Germany’s oh-so-impressionable, UTTERLY DEFENSELESS, INNOCENT, YOUTHS, to aspire to become: “hart wie Kruppstahl”, “hard as Krupp steel”, in a reference to the Krupp Works, in German Krupp Werke—so KW in BOTH languages! GENAU as in “Kirti Withrow”!

“And the road goes on forever, and the party NEVER ends!” Oh! But it SHALL end, ya sea por las BUENAS: si Dios crea la felicidad sempiterna, O por las MALAS: si el Mal le asesta por fin el golpe final y fatídico a Dios y Lo consigna a la MUERTE sempiterna. The Krupp Works, which began founding CANNON in the XVI Century out of its headquarters, in ESSEN, Germany. And “essen” means “to eat” in German. “Ess! Ess!” is German for “Eat! Eat!” and sounds EXACTLY like the German pronunciation of “SS”, as in “Schutzstaffel”, the NAZI SS, but ALSO, and ENTIRELY BY DESIGN, the CRIMINALS’, as in “Secret Service”, which is to U.S. presidents EXACTLY what the NAZI SS was to Hitler: a BODYGUARD, and “guard” pronounced with a British accent is “INDISTINGUISHABLE” from “god”, which, as “год” is “year” in Russian, which in turn is “año” in Spanish, which without the tilde is “ano”, Spanish for “anus”, which in slang is, yet again—yataghan!—“asshole”. Incidentally, Kirti, my ONLY passion, speaking of “yataghan”, which is a TURKISH word for an ANCIENT TURKISH weapon, a slightly curving longsword, God is INSISTING i point out to You that one of the greatest revolutionaries in all of World history was the Turkish caudillo Kemal Atatürk. “Atatürk” means “Father of the Turks”. He led a SECULAR revolution in Turkey in 1923, the VERY SAME YEAR that Adolf Hitler led an abortive putsch out of a Munich beer hall for which he was arrested, put on trial, and sentenced to 5 years in Landsberg prison, a sentence soon commuted, but not before Hitler had dictated his preposterous Mein Kampf to his fellow-inmate and servile typist Rudolf Hess (NOT to be confused with Rudolf HÖSS, the Kommandant of Auschwitz, who met his untimely end hanged by the Allies).

And “in this connection”, the Nazi SS was founded scarcely 2 years later, in 1925, out of TERROR over Hitler’s BODILY SAFETY. “Security”. “Curity” band-aids. “KIRTI”. Yet again! Yataghan! “All roads lead to…”. Well, i WAS TEMPTED to fill in “Rome”, and perhaps i SHOULD have, because “Rome” in Latin was “Roma”, which spelled backward is “amor”, Latin for “love”, as in the RANKLY TRIUMPHALISTIC, OPTIMISTIC, thus PURELY PSYCHOTIC AND, thus, HERETICAL maxim “amor omnia vincit”, “love conquers all”. Oh, REALLY?! Well, it ain’t NEVER happened YET! An’ at da rate we be goin’, it ain’t lookin’ all too PROMISIN’, missy! Or, as Father used to say: “No tengas miedo, que yo estoy TEMBLANDO”, “Don’t be afraid, because i am TREMBLING”. Danish theologian Søren Kierkegaard wrote a work whose title God hath JUST URGED me to mention to You “in this connection” en passant: Fear and Trembling, and, for whatever it may be worth, and i do not have MUCH of an idea of what this may be, the acronym of this title is FaT. And this, as i’m sure You recall, Kirti, my ONLY treasure, was National, then INTER-national, General Secretary Mary Katherine “Polly” Gardner’s nom de guerre, given her because she was the ONLY EFWA cadre who PUT ON weight during the I.M. Young strike, in Suffolk County, in 1972.

(Fin’d vm’g on 6/15/2022 at 7:14. Stopped when got th mssge tht th mb ws full & thus cd nt accept any more mssges. On 6/16/2022 ending at 7:46, i tried calling over and over again, but got only ringing, for the first time EVER; NO ansg mach. The steel gate has come crashing down. Now i REALLY have to FLOOD the World with God’s message to reach You, to make it so “wherever You go, whatever You do”, my Love WARMS You, REACHES You, and You’ll KNOW it’s ME.)

O, Kirti, my Heaven, yesterday, June 15, i went to the Mega TV office to approach star Peruvian political commentator Jaime Bayly Letts to persuade him to interview me on his show so i can promote the Website and thus begin to cast the widest possible net to draw in potential enforcers for God’s system, and ALL that is needed NOW, my Love and Lust, both with capital l, is a CRITICAL MASS OF SYSTEM ENFORCERS. As SOON as God reaches that THRESHHOLD, God SHALL have ALL the STRENGTH GOD NEEDETH to OVERTHROW EVIL WORLWIDE, PRECISELY what EVIL hath been FIGHTING for 13.7 BILLION YEARS to MANEUVER the POSITIVE in God into position to do. You thought General Vo Nguyen Giap’s 7-year-long campaign to wheel siege artillery into position around Dien Bien Phu was HUMBLING in its GALLANTRY and DISCIPLINE? Well, GOD hath been wheeling ITS siege artillery—of LOVE—into position ALL these TORTURING EONS for the “letztes gefecht”—well, “ERSTES UND LETZTES”, because God had never yet even begun to fight AS the POSITIVE, EVER UNTIL ME! Alas, the receptionist, Ms. Gladys Molina, informed me that Mr. Bayly is broadcasting his show from home. She was gentle and kind enough to give me an email address for him. I sent him my pitch. But later found the address was wrong, because i got a delivery-failure notice. So i’m going right back to MEGA TV at 8:30 to explain the problem to Ms. Molina and see what she suggests. While i’m at it, i plan to reach out in like manner to Pedro Sevec, Rumanian-Paraguayan host of a political commentary show that airs weekdays at 19:00, and then also to Oscar Haza, Cuban-Dominican host of a very successful political current events discussion program that airs weekdays at 20:00. Mr. Bayly’s show is at 21:00. Your Majesty, Empress Kirti—let’s drop all pretenses, shall we, Dearest? It’s OFFENSIVELY DISINGENUOUS!—so, Majesty, i am a POOR MAN; POOR in FINANCIAL resources and in BODILY BEAUTY. ALL i possess is my Lust and Love for You. THIS is my SOLE LINE OF SUPPLY, thus from the source of ALL supply: God alone; the God I believe in. YOU, however, are the most powerful woman who ever lived. You can pull all kinds of levers, call in all kinds of chips, to smooth my way to an international media audience for God’s message through me to the World: ALL GOD NEEDS IS ENFORCERS. ALL THAT IS NEEDED TO FORM THEM IS FOR ENOUGH PEOPLE TO STUDY THE WEBSITE UNTIL THEY ARE WELL-VERSED ENOUGH IN IT TO BE ABLE TO DISCUSS IT INTELLIGENTLY, AND TO BELIEVE IN IT ENOUGH TO ENFORCE IT. THIS IS ALL WE NEED TO DO, AS FAR AS GOD IN ME SEES AT PRESENT, FOR GOD TO GIVE ME THE BODY I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT! Now i’ll go back to what i had prepared for today’s dispatch from the Lazarett to You from Your faithful, devoted Husband.

Back to “flower”. This “came up”, sozusagen, ONLY because of the “flourish” linked to “blossom”. So “flower”, from Latin “flos”, appears as “flour” in “flourish”. Flour is GROUND, JUST as i hypothesize the Criminals do to the muscles and bones of Target lads in the Sacrifices, with a capital s. But the SPECTACULAR bodies of Target lads are also THE GROUND, what we STAND ON, so the “floor”, the SUB-STANCE, what STANDS BENEATH. The proper mental attitude to Target lads is THE ground for ALL MENTAL energy, THE key to the PURE, ORTHODOX worship of God, but ONLY AS God hath revealed Itself in the Religion, with a capital r, so as the drive SOLELY to live in everlasting happiness, This is: to Fuck, with a capital f; as well as: space, time, energy, AND, but ONLY BEFORE Fucking: EVIL, the drive SOLELY to cause everlasting death. This is ALL I mean by “God”. ALL ELSE is EVIL WORSHIP, is GROUNDED to EVERLASTING DEATH. Now Latin for “flower”, “flos”, sounds JUST like “floss”, German for “flowed”, and indeed, “flower” can be read as “flow-er”, as “one who flows”, as in a CURRENT, “STROM” in German, which spelled backward is “MORTS”, French for “DEAD” in the sense of “THE dead”, plural, so “MUERTOS” in Spanish, “TOTE” in German, “MORTI” in Italian. To my mind this suggests that THE key to bringing the dead back to life, so that the key to the Resurrection, is to REVERSE SOME SORT of CURRENT; the clue that this is a current lies in the word “strom”, and the clue that there must be a reversal lies in the fact that “strom” REVERSED yields “morts”. Further, “strom” is an anagram of “storm”, which is “sturm” in German, and a “sturm” in German is not just a storm in the meteorological sense, but also in the MILITARY: a CHARGE. But CHARGE is ITSELF PRIMARILY an ELECTRICAL term. German military theoreticians coined the term “blitzkrieg”, usually translated as “lightning war”. But “kriegen” in German means “to catch, to get”, so “blitzkrieg” is, LITERALLY—“Oh, you’re so LITERAL!”—“lightning catch”. The DAMNING—OR BLESSING, REDEEMING, SAVING—LINK to Target lads is that they are “full men”, and “fulmen” is Latin for “lightning”, in French “foudre”, with a d, but “foutre”, with a t and as a NOUN is the EXACT equivalent of English-language “CUM”, “SEMEN”; and as a VERB “foutre” is the EXACT translation of “to fuck”. I interpret all this as LINGUISTIC PROOF that ALL wars, so in ALL LANDS AND EPOCHS, have ALWAYS pursued the SOLE OBJECTIVE of CATCHING TARGET LADS, and this for Sacrifice. “How dark the con of man!” The most famous instance of “foutre” in my mind occurred in the CLIMAX—speaking of fucking and cummin’—of the Franco-Prussian War, in 1871, toward the collapse of the French defenders in the Prussian siege of the fortified city of Sedan. At some point an aide-de-camp rushed to the French commander of the defense with some sort of message of encouragement from Emperor Napoleon III, “Le Petit”, “The Little”, to distinguish him from his uncle, the great Napoleon Bonaparte, who was famously VERY short. The French commander spun around and YELLED at the aid: “L’Empreur peut aller se faire FOUTRE!” “The Emperor can go get FUCKED!” French commanders are World famous for such earthy ejaculations. At the Battle of Waterloo, Napoleon’s final defeat, what SEALED the Duke of Wellington’s victory was the Coldstream Guards’ complete encirclement of the giant veterans of the French Imperial Guard. The British commander called out, in French, to his French counterpart: “Français! Rendez-vous!” “Frenchmen! Surrender!” And the commander of the Imperial Guard truculently replied, hoarsely and at the top of his lungs: “MERDE! La Garde MEURT, et ne se rend PAS!” literally “SHIT! The Guard DIES, and does NOT surrender!” but idiomatically “FUCK YOU! The Guard DIES, and does NOT surrender!”

But zurück to “κρυπ”, this sounds JUST like “croupe”, which is the HAUNCH, so the MOST MUSCULAR PART, of a hindquarter on a HORSE. And Lenin’s so-called wife of MANY years was Надежда Крупская, so “Hope”, because this is what “Надежда” literally means, or “Esperanza”, MOTHER’s first name. AS WELL as that of the SWEET lass STABBED OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN THE CHEST in Dead Man Walking, who kissed the young man in the front seat of his car, SO sincerely in LOVE, SO WARMLY, BOTH MELTING with DESIRE in each other’s arms. You NEVER kissed me like that, Kirti; ONLY I did. You just perfunctorily placed Your arms on my scrawny shoulders and let me lose myself in Your mouth. When i did so in the female cubby one evening and complained to You due to Your coldness, “Kirti, You’re such a COCK-TEASE!” You smiled and rejoined, “In California we say ‘PRICK-tease’”. I was UTTERLY WRONG to complain: i SHOULD have known that You just DID NOT DESIRE ME AT ALL, and that was SOLELY EVIL’s fault, for having CURSED me with such an UNTERMENSCH’s BODY. But this was a BLESSING IN DISGUISE, for if i had been a Target lad, and thus able to FIRE You with UNRESTRAINABLE LUST for me, i would NEVER have made it to NOC. No. I would have been SUCKED INTO the Criminals’ MEAT GRINDER in HIGH SCHOOL, like Target lad Isaac Menda, a fellow Saint John’s student and older brother or cousin, i’m not sure which, of my classmate Nelson Menda. The Mendas were Cuban Hebrews and Jews of Italian descent, and it was my classmate Carl Hermann Kruse III, a mulatto Puerto Rican whose paternal grandfather had immigrated to Puerto Rico from Germany and gone native, married a mulatta or dark-skinned Afro-Puerto-Rican woman, who came up to me one morning in the school cafeteria to tell me breathlessly: “¡Isaac Menda DESAPARECIÓ!” “Isaac Menda DISAPPEARED!” Isaac was SPECTACULAR, like Absalom in the Tanakh, he was GORGEOUS from the SOLES of his FEET to the CROWN of his HEAD: tanned, with STUNNING BLUE EYES and short, wavy light brown hair. As to the savage stabbing scene in Dead Man Walking, on our way back from the theater, You spat out VENOM about the MURDERERS, and how they DESERVED PUNISHMENT for the HIDEOUSNESS of the double murder of two such innocent, interiorly and outwardly beautiful young people. And even then i cautioned You against hate, for whatever reason. Kirti, Dr. George Calhoun, currently the founder and professor of the Stevens Institute of Technology’s most successful program, that in quantitative finance, and i shudder to bore You with an account of his MANY achievements, in MANY fields in business over the course of some 45 years, so Dr. Calhoun, who met me in Puerto Rico on his honeymoon in 1971 when he stayed with my parents and me accompanied by his newlywed wife Dr. Maria Rosa Menocal, who would go on to become a Sterling Professor of Romance Languages at Yale University and director for 10 years of the Yale Whitney Humanities Center and World-famous author of the book The Ornament of the World: How Jews, Muslims and Christians Built a Culture of Tolerance in Medieval Spain, but who passed away at 59 in 2012 of lung cancer, so Dr. Calhoun can corroborate for You, i’ll give You his number so You can leave him a query, that on a trip with me, as we waited for our food at a restaurant somewhere, i told him, “I do not believe in punishment”. I was a BOY! “From the mouths of babes…”, says Psalms 8:2; in Luther’s translation: “Aus dem munde der jungen kinder und säuglinge hast Du eine macht zugerichtet um Deiner feinde willen, dass Du vertilgest den feind und den rachgierigen.” And YOU, my Treasure, my Joy, my Hope, my SOLE FITTING REWARD, were “rachgierig”, “thirsty for revenge”. So, Wife of my SOLE sweet, fond aspiration, IF i had been the ONLY THING I WANT to be, YOUR DEVOTED HEAVENLY VIKING i would have suffered the fate of ALL Target lads. And even if i had been just plain erotic but without rising to the category of a Target lad, the attention of whoreny lasses and women would have made it impossible for me to exist in the UTTER SOLITUDE that ALONE enabled God to make Itself HEARD to me. My “temperature” and “density” would have been FAR TOO HIGH for the thoughts that God NEEDED SOMEONE to think to have COALESCED and then COHERED in this part of God’s mind that my mind was and remains.

at night shortly before And “круп” sounds also like “croup”, which is an infectious disease of the LARYNX, so of the THROAT, as in DEEP throat, so IRRESISTIBLY SUGGESTIVE of a woman fellating an ENORMOUS COCK, SO LONG it reaches all the way down into her throat. Ah, this is LENGTH! But what about the EQUALLY VITAL ELEMENT of GIRTH? THICKNESS? I, for instance, have 5-incher, when fully stiffened, and it is about 2 1/2 inches WIDE at its THICKEST. So SHORT and STUBBY, like a .38 snub nose, if we MUST analogize COCKS to WEAPONS, a stratagem of EVIL ALONE, for a COCK, when used as is pleasing to God, GIVES LIFE, HEALS. “Sexual healing” is the title of a hit song by the African-American Hot 8 Brass Band, so “Hot” as in THRILLING sex, 8 as in the numeral God hath linked INEXTRICABLY to Fucking, with a CAPITAL f, in this part of Its mind that MY mind is; and the acronym of “Brass Band” is BB, which is Cyrillic for VV, as in “Victor Villalon” (or, to stay close to our Nazi roots: “Blonde Bestie”, “Blond Beast”, the Nazi bodily ideal for men). And for the last Comment on my “short and stubby” peter as a weapon, it reminds me of the Imperial German siege mortars that brought to their knees the Belgian frontier fortresses of Eben Emael in August of 1914. These mortars were almost impossibly SHORT, but JUST as IMPOSSIBLY WIDE. The great Hebrew, and possibly Jewish, i do not know, historian the late Barbara Tuchman, wrote in The Guns of August, which is about the first few weeks of World War I and which i read at NOC following BLAINE’s recommendation, that German gunnery was so DEVASTATINGLY ACCURATE—“TREFFSICHER” is the technical German term—and INEXORABLE that the defenders cowering underground in the fortresses went INSANE with TERROR as the German artillerists “walked”, as Tuchman wrote, their mortars’ shells up the hills closer and closer to bull’s eye as they SYSTEMATICALLY, METHODICALLY, perfected their aim with every shell that fell short.

Now back to “bomb”. “Bomb” in Spanish is “bomba”, which is ALSO the Spanish word for “pump”, as in “to pump iron”, to lift weights, THE highroad to MUSCULAR development; and as in “to pump CUM”, an UR-exciting METAPHOR for the CLIMAX of sexual ecstasy in a fertile male: EJACULATION. The perfective of “to ejaculate” in Russian is “извергнуть”, “из” means “from”, and although “верг” has no meaning IN RUSSIAN, it reminds me of “verga”, Spanish for “pizzle”, the penis of an animal, most commonly of a BULL. And “нуть”, which is Romanized as “nut’”, sounds like “nut”, and even LOOKS like it in transliteration, and “nut” is African-American slang for CUM, for SEMEN.

Now back to “AU”. Still in all caps, and transliterating into Cyrillic, “AU” yields “AY”, which read in Russian sounds like “OW!” the English-language exclamation of PAIN, here EMBEDDING IN LANGUAGE a link between GOLD, hence between Nordic Target lads, and PAIN. This link is confirmed in SPANISH, because “¡AY!” is the SPANISH-language equivalent of “OW!” “Ow” is also “how”, but, as often happens in some British dialects, eliding the h. “How” in German is “wie”, which sounds JUST like the English-language name of the letter v, which in Spanish is “ve”, which sounds very much like German “weh”, which is, again, PAIN. “Ve” is Spanish for both “she/he/it sees” and “[you, informal, singular] go”. “Go” is JAPANESE for “five”, which in ROMAN numerals—“all roads…”—is, yet again! yataghan! V. V is the Latin capital u, whose name in Spanish is IDENTICAL to French “où”, “where”, which, if read in English, once again yields a sound identical to that of “ow!” and which is a homophone of “wear”, as in CLOTHES, but ALSO, in the GENOCIDALLY SLOPPY use of language Evil has INDOCTRINATED the WHOLE ENGLISH-SPEAKING WORLD, as in MUSCLE, DAMNINGLY ATTESTED by the usage “put some MEAT on your BONES!” when muscular development is something that grows from WITHIN, RADIATING—LIKE SUNLIGHT!—FROM the CORE OUT UP AGAINST THE INSIDE OF THE SKIN!

If read in German, “where” sound JUST like “wehr”, which is BOTH “defense” (as in “Gewehr”, “Feuerwehr”, “Reichswehr”, “Abwehr”, “Wehrmacht” and “Bundeswehr”), AND the VERBAL ROOT of “TO defend”, as in “sich gegen des Übels verführerinnen wehren”, “to defend oneself against Evil’s seductresses”.

Nazi street agitators often decried that the Jews [sic] are behind BOTH capitalism AND communism, and so, that if “they” don’t catch you ONE way, “they” catch you the OTHER! And now it has come to light that the Jews were behind NAZIISM TOO! NAY, FURTHER, DEEPER, STILL! “HOW DARK THE CON OF MAN”!: THE philosophical grandfather of BOTH communism AND Naziism was Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel: the LEFT Hegelians became the COMMUNISTS; the RIGHT, the Nazis. But Hegel FAMOUSLY ONCE declared that ALL philosophers were EITHER SPINOZISTS OR NON-Spinozists, AND that ALL philosophers WORTHY of the name were the FORMER, thereby declaring HIMSELF a SPINOZIST. But BARUCH (which is HEBREW for “BLESSED”) Spinoza was a Spanish-Portuguese HEBREW and EXCOMMUNICATED JEW whose PARENTS FLED with him to AMSTERDAM, HOLLAND. SO, NO MATTER WHAT you do, THE JEWS ALWAYS GETCHA! DAGNABBIT! Or, as my father used to quip: “¡Como QUIERA que te pongas, TIENES que LLORAR!” VERY roughly: “No matter HOW you position yourself, you HAVE to CRY!”

So, “pour revenir à nos ‘moutons’”, a “hung Aryan” would be a Viking with a generously proportioned COCK. And finally on this point, THE racial slur, now outmoded, for a Hungarian is “Hunk”, which in U.S. English can mean an EROTIC male, which means ONLY EROTICALLY LEANLY and VASCULARLY MUSCULAR, YOUNG BUT SEXUALLY mature, and with an EROTICALLY SHARP-HEWN, “CHISELLED”, FACE: “THE NORTH FACE”, as in the famous brand of American outdoor recreation products. On The North Face’s website, although their jackets come in MANY colors, THE color chosen for the photos is BLACK, with the logo in small, white letters over the left breast. BLACK with WHITE PIPING was the color scheme of the NAZI SS’s DRESS uniforms. On the Website, in the Chapter The Crime, i have named such young men “Target lads”. I have charged There and Elsewhere that the Criminals have run the entire World at least since the invention of exchange for the SOLE purpose of GROWING, HARVESTING, and SACRIFICING Target lads to the god the Criminals worship: Evil, and these Sacrfices CULMINATE with the Criminals EATING their victims, as if they were but measly HUNKS of MEAT or of BREAD. And indeed, to muscle up is also called to “BEEF” up, or to put “MEAT” on one’s bones. So the Criminals have shaped the very lexicon just to trumpet IN PLAIN SIGHT to the WHOLE WORLD that they EAT the MUSCULAR. LITERALLY. To the Criminals the sex act, besides consisting in MIND-BLASTING VIOLENCE and GORE, is an act of INGESTION. THIS is what explains why “fuck” can be used as a term of GRAVE INSULT, as indeed the WORST one can say to another is “fuck you!” But for a GODLY person, fucking is the Godliest, thus the most beautiful, the highest, the most powerful, expression of Love there is, and our indispensable link to everlasting happiness, to Heaven, because There ALL that ALL living things that EVER shall have been would DO would be to FUCK, MONOGAMOUSLY, HETEROSEXUALLY, AND with the MOST EROTIC BODIES, leaving NOTHING to be desired, but STILL getting ONLY MORE AND MORE EROTIC as time passed, for the rest of time. But the Criminals have ALWAYS COVERED their PAINFULLY OBVIOUS TRACKS with LINGUISTIC CAMOUFLAGE such as the put-down “Oh, you’re so LITERAL!” PRECISELY! WORDS MEAN WHAT THEY MEAN, MY SWEETNESS, AND THE CRIMINALS ARE THE FIRST TO KNOW—AND EXPLOIT—THIS FACT! I am now going to start watching and Commenting on the official music video of Lady Gaga’s Paparazzi.

6/17/2022, 5:17: Ms. Withrow, “before another bit of word gets loose”, as some Country song i just spent about 15 minutes fighting unsuccessfully to track down puts it, i PROSTRATE myself AT YOUR FEET to BEG Your FORGIVENESS, Ma’am, for my OUTRAGEOUS PRESUMPTION in, my ABSOLUTELY UNJUSTIFIED ARROGATION of the PRIVILEGE of, addressing You by Your first name. NEVER AGAIN UNLESS YOU EXPRESSLY ASK me to do so!Ma’am, I do NOT KNOW You. ALL i am CONVINCED of ABOUT You God in me hath either INFERRED OR DEDUCED, and i am JUST as CONVINCED that BOTH my PREMISES AND my REASONING are GOD-solid, Which is IMMEASURABLY MORE so than MERELY “ROCK solid”. Ms. Withrow, on June 15th i Lyfted to the offices of Mega TV in the hope of buttonholing Your countryman Mr. Jaime Bayly Letts and explaining to him why i think interviewing me on his show would be the best thing he ever did. The receptionist, a 55ish Cuban woman by the name of “Gladys Molina”, informed me that Mr. Bayly works ONLY from HOME, even BROADCASTS from there, is now ON VACATION, AND is his OWN PRODUCER. She told me he does not even answer the phone, and that my best bet would be to email him. She gave me what she told me was his address. I then asked her permission to sit on the waiting-area couch, plug in my main iPhone SE 3rd Generation to recharge, and finalize and then send my email to Mr. Bayly. I finished at about 17:50, so JUST IN TIME to take up Ms. Molina on her suggestion that i go to the bathroom before leaving, do my business, and walk out the door. She offered me a ride to shorten the Uber or Lyft ride i was about to hail, and thereby save me a few bucks. On the way i talked to her NON-STOP about the Strategy i am now implementing and how media interviews such as that with Mr. Bayly fit into It. I told her all about what I feel for YOU, AND YOU for ME, and so, that although I HAVE been TORTURINGLY MARRIED to YOU, for 33 YEARS! YOU feel ONLY REVULSION for me, and ALWAYS HAVE. ALL YOU have been OBSESSIVELY STALKING me ALL these TERRIBLE years for has been the “LLUVIA DE ORO”, the “RAIN OF GOLDEN ONES”, and as Jennifer Connolly’s character tells the actor who plays Bruce Banner in one of the Hulk films: “When it rains, where do all the frogs go?” “Frogs” usually refer to FRENCHMEN, because of the GUTTURALITY—THROATINESS! DEEP THROAT!—of French; but GERMAN, and GERMANY produces the most GORGEOUS MEN—“CARS”! “KARS”! “HARDS”!—ON EARTH, is JUST as GUTTURAL, so GERMANS können ja YENAUSOBERECHTIGT als “FRÖSCHE” BEZEICHNET WERDEN! And WHITHER do they ALL GO? Well, to MS, to the MC; or, later to 109—as in MESSERSCHMITT (ANOTHER MS!), the “war-HORSE”—CROUPE! KRUPP…STAHL!—of the Luftwaffe in World War II—Main Street (ANOTHER MS!), Upton (me, in a 2003 voicemail to you: “Kirti, ‘in and for’ as in ‘in and for itself’ in German is ‘an und für’, ‘a-u-f’, ‘auf”, which is German for ‘UP’! THIS is WASSUP!”), Massachusetts—MA, as in MOTHER, as in MILF, “MOTHER I’D LIKE TO FUCK”, Your MOUTH WIDE OPEN for the GIANT, VOLUMINOUSLY CUM-SPURTING COCKS on the IRRESISTIBLY HARD, SHARP, ANGULAR, LEANLY MUSCLED AND VASCULAR VIKING MOTHER-FUCKERS who have been FLOCKING to YOU, to FUCK TEACHER! THE SOPHISTICATED, FILTHY RICH, IRRESISTIBLY EROTIC, SEXUALLY EXPERT, OLDER WOMAN, THE COUGAR! A FELINE RAPTOR! RAP-TRIX! HÖCHSTE PRIESTERIN DES WELTWEITEN ÜBELSKULTUS! FÜHRERIN DER DAMEN DER WELTWEITEN ÜBELS GEHEIME POLIZEI, JUNGENJÄGERINNEN UND FRESSERINNEN! Tell You what, Ms. Withrow, what is needed NOW is “a LOT less TALK and a LOT more ACTION!” to emend Toby Keith, with all due Love—TO OBLIVION WITH RESPECT, YOU WHORE OF EVIL! I NEVER want to SEE You, EVER AGAIN! OR HEAR YOU, OR OF YOU, EVER AGAIN! AND I WILL NEVER AGAIN COMMUNICATE WITH YOU, NOR ACCEPT ANY COMMIUNICATION FROM YOU! “NIE WIEDER”, TOCHTER BABYLONS! TOCHTER SODOMS! MASSENMÖRDERIN UND QUÄLERIN GOTTES PRÄCHTIGSTER SCHÖPFUNGEN! DER SCHÖNSTEN WIKINGER! UNLESS WE MEET IN EVERLASTING HAPPINESS, THIS IS: UNLESS I AND YOU FUCK, WHICH COULD BE ONLY IN HEAVEN! AND THIS IS LOOKING ONLY EVER LESS AND LESS LIKELY! SO YOU CAN FORGET FOREVER ABOUT BEING THE “VICE-SUPREME-LEADER” IN GOD’S SYSTEM, IN THE NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE CASE GOD COULD EVER ESTABLISH IT! I’M DELETING THAT BIT OF SUICIDAL, GOTTESTÖDLICHE CLAUDICATION, AS WELL AS EVERY LAST, SINGLE, SOLITARY MENTION OF YOUR ACCURSÈD NAME, FROM THE PROGRAM FOR GOD’S SYSTEM AS SOON AS I UPLOAD THIS FARE-BEST! “YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE AT THIS POINT”—OR EVER! ANYWHERE ON EARTH! YOU ARE PERSONA NON GRATA TO ME THIS SIDE —CIS! SIS!—OF HEAVEN! “‘ALTA Y SOBAJADA SEÑORA’: SI QUIERE ME LO ACEPTA, Y SI NO: ¡CHIRRÍN CHIRRÁN!” ¡Y ENCANTADO DE LA VIDA, MALDITA! to emend Carlos Puebla. OVER AND OUT! FOREVER! AND ALL I WANT, LIVE AND WORK FOR IS TO FUCK YOU, BUT ONLY IN HEAVEN, AND THUS WITH THE BODY I MUST HAVE TO DO SO THE WAY I WANT TO—NAY! MUST!—THIS IS: GOD IN ME WANTS TO—NAY! MUST!—DO SO, TO MAKE MY BLESSÈD, SOVEREIGN, SELF HAPPIEST! FOREVER! ABER INZWISCHEN UND BIS DANN: ZUR IMMERWÄHRENDEN VERGESSENHEIT MIT IHNEN, VERFLUCHTE! AND BEST RIDDANCE! VON NUN AN BIS ZUM IMMERWÄHRENDEN TODE ODER BIS ZU GOTTES IMMERWÄHRENDEN FICKENS WERDE ICH MICH ALS DER SCHWARZE WITWER, STETS IN STILLER TRAUER, BETRACHTEN! KIRTI DELENDA EST! DEVS DIXIT! 6/17/2022, 8:24.

6/21/2022, 2:27: Ms. Withrow, my Dearest! This is your Victor! If God through me succeeds in establishing God’s system at least in the U.S., for starters, i will do all that God may put in my power to have You transported to the nearest supermax prison AT THE LATEST at the INSTANT God seizeth power, so You shall be PHYSICALLY COMPLETELY SAFE. The VOLCANIC HATRED that the crimes Evil shall have driven You to perpetrate up to the instant of the beginning of God’s system’s realization have FLOODED the World with ENSURES that if i did not move AT ONCE to PROTECT You in this way, some rabid mob would chase You down wherever You are, drag You out onto the street, and MURDER You in the most PAINFUL way that whoever leads this rabble could imagine, when ALL You deserve, Madam, is EVERLASTING HAPPINESS, Thus to Fuck, with a capital f, and in the meantime, to live by the Loving laws of God’s system. You shall drink only filtered water, all You want; You shall eat the diet of God’s system, You shall have a sink, toilet and toilet paper in Your cell; You shall sleep whenever You want; You shall shower whenever You want; You shall have access to a fully equipped gymnasium so You can do ærobic AND AN-ærobic exercise. Ms. Withrow, so You shall be certain beyond any doubt that i am not philandering, i propose to You that i live in the cell with You, NEVER leaving Your side. This would fill me with joy, beLovèd and beLusted lady, all 3 with CAPITAL l! And although my body is sexually repulsive, i will ECSTATICALLY indulge Your EVERY desire for sex with me. It’ll be a LOUSY “diet” for You, but a woman’s gotta “eat”! “Heating AND eating: we need both!” remember, Darling? You shall have a computer and bluetooth speakers to do all Your studying and writing, and to listen, or not, to whatever music it pleases you to. I’ll converse with You, overflowing with tenderness for You, ALL You want, EVEN IF conversing ends up taking up ALL our time outside of that we’ll need to satisfy our bodily Needs. And, Love of my existence, everything good that ever happened to me, my redemption, my salvation, my healing, my shield and armor: if all You want to do is stay in bed, even if fully awake, doing NOTHING ELSE, it’ll be almost Heaven for me to be right with You, Loving You, in the hope that some day, IF there is enough time AND IF God equips me for It, God will succeed in FILLING You with Love for all forms of matter that EVER shall have been, and through this INCOMPARABLE BLESSING give You light and sight to discern what Your Godly calling is, and from then on You shall LOVE EVERY INSTANT of Your life and THROW Yourself into whatever Work God will have revealed to You is what ALONE SHALL make You happiest! ALL i want to be is Your MOST SERVILE SLAVE, O NOBLEST MISTRESS! But when is a slave NOT a slave? When ALL he wants is to go on living forever in this odd sort of slavery that by this very fact alone is none at all, but in fact PUREST FREEDOM. ALL i want is to be Your most FANATICALLY DEVOUT WORSHIPPER, O HIGHEST GODDESS! But goddess Kirti, didst thou create the Universe? Me? Thee thyself? Ms. Withrow, my Heaven, This’ll do it for me for now! I wish You Heaven, Thus to be There with You and for the rest of time, STARTING RIGHT NOW! Auf sehr baldiges wiederreden, mein EINZIGER schatz!

(6/21/2022 finishg @ ~7:16, i called about 10 times, but it just rang; no answering machine came on.)

6/25/2022, 16:38:

TO: Her World-Imperial Majesty, the Empress Kirti Sue Withrow.

FR: Her HUMBLEST, UNWORTHIEST SLAVE, SERF, PLOWMAN, GUAJIRO/GAÑÁN/JÍBARO CARRETERO, Victor Luis Villalon-Suarez.

RE: DICK-TAT! (or should that be “PRICK-TAT”, Majesty, HOW didst thou say to me thou used to phrase it “in Kalifornien”?)

Thy Majesty: for several days now it is my conviction that my SOLE hope of EVER realizing the DREAM whose MATERIALIZATION is ALL i live for, namely, O INCOMPARABLY EROTIC WOMAN, to fuck thee FOREVER WITH the BODY ONLY the GOD I WORSHIP COULD “endow” me with, This is: to Fuck, is for thee to DIE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. The ONLY things that MIGHT induce me to “reconsider” this SENTENCE are:

I: perceiving through ALL 5 of my senses on ALL media ALL GLORY(“KIRTI” in Sanskrit and Hindi, and perhaps also even in Urdu), HONOR, PRAISE and THANKS being given to the God I worship. It SHOULD be UNNECESSARY to SPECIFY what follows, because it is IMPLICIT, INESCAPABLY, in the “ALL”, but JUST to INSULT thy intelligence, Majesty: this means: “ALL GLORY, HONOR, PRAISE and THANKS SOLELY to the God I worship”;

II: learning from Arcangelo Daniele Farina on Monday, 6/27/2022, that he has received a direct deposit of $5,000 from “God as God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info”, and EVERY MONDAY THEREAFTER UNLESS GOD SUCCEEDETH IN ABOLISHING MONEY, namely by establishing God’s system;

III: learning from Erzengel retired “U.S.”

(like HELL, thy IRRESISTIBLE Majesty: EVERYTHING belongs SOLELY to GOD AS God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info!)

Navy SEAL Commander 5 Herrn Karl Arteaga Casanova on Monday, 6/27/2022, that he has received a direct deposit of $5,000 from “God as God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info", and EVERY MONDAY THEREAFTER UNLESS GOD SUCCEEDETH IN ABOLISHING MONEY, namely by establishing God’s system;

and:

IV: learning from Mr. McKenley Keith

(DEM HERRN FELDMARSCHALL VON KEITH! “POTZ, MOHREN, BLITZ und KREUZ-Sakrament!”):

A: that he has been “picked up” and moved into a BEAUTIFUL, IMPECCABLY CLEAN, FULLY FURNISHED

(so INCLUDING a WALL-SIZED, STATE-OF-THE-ART TV with FULLY PAID CABLE FOREVER UNLESS GOD SUCCEEDETH IN ABOLISHING MONEY, namely by establishing God’s system, so he can indulge his passion for action films)

EFFICIENCY in COCONUT GROVE, so one equipped with a WASHER AND DRIER, with ALL EXPENSES PAID, so INCLUDING ALL UTILITIES: WATER, ELECTRICITY, GAS and CABLE FOREVER UNLESS GOD SUCCEEDETH IN ABOLISHING MONEY, namely by establishing God’s system;;

B: that he has received delivery of a BICYCLE IDENTICAL TO THE ONE I OWN, along with :

1: the BEST BICYCLE-RIDING HELMET MONEY CAN BUY,

2: the BEST BICYCLE LOCK and CABLE money can buy,

3: a LIFETIME SUPPLY of SPARE 26” INNER TUBES,

4: the BEST BICYCLE COMPACT TOOLKIT money can buy;

5: a LIFETIME SUPPLY of WD-40 to lubricate HIS bicycle,

and:

6: a LIFETIME SUPPLY of GRAPHITE LOCK LUBRICANT for HIS lock;

C: that he has received delivery of a BACKPACK IDENTICAL to the one i use when i ride MY bicycle,

D: that he will be “picked up” at a time of HIS choosing TO obtain PERSONAL “GOLD-STAR” PHOTO IDENTIFICATION ISSUED by the State of Florida,

E: a LIFETIME SUPPLY of METRORAIL PASSES,

AND:

F: that he has received a direct deposit of $5,000 from “God as God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info”, and EVERY MONDAY THEREAFTER UNLESS GOD SUCCEEDETH IN ABOLISHING MONEY, namely by establishing God’s system;

V: learning from Archangel Mr. James Boyd Woodard, discharged other than honorably from the U.S.

(like HELL, thy IRRESISTIBLE Majesty: EVERYTHING belongs SOLELY to GOD AS God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info!)

Navy, on Monday, 6/27/2022, that:

A: he has received a direct deposit of $5,000 from “God as God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info", and EVERY MONDAY THEREAFTER UNLESS GOD SUCCEEDETH IN ABOLISHING MONEY, namely by establishing God’s system;

B: the Social Security Administration has approved his application for Social Security Disability and deposited HIS first payment

(so, to INSULT thy intelligence yet again—yataghan!—thy HOTNESS: that a BANK ACCOUNT has been OPENED for him at WHICHEVER of Bank of America or Chase Bank has the most branches nearest him, and thus also, to KEEP HUMILIATING THY INSUFFERABLY and SADISTICALLY DESPOTIC and ARROGANT IMPERIAL MAJESTY: that he has been issued a DEBIT card);

C: the U.S.

(like HELL, thy IRRESISTIBLE Majesty: EVERYTHING belongs SOLELY to GOD AS God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info!)

Navy has changed Mr. Woodard’s discharge status to “discharged with the DEEPEST GRATITUDE for THE MOST DISTINGUISHED SERVICE” AND AWARDED this NOBLEST SOUTHERN GENTLEMAN a $5,000 a month military pension;

and:

D: a “crack” team of housing specialists has met with him to LEARN from him WHERE he would MOST like to live; so in what LOCATION AND in WHAT SORT OF RESIDENCE, FOUND him this residence, AND MOVED HIM INTO IT, WITH ALL EXPENSES PAID EXACTLY as in Herrn Feldmarschall von Keith’s case;

and:

MAJESTY! MY DREAM! MY TREASURE! MY HOPE! MY SOLE ACCEPTABLE REWARD! MY SALVATION! MY REDEMPTION! MY ALL THAT HAS EVER BEEN GOOD IN MY LIFE! These are my INITIAL “TERRITORIAL DEMANDS”.

With NOTHING ELSE FOR NOW, i wish thee, MAJESTY of my MOST ARDENT LUST, that thou Fuckest, So with WHOEVER WOULD be thy husband in Heaven, whether this would be me or not—ist mir ja WURSCHT!—, RAHT FUCKIN’ NAH! GOD Loves AND Lusts for thee, THROUGH ME; I am but the CONDUIT, the INSTRUMENT. Over and out.

6/25/2022, 17:41 (1741, speaking of Friedrich dem “Großen”, was the year of his Majesty’s FIRST VICTORY: at the Battle of Möllwitz.)

6/26/2022, 15:56: See thee whenever thou gettest here. Plan to disappear with and into thee. Forever. THY VICTOR—>VIKTOR—>FICK-TOR—>FICK-TAUR…nuff said, gorgeous. All and only for thee. 19:17: I BEG thy forgiveness, thy majesty, that SHOULD have read “IF thou EVER gettest here.” And if thou dost NOT, the DEATH SENTENCE STANDS.

6/27/2022, 1:25:

TO: the goddess, her World-imperial majesty, Kirti Sue Withrow

FR: her HUMBLEST, UNWORTHIEST SLAVE, SERF, PLOWMAN, etc., Victor Luis Villalon-Suarez

RE: DICK-TWAT (“COCHITUATE”—>CUSHY TWAT!): additional “territorial demand”

VII: learning from Officer Dalrisia Ridley on Monday, 6/27/2022, that she has received a direct deposit of $5,000 from “God as God hath defined Itself in heaveneverlastinghappiness.info”, and EVERY MONDAY THEREAFTER UNLESS GOD SUCCEEDETH IN ABOLISHING MONEY, namely by establishing God’s system.

6/28/2022, 5:39:

TO: Ms. Kirti Sue Withrow

FR: a man who WAS, but as of Saturday, 6/25/2022, NO LONGER IS your Husband, Victor Luis Villalon-Suarez: i have seen BY UNIMAGINABLY FAR the most EXTRAORDINARILY EROTIC WOMAN EVER in MY ENTIRE LIFE, LIGHT YEARS ABOVE YOU EVEN IN YOUR HEYDAY, as i sat on a benchat the entrance to the Southwest 27th Avenue Publix. God drove me to look up from the phone i was working on JUST in time to CATCH the MOST FLEETING GLIMPSE of her as she SASHAYED past me on Her way out of the store. That woman has POSSESSED ME WHOLLY. It was the coup de foudre (foutre!). I had NEVER EVEN IMAGINED such EROTICITY was even POSSIBLE. WHAT A FIGURE! GOD! WHAT MASTERY THOU EXHIBITEDEST WHEN THOU “FASHIONEDEST” HER!

RE: your ONLY ESCAPE from EXECUTION AS SOON AS (IF!) GOD establishes Its World system, as the VERY FIRST ITEM on the Régime’s agenda

Madam, to escape execution, you MUST:

I: compose a document setting forth what you undertake to do for God AS GOD HATH DEFINED ITSELF in the Website,

II: call me to inform me you have finished composing it

and:

III: IF i am SATISFIED with your undertaking in (I), move in with me wherever i inform you i am living whenever (IF EVER!) you call me; and if i am DIS-SATISFIED, go right the fuck back to the drawing board and TRY AGAIN. You shall ONLY ONE MORE CHANCE if you fail in your SECOND attempt.

Übrigens:

Ms. Dalrisia Ridley has proven herself unworthy of being counted among those deserving generosity. So i think it would be best to delete “territorial demand” number VII, above. Madam, i MOST HUMBLY ENTREAT your forgiveness for the NUMEROUS ERRORS OF JUDGMENT that enabled Ms. Ridley to retain my attention for as long as Evil drove her to. I have deleted her entry in my Contacts, so no longer have ANY WAY to contact her, for i did not memorize ANY of her contact information. And if SHE reaches out to ME:

I: by PHONE: as i shall not recognize her number in caller ID, most likely i will not even answer. But of late i HAVE been taking calls from unknown callers. If it turns out to be her, as SOON as i hear her voice i intend to HANG UP without a SINGLE WORD. If she leaves a voicemail message, i will delete it unheard and unread (for the iPhone i use for calls automatically transcribes English-language messages);

II: in WRITING: i will not even open the Message or envelope containing her message, and if the envelope does not identify her as the sender, so that i open it, as SOON as i can conclude it IS from her, i will stop reading and throw it out.

Over and out! Raus!

7/7/2022, 0:02:

TO: Ms. Kirti Sue Withrow

FR: Victor Luis Villalon-Suarez, a Husband of yours

(there MAY be ONE OR MORE OTHERS—i SIMPLY do NOT KNOW HOW MANY MEN WANT ONLY TO FUCK you, with CAPITAL f, as I do, but as for ME, THE MORE THE BETTER! THIS way you’ll be able to COMPARE HANDS-ON UNTIL you find THE one that gives you the VERY BEST “FILLIN’”, and because ALL i want is to KNOW that you are HAPPIEST, THAT’ll be THE one i’ll want for YOU, THE one i’ll want you to HAVE, so when there’s NO MORE DOUBT “WHATSOEVER AT ALL” LEFT IN YOUR MIND ANYMORE: ABSOLUTE WISSENSCHAFTLICHE GEWISSHEIT WILL ICH FÜR DICH, GELIEBTE MEINES HERZENS!)

RE: condition SINE QVA NON for ANY FUTURE contact between us

Love, IF you want to communicate with me, you MUST satisfy me OVERWHELMINGLY on ONE SINGLE POINT: EL “punto de la dignidad” (allusion to Carlos Puebla; a VERY DANCEABLE song, btw). This DEMAND of mine applies to EVERYONE: it is thus COMMON TO ALL—>ALL-COMMON—>ALL-GEMEIN—>ALLGEMEIN—>GENERAL: what WILL you do for God? I have BLOCKED you in my phones. There is ONLY ONE WAY for you to reach out to me: you have NO CHOICE BUT to COME TO MY DOORSTEP and KNOCK, because i WILL NOT READ ANY TEXT, EMAIL OR LETTER you send me. As an old Cuban fellow-renter at the San Diego, California, SRO hotel the Golden West Hotel, the GREATEST place i’ve EVER inhabited—UNTIL room 110 of the Gables Inn, where i now am and from where i am composing this bagatelle for you—, once said to me, totally out of the blue one morning during a visit i paid him in his room: “¡Hay que tirarse!” which he said smiling mischeviously at me and with a HILARIOUS diving-into-a-pool-headfirst-leading-with-both-arms outstretched-and-knifeblade-hands gesture. ¡Pasión de mi vida! ¡Me he pasado 33 años no haciendo nada más que tirándome AL VACÍO SÓLO por algún día Singarte, así que PARA SIEMPRE, BRUTALMENTE CEGADO a mi PROPIO, ÚNICO, INSUPERABLE VALOR! ¡SE ACABÓ! ¡NO EXISTE NADA MÁS DESEABLE QUE YO EN EL UNIVERSO! ¡EL GIGANTE HA DESPERTADO! Así que de este instante en adelante, te toca a TI tirarte—PERO SÓLO SI TE IMPORTO LO BASTANTE. Y, a diferencia de mí, PRECIOSA, NO se estará tirando al vacío, sino a mis brazos abiertos y ávidos de Usted. Lo peor que podría pasa, que se me ocurra en este momento, sería que lo que Usted se comprometiera a hacer por Dios me dejara insatisfecho. En ese caso: ¡NADA! ¡A TRATAR DE NUEVO! ¡SI LO DESEA! ¡CUANTAS VECES DIOS LA ANIME A HACERLO! ¡YO NUNCA ME CANSARÉ DE ABRIRLE LA PUERTA PARA ESCUCHARLA! ¡HASTA EL AÑORADO DÍA EN QUE USTED ME DIGA LO QUE YO NECESITO OÍR DE USTED! DOST THOU NOT FEEL JUSTLY TREATED, MADAM? I’LL ANSWER FOR THEE: NO ONE HAS EVER TREATED THEE MORE JUSTLY, THEE OR ANYONE ELSE, FOR THAT MATTER, EVER IN THE 13.7 BILLION YEARS GOD HATH BEEN IN EXISTENCE! For God, as Muslims have know since the Seventh Century a.D., is, among ITS

(it is a FELONY to refer to God as “He” OR “She”! You DIE for it!)

MANY attributes, “the Just”, “al-‘Adl”, الْعَدْل. But since the cursèd invention of exchange, the VORACIOUS, SADO-CANNIBALISTIC HUNT (KUNT!) for Target lads, those “Männlein ohne fehl” (3 Mose 22:19), has hinged WHOLLY on PROGRAMMING US

(“US”! “US”! As if I were ONE of them! My APOLOGIES! I FLATTER myself UTTERLY BASELESSLY! BUTT it’s JUST for RHETORICAL EF-FUCKED!)

to at ALL costs, UTTERLY WITHOUT “RECK”, GO AFTER those IRRESISTIBLE [L]ASSES, SHARP and SHINY like the FISH HOOKS

(and i quote—THEE! to ME, BREATHLESSLY, FROM thy RIGHT hand, FURTIVELY, INTO my LEFT as we passed each other on the stairs to the second floor—circa March 1989, in thy handwriting, in black ink on a pale yellow post-it: “I’m HOOKED”—MY capitalization, for stress)

and BITE DOWN HARD on them, to drive the hooks DEEPEST into our “flesh”—MINDS: “Darum wird ein mann vater und mutter verlassen und an seinem weibe hangen, und sie werden sein ein fleisch.”—1 Mose 2:24. SEE YA! IF i sees ya! Bis dann! Tschüss!